#our system

[only-knives]

personhood is a social construct. you can be multiple people in one body. it's a matter of identity, not external or physical observation.

for people with DID (& similar conditions) specifically, alters activity can be mapped in the brain. to that end, alters are part of one brain. to some, that means that means alters are parts of one person. but that's not how every system is going to feel.

in our system, we see ourselves as different neural pathways that together make up the appearance of one person, but it's more like we're... variants of a person who doesn't really exist. kind of like how there's the OG character and the AU character. they're the same character but not the same person and the person doesn't really exist.

some people see this as being parts of one person, others don't. if someone understands their system as being multiple people instead of parts, don't correct them! if someone understands their system as being parts of one person, don't correct them! if someone uses terms other than alter (ex: headmate, sysmate, etc), don't correct them!

systems are allowed to decide how to refer to themselves. it's a highly unique experience for all of us. we should all be respecting that, regardless of system origin. multiplicity, plurality, more than one. "multiple people" is just as valid a version of that as "parts of a whole."

[thethreeofusalone]

For Pride Month!

PT below cut

Panel 1: Julian (underlined) Biromantic Asexual Trans man Trill kin

Panel 2: Dean (underlined) Biromantic Bisexual Trans man

Panel 3: Silhou (underlined) Aroace Kenochoric*

Panel 4: Ry (underlined) Doesn’t like labels BUT (underlined Aroace He/him agender

*Kenochoric is an umbrella term for genders centered around liminal spaces, emptiness, disconnect, nonhumanity, the uncanny, and many others.

[askthegardensystem]

((this one might be controversial 😶))

Out here shaking my friends who are newly going through system discovery like "Don't make the same mistakes I did!" - Hibi

[intersexfairy]

just gonna list what parts of my body give me dysphoria and or i have internalized bigotry around

breasts: REMOVE. double incision, ideally w/the scar in one line (no break between breasts). no nips. need all the tattoo real estate and i hate nipples they squick me out and give me massive dysphoria. also i do not want to even deal with the possibility of them falling off. or getting infected. or needing revision.

upper arms/hips/thighs/butt: SMALLER. much smaller. so much fucking smaller. i still want a high waist:hip ratio tho bc i love that for me. i have batwings and i want them gone bc my brain tells me thats a feminine feature (probably bc women are shamed for them more. didnt even occur to me cis perisex men can get them)

voice: ANDROGYNOUS. in a bit of a pickle tho bc im plural and different alters have different voices. like jules has a fem voice, jamie has a neutral one. matt and jordan have masc voices, with jordan's being the lowest.

jawline: more square and angular. my jaw is actually really small (and receeded) bc im a mutant (connective tissue disorder caused my mouth to be too small for my face/tongue actually) but i digress - im glad for the fat around my face for filling out my jaw.

hands: they're so tiny. child sized. bc im a little person (depending on who you ask). nothing i can do about it though. f

body hair: LESS PLEASE GOD. i do want to still have some bc it's fun being cheeky (fuck you to the patriarchy), but i dont want it covering every square inch of my body like it does now. i'd like to lighten the hair on my limbs.

facial hair: mixed feelings! i think i like how much i have right now since it just gives me a soft & light mustache. but i dont like my neck or jaw facial hair really. sideburns are okay. i like pulling on them to see my skin stretch off of my face lol. but i shaved a few weeks ago so they're gone. which is fine.

height: love hate relationship. people have always said im cute/adorable for being so short. and i like being cute/adorable. but i dont like being infantilized and. people who assume im a little boy until they see my chest have given me the dirtiest looks. i feel a lot of shame & fear over being short.

stomach: yeah i do feel shame over how fat i am but. i genuinely feel dysphoria about my stomach. i do not want the stomach hair my genes gave me. if it were a neat, light happy trail i'd take it, but it's not. it's like. the same distribution as on my legs. also the shape of it gives me dysphoria. i think i have a B or apron belly (cant remember which) and so i guess i associate it with femininity like with batwings.

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so given all that, maybe my GP was right that low dose T isn't for me - at least not right now. the bulk of my dysphoria is from my body shape/fat distribution and how hairy i am. so going on T would help the body shape over time, but i would still need surgery and it would just give me more body hair especially since to keep body fat redistribution you have to stay on T.

private area: clitorophallus release w/ circumcision, labia reduction, pubic mound reduction. basically: free my dick from its flesh prison but dont fuck with the inside that sounds painful and im not doing that

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i guess my first step really should be top surgery. the next step would be body masculinization surgery.

then, now that we have less surface area, a lot of electrolysis.. if my skin can handle it. IDK how electrolysis impacts defective connective tissue.

and THEN there is space for all the tattoos i want. i may get medical tattoos for nipples if i end up not liking the look (but i dont think that'll be necessary). other than that, ink me up in black and gray :)

the last thing would be bottom surgery if i choose - it is something i could live without (unlike top surgery), but it would give me so much gender euphoria.

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i really do think i'd be happier with a flat chest that i can just. slap a bra and insert into. i would get a radical reduction but i dont wanna have to wear a bra and i wanna be able to take my shirt off outside.

then again, no cis guy has a perfectly flat chest, so i guess i would want a bit of fat left over, just no breast tissue.

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hmm. ok! TL;DR, my ideal transition in order:

Top Surgery: Double incision, no nipple grafts

Bottom Surgery: Clitoral release, mons resection, removal of excess skin

Body Surgery: Lipo on hips, ass, thighs, stomach, and upper arms. Androgynous build w/my slutty waist retained.

Electrolysis: All over. Start with back, chest, stomach, and upper arms. Once happy with that, lighten up hair on limbs, but dont remove all of it.

Tattoos: Artistic, maybe medical

Dysphoria Aids: Prosthetics (A cup breast forms, silicone nipples, & a small packer for a small person ♡)

I tried to write this in a way that was not disparaging myself for being fat and I dont think I did perfect but I am proud of myself for trying.

🏳️‍⚧️ im intersex & transandrogynous!

[vin-at-thehub]

. ₊˚ ☎︎₊˚✧ ﾟ. The Hub . ݁₊ ✶. ݁ ˖ˎˊ˗

Hello hello-!! Welcome to our blog :3, we're the Hub-!!

Our current host is Vinaara, but you can just call her Vin. She's the one who does the most posting on here. Our co-host Moon is likely the second most often spotted fronter.

Collective Pronouns *ੈ✩‧₊˚:

She/Her/Hers ✔

He/Him/His ✔

They/Them/Theirs ✔

It/Its ✔

Collective Names:

Snowy ⋆꙳•̩̩͙❆ ͙͛ ˚₊⋆

Coffi 𓆙

Nara ৻ꪆ

Please feel free to go through our pronouns.cc, here, for a better look at our pronouns, and who uses what.

We are in a LOT of fandoms :D This is a very fandom-oriented blog, plus some writing and OCs here and there. (Though most will probably just be fanfiction if I am being real..pssttt our a03 is “vin_cant_sea)

Some of these fandoms are ⋆｡𖦹°‧★:

PJO

BATIM

FNAF

Undertale

Little Misfortune

Fran Bow

Little Nightmares

KOLTC

Kindergarten

Finding Frankie

The World of Mr. Plant

Not Your Normal Kids Show

SBG

Creepypasta/Marble Hornets/Slenderverse

The Owl House

Sally Face

The Disastrous Life of Saiki K

DC

Nimona

The Magnus Archives

Clinic of Horrors

Don’t Read This

--yeah, you guys get the picture. Lots n lots of fandoms over yonder.

Our Soul Family⋆˙⟡♡ :

@multiversewatchpost <—— our siblings blog-!!

@arenxymoth <——sibling :D

@luckycyclemaker <—— our little sister

@peach-flavored-cyanide <—— The siblings we found in a box hehe

@irreyre <—— Pa :3 (our parental figure-!!)

@thegodofkhaosinkarnate <—— our cousin (:

@golden-nautilus <--- Other cousin :D

@asteptoostar/@piagueground <—— hehe my bsf irl…and Moons platonic husband

@somevany <—— married platonically to Error n Vin

We love our friends/mutals-!! There are so so many of you, its impossible to list anymore...--/pos

This is always a safe space for anyone, in any situation, or identity. If you behave inappropriately, we do block freely, but that is not normally an issue for us. You may send us asks about any of our intersts, the system itself, any of YOUR interests, our writing, or if you need to vent. We are not a therapist, but we do always want to be a place where people can be themselves and rely on for support.

Our tags-!! 𖤓 : #hub reblogs, #vin answers questions while staring into the void, #hub lore mentioned #wont you cut down that apple tree for me-? #moonsart

(Side blog is @secretary-official)

(Oh btw I mod for @thevioletbanquetutmvrp -!! Join us, it’s very fun over there.)

Thank you for reading :D

[jellybeanbois]

What's it called when an alter thought they were a brain made alter, then later realized they were actually an introject because they found their source that they had forgot existed? Is there a term for that?

- 🐢

[bohemianvalley]

the system waiting to front be this: