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I've written a poem based on my experiences as a queer mormon.

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Thank you for reading. I hope this resonates with you.

I have been doing a lot of reflecting on my relationship with God and the church lately, and how I fit as a gay man in the church. I think I have settled on an answer as to how to go about it.

I had been praying about how I am supposed to fit in the structure of the church for several years, and I wound up getting the answer "I made you the way you are, and I love you as you are. This is something that you can't change, and it is denying your divine origin to try and alter this part of yourself and will only bring you pain. Trying to deny any part of yourself as He made you had torn you apart and nearly killed you."

I then received the reminder that we will know the truth of a doctrine by testing it and living it, and then seeing what you get from it. The fruits of repressing myself and trying to change it were 6 years of depression, feeling unable to access God's presence and love, and several attempts at suicide due to a feeling of hopelessness in enduring this and a need to die pure before God, and feeling unwelcome in the church and in my wards. Does this sound like a good fruit, or is it rotten? Would Christ push us away, or would he pull us back in and guide us home?

As I accepted myself and stopped trying to repress my sexual orientation, I was truly able to feel the love he was showing me. When I accepted myself, I was better able to work in my jobs and find new ones, and had more success in making and building friendships. When I fell back and tried to turn myself straight, I couldn't feel God with me, had psychotic breaks, struggled with work, and found considerable difficulty with my social interactions. This looks like accepting myself is the good fruit and the repression is the evil fruit.

I also got a reminder of the Plan of Salvation and how you are going to inherit a degree of glory unless you deny the Lord and the Holy Spirit once your calling and election is made sure or you deny Christ after the Father fully reveals him to you. That near-guarantee is what I believe is the most beautiful part of the gospel, that all may be redeemed, and almost all that make it to Earth shall inherit a degree of glory. Very few will have the option to deny the revealed Christ in mortality, since very few have the opportunity to receive direct sight of Christ or have it confirmed that their calling and election has been made sure. He set his plan up so that a total failure will almost be impossible for all but the strongest of his children, where even fewer will fall to the one unforgivable sin.

This reflects a much more merciful idea of God than it seems like much of the church tends to remember. The plan of salvation and the difficulty of the only way with which we are able to fail makes him feel even more like the loving father he is. He is not just an indifferent king who must be specifically asked for mercy in order to be forgiven. Christ is truly a loving brother helping us up where and when we fall before we can even ask for help up.

His grace is sufficient for me and whatever sin may exist associated with dating while gay. His love and compassion is enough to save us who are born and love in committed queer relationships, as long as we keep taking the sacrament, living the gospel, and otherwise striving to live a Christlike life.

Christ suffered in Gethsemane and on the cross to bring almost all of us to a degree of glory with immortality, and to allow us the capacity to inherit all that the Father is and has. I know that this is truly the restored gospel, and that numerous plain and precious truths like the plan of salvation and degrees of glory needed to be restored. I have seen Heavenly Father answer my prayers, with peace and prosperity, and with an assurance of his love and grace. I know that my Savior lives again, and that He and our father in heaven live and still answer prayers. Most importantly now, after this journey of pondering and prayer, I know my Heavenly Father and my Savior love me regardless. They have always had room for me in the church and in their kingdom, and that will not change by the interpretations of men and their understanding of grace.

#queerstake #tumblrstake #squaring the circle #progressive Mormon #my testimony

amethystmoons

The way people claim mormonism is a cult remind me a lot the way people claim that queer (especially trans) people are just mentally ill. I've seen people treat others like absolute shit using the excuse of "oh they're mentally ill/in a cult." Both are used to justify taking away freedoms.

It doesn't make sense to me. By treating people poorly they're just further isolating them into the cult/mental illness. They're not showing them the right way, they're just being mean to someone they think is vulnerable.

weepylucifer

You know how we call things "pseudoscience"... the media analysis that's being done on twitter and tumblr should be pseudohumanities

whencartoonsruletheworld

[ID: Screenshot of tumblr tags reading “please op i am desperate for the context.” End ID.]

Sure, here ya go:

Lord George Gordon Byron was an English poet in the early 1800s.

He wrote several narrative poems that influenced the gothic genre and was a HUGE fucking slut. HUGE. This bisexual mess slept with so many fucking people it was insane, no gender was safe. Unfortunately that “no one was safe” mentality did not work out well for him bc there were a LOT of rumors that he impregnated his half-sister.

His only child from a legitimate marriage was from his wife, Lady Anne Isabella Noel Byron, who straight-up left him after a year. You know how divorce was uncommon in the 1800s? His wife was just so fed up with him that she did not care and left when her daughter was five weeks old.

This daughter was named Ada and would become known as Ada Lovelace.

Byron signed the separation papers and then left the country to have sex elsewhere and would later die when Ada was eight.

During that time if a couple divorced, usually the Dad would get full custody, so just in case he tried anything Lady Byron made sure to play the devoted and overattentive mother.

Lady Byron was absolutely paranoid that her daughter would become an insane gothic mess like her dad so she decided the only thing to do would be to make sure she did not become a Poet™. So she heavily encouraged Ada’s interests in science and mathematics.

Around the 1830-40s, Ada met Charles Babbage through a mutual friend and he showed her his prototype for a mechanical calculator. She got absolutely obsessed with this machine and began helping him out with it to the point where her notes on it became more extensive than his.

She also added notes to a translation of a paper on this engine that is considered to be the first published algorithm.

These notes on the engine and translation became the basis for computer programming.

She’s considered The First Computer Programmer™

So, because Lord Byron was a little slut and his wife wanted their daughter to Not Be, we now have to deal with tumblr discourse. Thank you and goodnight.

autisticexpression

Vampire fiction and science fiction as we know it today also exist as a direct result of his friends being stuck in a cabin with him during a storm so there’s that as well. Hot vampires and sci-fi nerds are also his fault.

airandangels

She was one of the people stuck in the cabin (well I think it was more of a 19th century Airbnb that the group of friends rented for a holiday that was then ruined by the weather) with him. Since they couldn’t do any outdoor activities they decided to write spooky stories and read them together instead. She wrote Frankenstein, kicking off the science fiction genre, and Dr John Polidori wrote… I’ve forgotten the title and it might just be “The Vampire” or “Vampyre” or something like that but anyway he did that. Dracula is much more influential now but that was the first big vampire novel. Byron didn’t create either genre but arguably motivated their creation by being an annoying horndog so they wanted to stay in their rooms writing instead of hang out with him.

rattleroze

It’s also worth mentioning that the summer they were stuck in that cabin is referred to as the Year Without Summer and was directly caused by the eruption of Mount Tambora in Indonesia the year before. It is also blamed for failed crops and mass famine on almost every continent, and the explosion could be heard something like 1600 miles away. The eruption of Tambora and the subsequent lack of summer worldwide is estimated to have killed anywhere from 100,000 to many millions of people. If all the deaths from diseases such as cholera and typhoid that found perfect conditions to spread rapidly during the famines are included, the total death toll could be estimated around 40 million people worldwide, which would put it on par with world war one.

TL;DR: Byron being a goth slut led directly to his daughter inventing computer programming, and being stuck in a cabin with him during crazy weather patterns caused by the largest volcanic eruption in modern history on the other side of the globe directly led to the invention of the genres of science fiction and gothic horror

brightlotusmoon

Tumblr dragging Lord Byron is similar to its dragging of Ea Nasir, but more verbose and maundering and blunt and intense, which also describes Lord Byron.

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genuinehumanboy

today is video games’s birthday.

wheel-skellington

Happy birthday videogames

ubuyo

algorizmi

Happy 50th, video games!

chzdavmpr

STOOOOOP!

Fuck pong! It was literally just a plagiarism of the Magnavox Odyssey table tennis game! It’s exact release date I couldn’t find but it was some time in August 1972. So the entire month of August is video game’s birthday!* If you want a specific day to celebrate, let’s go with August 1st for simplicity.

*the Magnavox Odyssey table tennis game still debatably isn’t the first video game depending on what you mean by “first” and “video game”, but it’s DEFINITELY a better choice than pong

goofballproximitysurveyor-deact

when people put "trigger warning" on their content without specifying what the trigger warning is for

ohtehnoeszombies

this post contains notes

zeesqueere

does it?

does it though?

pileofknives

Fuck is going on here

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And the award for best use of that deer GIF ever goes to…

escuerzoresucitado

being escorted out of town

wizardshark

The criminal has been apprehended

twisted-bonez

literally obsessed with the design of blobjects

gigabyte1027

iMac g3 my beloved

statisticalcats2

There are gonna be people who won't like hearing this but if you want to live in a world where mixed marriages, families, and adoptions (particularly POC adopting outside their "race") aren't maligned and discriminated against, then you have got to get more chill about seeing someone partaking in something cultural that you don't think fits the "race" you perceive them as.

statisticalcats2

It's a vague memory now, it was a vague memory even at the time I made this post, but I think what sparked this was remembering stupid comments I saw about a Chinese-American cookbook that were complaining about it being written by a white woman and then I looked the white woman up and the briefest research showed she was adopted as a child into a Chinese-American family and just....

*pinches nose*

Fellas, is it cultural appropriation to inherit your family's culture but you don't pass the blood quantum test?

All of you are literally just racist. You've come full-circle. You're working under the belief that people are supposed to "keep to their own kind" and that means the socially invented concept of "race", and "race mixing" of any sort is unnatural.

ididntknowwhattocallthis

To quote something someone said in my school's food sovereignty lab: "[I am not from this culture] and that's all the more reason I should learn!"

abrahamlincoln-official

This may seem like a meme, but it is real. It's formatted like this to get people's attention and be memorable, in the hopes that maybe it saves some lives.

Edit 1: If any of you are unsure that this is real, check out the notes of folks talking about it.

Transcript:

[transcript of sign]

Are you currently struggling with … MEDICAL BILLS?

… Perhaps you should try … FAPping!

Financial Aid Policy

Did you know that most hospitals and some doctor’s offices are what is known as a 501r, or “medical non-profit”?

This means they are legally required to have a “financial aid policy” or “charity care policy”

What is means, is that they are LEGALLY REQUIRED under United States Law to provide FREE OR DISCOUNTED healthcare, and also to FORGIVE EXISTING MEDICAL DEBT to individuals with financial difficulty.

Basically, every household making und $100K a year is eligible for a reduction in their medical costs.

Billing departments often try to push people to get on a “payment plan” if someone asks, but don’t accept it!

Ask if they have a Charity Care or Financial Aid policy “Based On Income.”

If it looks like you might not qualify?

Apply anyway. They try to scare people away with scary processes.

YOU QUALIFY. EVEN IF YOU ARE ALREADY IN COLLECTIONS.

[/end sign] (Credit to Moonlit-wings for the transcription.) I’ve also started putting together a website. It’s very unfinished right now, but for help with lower med costs too, check out

Coming soon | MedicalBills.Help

just-spacetrash

in my little pony universe youd go to a job interview and theyd be like so how does your cutiemark reflect your dedication to this position. And every time youd have to spew some bullshit about how your cutiemark of two tennis rackets actually means youre a team player and good at multitasking and view the market like a playing field. or whatever. and you wouldnt even get the job

fvckw4d

Thanks to Equestria v Sugar Sprinkle, cutie mark interview questions are considered hiring discrimination, so if anypony asks you any cutiemark related questions or even alludes to any questions about your cutiemark such as "In your own words, describe your life purpose" you can and should refuse to answer. Know your rights, ponies.