I just want somebody's opinion.
So I have a half-sister, let's call her J.
I live in a pretty fucked up family. I've been abused and neglected most of my life. I Ajay didn't know I had a sister for years (she's my paternal half sister and my mom was abused by mine and J's father for years, so she cut him out of my life and I thought my stepdad was my real dad for a while). When I learned I had a sister, I was excited. I finally got to meet her a few years ago and she has 3 kids, we'll call them P, C, and N. I gained a close relationship with all 4 of them.
A bit ago, CPS took me out of my house for a while and I lived with J. I thought things were going great until suddenly J called CPS and told me I needed to find somewhere else to go. I got no warning of this and was told by my school at the end of the day and the last day of school when I was looking forward to spending the summer with them. I went to live with my aunt until I ended up going back to stay with my parents again (mom and stepdad) because I wasn't happy with my aunt like I was J. (I was treated better after going neck to my parents house but that's not the point of this.)
The house we were living in was owned by J's husband, we'll call him A, and we were renting it. After I moved back, J and A gave us an eviction notice. Although they had no reason to evict us and there were faults in the contract we didn't know about at first, we lose the case and had to move because we couldn't afford a good lawyer.
We have since moved and I dropped contact with my sister and her kids.
I've been up thinking and I want to send J a letter to her house to try to rekindle with her and her kids. I hold a bit of anger to her but for my own sake, I want to try and find out why I had to leave. Things were going great and she said she loved having me there but she had a problem with my parents. I want to ask if I was caught in the middle of it or if it was my fault. I don't know what my best option is.
I could reach out to her online but I know her and her other family members know the internet very well and I don't want to be tracked. There would be no return address on the letter and I am willing to give her a way to contact me that cannot be tracked as easily, perhaps a throwaway phone number or a Facebook and/or social media page used only for contact with her should she choose this. A letter also seems more personal to me and I'd like to try.
My question is, is this a bad idea? I know there's many things that could go wrong. She could track me and cause my life to be even worse, she could threaten me. She could throw away the letter as soon as she sees it without reading it. She could read it and never speak to me again. Conversely, she may be able to help me understand and maybe come to terms with what happened. I had a great relationship with her and I truly felt like I belonged.. I want to try. I need advice..
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