Catharsis

When people's defenses have become an integral part of the personality, they're as real as scar tissue in the body. It may not have belonged there originally, but once formed, it's enduring. -Dr. Lindsay Gibson

[authenticity2025]

[wild-rose3090]

This skin doesn't feel like home

Overgrown with haunted thoughts

Trying to forget your touch

[darkacademiboy]

[what-iz-life]

Normalize not forcing connections. If someone doesn't see the value in having you by their side, don't try to convince them.

[originalromanticsir]

When they don't match your energy, run.

[authenticity2025]

My childhood trauma didn't make me stronger. it made me a people pleaser. it made me forgive way too much. it made me not speak when i'm supposed to. it made me an extreme empath.

[remanence-of-love]

[hamoodmood-deactivated20250309]

I'm cooked

[subtillidiex-deactivated2025030]

i will reblog this forever

[wild-rose3090]

I don't remember how happy feels

All I know is aching, numbness, and pain

Swimming in a sea of memories

Searching for a shred of love

Only to find souls of parts of me that died

As they drown me in my misery

[wild-rose3090]

A silly little toy

easily tossed aside

more damaged than the rest

mishandled many times before

forgotten on the streets

stepped on again and again

adding to the worthlessness

until someone takes you home

until you feel safe

until you think you're loved

until you're back on the streets

forgotten once again

broken even more

[wild-rose3090]

I thought I accepted what happened

Thought I had moved on

Thought it could no longer hurt me

But I had only tucked the emotions away

Lied to myself that I was okay

While clouding my own thoughts

But happens when my mind is clear?

Look my demons in the face

And endure the pain?

Or hide it all away again?

I want to be free

But I'm scared of the pain

[wild-rose3090]

Cold

Empty

Waiting alone

Isolated from the world

Left with only my thoughts

A constant reminder of my lack of self worth

...

The silence never felt so loud

[wild-rose3090]

Your needs came first

Put your happiness above my own

The emotional support you craved

A confidante, your friend

But that wasn't my role

Forever indebted to you

For the food, the clothes, the roof over my head

So I became who you needed

Donned a mask to hide my feelings

In order to heal your mental scars

But that wasn't my role

You never accepted your pain

Never learned unconditional love

Instead you forged me into something I'm not

Forced me to grow up too soon

I became the parent

Because you weren't equipped for the task

I never asked for this role

[wild-rose3090]

What would they say?

It wasn't that bad

It only happened once

We did our best

Your best broke me

Left me hollow, empty inside

Numb to the pain

Loveless, utterly alone

What would they say?

If I told them what I've been through

The trauma they opened me to

Sleepless nights with tear stained sheets

Aching to be held by someone who cared

What would they say?

Would they even hear me?

[wild-rose3090]

Those three little words

The biggest of lies

"I love you"

You don't.

You made me loveless

[wild-rose3090]

We are not the same

Your perception of our shared encounter,

The lies you tell yourself

I embrace the anger, the pain

Learning to grow from the hate

You hide it away

Pretending like it never happened

While you hurt those around you

Because your soul still bleeds

[wild-rose3090]

I'm not a whole person

I never will be

Parts of me died in the place I called home

Not a home, but a tomb

For the person I could have been

Instead of this loveless husk I've become

Angry at those who failed me

I've learned to embrace my anger

It's shown me so much

That my mistreatment is unacceptable

I deserve compassion, kindess, and love

But when you're not fed love as a child

Later you will lick it from knives