Whore Lore

Chronically online girl who is addicted to horror and music

[andrewtts9thbugatti]

why do I keep giving second chances to people who clearly don't want them?

[shiori01]

"Let's go, the others are waiting."

"Even mon-chan is waiting?"

"...yes."

(This probably happened when Deku saw Tomura on the rooftop)

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[andrewtts9thbugatti]

okay don't come for me guys, but I feel like they should have had developed Mr. Compress's story a little bit earlier and then killed him off during the war. LET ME EXPLAIN.

Okay I love Mr. Compress, he's in my top five favorites, but I like the idea they should have had everyone dead in the league in the end, except Spinner. (I mean Dabi isn't either, but he's technically on the verge of death so) I feel like it would have had been SUCH perfect foreshadowing? I guess that's the word. Because he was always looked down upon for his weak quirk by society. I mean that's like mostly the reason he had become a villain in the first place.

AND THEN HAVING HIM BE THE ONLY ONE WHO SURIVIED OUT OF THE LEAGUE?? would have had been sooo good, and then with the book?? it would give like 'he's the only one left to tell the tale'

And yes, I know, I know, I'm basically saying they should have had killed off a good character just for the development of another. but yeah, that's nothing new in anime I feel. Anyways no one has to agree just my stupid thoughts LMAO

[andrewtts9thbugatti]

Entry 8

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I relapsed.

Surprise, surprise (not really). It's like every time something bad happens, even if it's the most minor inconvenience, the urge sits back in my mind. No matter how many months have passed of being clean, it still sits there.

I'm tired of it, so I looked on Shblr or shmblr, whatever it's called, thinking maybe looking at other people's cvts and hearing about there struggles would help. Spoiler alert: It didn't. It did quite the opposite, actually.

Now I have scars all over my thighs. I've never felt so alone. If anyone sees this, maybe message me? I just don't wanna be alone right now.

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[andrewtts9thbugatti]

Entry 7

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Today is one of those days when time seems like it's moving too slowly. It's like time is totally working against me. Valentine's Day was nice. My birthday is in four or five days, and I still haven't asked for anything; there isn't anything I really want. My parents say they still want to get me something, so they'll just give me money.

I've been feeling a bit lonely lately, but can I really complain? I haven't been going out of my way to be sociable. Somehow, still, I get upset when someone mentions having more friends. It makes me feel even more alone. Is there anyone that's like me? This random group of people is the only thing they have; they have no friend groups outside of that.

I don't really know, I spend most of my time listening to music about books I want to write, that'll never be written. It sounds pathetic, I know, but to me, it's not. It's fun.

I've started studying for my driver's permit, and it's really NOT fun. I don't even know really where to begin. At least I'm getting somewhere by even trying in the first place.

I feel so unattached to everything around me. I've always have. It almost feels like my daydreams are my reality and my reality is my daydreams. Like everything that happens to my family or in the news isn't real. It isn't something to worry about. I want to express my daydreams, but I don't know how. I mean, I try, but shit always gets in the way.

Three days after my Birthday, I have a doctor appointment, nothing too flashy, just a simple med check-up, however, I am totally dreading it. I hate going to the Doctor. After that, though, I plan on getting signed up for the dentist again. I want to get braces soon, I mean after they take care of all the cavaties I probably have.

Anyways I hope the day goes by faster.

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[andrewtts9thbugatti]

Entry 6

I've been feeling so much better ever since I've had that shower. I've been going outside a lot, and I love it. I recently went to the water with my dad. It was simple but really fun.

I have online friends and both irl friends. I don't tell my parents about my online friends because they'd freak out, especially my mom. I mean it's valid, online is where a lot of people reside, especially bad people. But what am I supposed to do? my irl friends and I do hang out it's just that we can only hang out so often due to school schedules and such.

so what am I supposed to do? I mean I once did join an irl homeschool, and tried but I just couldn't fit in. Maybe I should try again or something. Yeah, maybe I will. Things are a lot different now. I have a good sleep schedule now. I like my online friends, but I can't stop thinking about what if my parents find out?

I'll never hear the end of it.

I feel like the little peace I have will be gone, yk? I mean I don't even talk to my online friends that much.

[andrewtts9thbugatti]

Entry 5

I overslept once again.

I feel like hurting myself again and I don't know why. I feel like crying my guts out too. I also feel like I'm coming down with something. I feel dirty and gross, I definitely need to take a shower soon. To be honest, I feel a lot of different ways today.

I can barely hold my eyes open as I write this I'm so tired, even though I slept all day already. I'm trying to focus on the good- which is that I had a nice meal with my parents today. We had KFC, it was really good.

I also listened to music today, a usual event for me, but always a nice one. I have this killer headache that I took some medicine for, however, it seems to have not done anything. My head still hurts.

I want to cut.

I need to take a breath. Maybe a shower will make me feel better, it probably would, but I'm not gonna take one tonight. I'm way too tired to. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better.

[andrewtts9thbugatti]

Entry 4

I overslept again, but I feel better. I've been reading "Invisible Girl" By Lisa Jewell. I have loved Lisa Jewell ever since I was thirteen or fourteen when I read "When She Was Gone" by her. I never liked reading until I found her. I also love Ruth Ware too. I literally have no clue why British mystery authors do it for me, but they do.

I like to chew gum while I read, giving my mouth something else to do other than talk. I've been craving fruit flavored things today for some reason. I really should of asked my dad to buy some pink lemonade while he was at the store the other day.

Maybe I'll have some Hot Coco soon. It sounds really nice right about now, especially since it's winter. We still have snow here on the ground, it's all slushy and melted though, but it still covers all the green of the moss and grass.

Once the snow completely melts and the weather shifts when spring has finally returned I plan on volunteering at a nursing home. My parents say I have to volunteer first if I want to get a job, so if I'm not gonna be getting paid for this I should at least of the choice of picking when I do go.

[andrewtts9thbugatti]

Entry 3

I know I haven't done one of these in a while. I'm about four, or three months clean of SH, maybe even five? and something happened today that was so light that it was literally nothing, but now I feel like I'm on the verge of relapsing, and going back to SH.

It's just like so easy, so easy to break and go back to. It's so easy just to cut. Like I cut, and I just forget about everything for a little while. I forget about how I'll never be successful, how I'll never catch up, how I'll never fit in anywhere, how I'll finish any of my projects, that none of the pitiful little dreams I have won't come true.

Because I'm a failure and a slacker. I've tried so hard all my life to try to change that, but I never get anywhere. I feel dumb and stupid and so very insignificant.

[andrewtts9thbugatti]

Idk about you all but I always have seen Dabi as a sociopath. (Def from Google - "A sociopath is someone with antisocial personality disorder (ASPD), a mental health condition that makes it difficult for them to behave in a way that's acceptable to society. Sociopaths often lack empathy and remorse, and may intentionally upset others")

Okay for starters I'd like to say, I don't hate dabi. I think he's a pretty cool character. On wiki fandom, he's described to be an "extreme sociopath" Now I don't believe this is canon in the actual series (correct me if I'm wrong), but from all we have seen from him in the series he does definitely seem to match up in those who have ASPD.

I mean we see him cry after Snatch's death, right? But he's NOT crying for Snatch. He doesn't give a fuck that he killed Snatch. He's crying because of what Snatch had said to him. Snatch had asked him has he ever stopped to think about how the family of those he killed felt?

Now I think it's clear that Snatch's statement reminded Dabi of his family. in the anime, he says "I thought about it so much I went crazy"

Many have interpreted this as Dabi actually missing his family, and having remorse for his actions. However, I've always interpreted it as Dabi just simply thinking about all the abuse and feeling sorry for himself. Which I feel like follows more with ASPD (but I'm no fucking expert, so please feel free to correct me if you know more about ASPD)

I don't mean to seem like I'm stereotyping ASPD, these are just my dumb late-night thoughts. Anyways tell me what you guys think.

[andrewtts9thbugatti]

Entry 2

welp, my last entry got liked by a german blog, so I guess that's a start. However after giving it some thought I think I'm gonna contiune french since I already was on roll with it. I'll just try to review and get back on track with it.

Anyway enough with the whole language learning thing. I feel really behind on my schoolwork, i'm homeschooled so it's a bit different. I definitely would pick it over public school anyday, but that doesn't mean it doesn't have it's cons to it now.

I also have ADD which sucks ass, so it's hard. Luckily I do take meds though, however it often feels like it's just not enough. I don't know what to do, I genuinely feel behind on everything. I should be getting my liscense already for driving, but I feel like I'm just not ready for it. Public school might suck, but at least I had a teacher on my behind making sure I got everything done.

If anybody sees this and has advice on this pleaseeee give it.

[andrewtts9thbugatti]

Entry 1

I know this is like dumb as fuck, but it's whatever. I decided to start writing like diary entries on here. I mean I highly doubt anyone's gonna see it, but what the hell? maybe it might help someone out there.

So I've been thinking about learning German, I have tried learning French, and I think I got some what far in it. Well I got farther in it than any other language I've tried to learn before at least. I really don't why I stopped learning it, I guess a lot of stuff was happing in my life at the time. So now I'm on to German. I have some German in me, so maybe that will encourage me more to learn it? I don't know, but it's worth a shot.

[andrewtts9thbugatti]

Hot Take: Jacob Black sucks.

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I hate Facebook. it suspended my fake Facebook mom profile :(

[andrewtts9thbugatti]

do you think the twilight series is problematic?