I'm taking another break. I don't know for how long. There's a lot of people saying things that aren't true. If you care at all for my accounting of the situation it is below.
No matter what I do the harassment keeps escalating. I don't feel safe here. I haven't in a long time. It's hard for me to wrap my head being accused by the people who have been harassing me of doing to them what they've been doing to me. Everyone involved in this is part of the same friend group of menloathes (bebeseagull) and menloves. Menloathe left Tumblr but now they're publicly posting about my irl physical appearance on Twitter. Who knows what other information they have about me?
Back when the death threats started, menlove accused me of being paranoid and making it up. So I made a post sharing what was being said. I made this post the same day I discovered the death threats were being made publicly. In response to this, I was accused of being a stalker, a bully, and called numerous slurs. Menlove posted that I was paranoid and that they weren't death threats. The people involved admitted the posts about beating an animal to death were about me. Menlove said the people involved couldn't be held accountable since they were children. Many of them were legal adults. And adult or no, teenagers are perfectly capable of murder. Why should I not believe what someone says?
I received in my inbox detailed messages about how they would kill me. One of them, brokenheartedjubileee, had a side blog sharing photos of real corpses with their organs exposed. I was terrified. These blogs continued to post about me regularly over the coming months. Almost everything I said, they would make a post about it. They were in the comments of new users, telling them that I wrote corrective rape porn. That I was an antisemite.
I left my pinned post up. Again, these people began to rally others about how I was the one stalking them. They made new accounts from which they continued to harass me. Call me crazy, but I don't think we should obfuscate that one user tried to rally other users to kill someone just because they came back in a new hat and moustache. They claimed they had gotten over it and I was a freak for leaving this post up. What was there for them to get over? I never said I would kill them. I never threatened their lives. Of course they had moved on! But actually they hadn't: as I said, they continued to post about me and tell anyone who would listen how evil I was.
Every time they received a critical anon, they said it was from me. This was a pattern repeated over all of these blogs. Every negative thing that happened, they said it was me.
I have never sent hate to anyone. I have never made a callout post. I have only responded to other's words about me and shared threats when they were made. I thought with evidence people would believe me. The fandom clamored for evidence and I provided it. It didn't matter.
These people have no evidence that I have ever done any of the things they are accusing me of. Menlove out of the blue decided to name my blog as their reason for leaving Tumblr. I haven't had contact with them in months. I made two posts critical of the content on a post they made implying Paul was a pedophile. I didn't name their blog. They have done the same thing to me many many times. In response, they said I had stalked their friends, contacted the authorities and their abusive parents, and doxed multiple people.
I'm not sure who they're even referring to, or who the victims of these crimes are. Surely the individuals this supposedly happened to would come forward themselves, but they haven't. I assume they do not exist, but it doesn't matter. Menlove's friend thegirlwiththeaxe, a friend who blocked me shortly after they posted about beating me to death, quickly followed with her own callout post--again naming these same things. Again, with no evidence.
thegirlwiththeaxe claims the post about killing me wasn't about me. She posted about beating someone to death with rocks at the same time menoathe did, while she was actively in a discord with me where I was freaking out about menloathe making these death threats against me. The post was liked BY menloathe. She then left the post up for two days. During this time, from the moment menloathe made their post about killing me, she never responded to any messages I sent her. Two days later I saw her post and shortly after she blocked me with zero explanation.
I believe it was about me. Despite this, I have removed it from the pinned post.
Regardless, I genuinely did not do these things i am being accused of. There is no evidence I did. They have yet to produce a victim, a person this supposedly happened to. Reposting public information is not stalking, especially when those involved are still posting about you. Then, teacups followed up with her own callout post, again, another ex friend of mine from the same incident. She responded to an anon who claimed to be from my server. The anon claimed that they were scared because we wouldn't excuse them following or interacting with teacups. There are multiple people in my server who follow and reblog from teacups. We have never had an issue with that. The only time teacups has been mentioned was when I spoke about how sad I was the relationship had ended.
I'm not sad anymore. Now, one of these people is sharing with this group harassing me personal details I have never shared with anyone else. One of them has a photo of me. I don't know if it is a nude or not. I certainly hope they, as adults, wouldn't send my nudes to someone who claims to be a child despite their age.
Another from this friend group, Sont-des-mots, who I don't even know, following up with a fourth call out post, this one wasn't even about anything, just that they personally don't like me and that I blocked them, which is apparently a crime. Why is this friend group coordinating call out posts seemingly about nothing/about something fabricated?
I just don't know anymore. I can't wrap my head around any of this happening. I haven't done anything to deserve it. I made a bad joke. I apologized. You can go back and see this apology. It's still there.
It's been months. I haven't done any of the things they said. There is so much bittnerness from them, and from people I have blocked, simply because I blocked them, or because I didn't want to be friends with them. There's so many people who are joining in because they hate my fic, or that I don't write bottom John, or that I made those quote compilation about John's history with Abuse. I am still being harassed by packyourromanticmind, from all the way back from the Jav drama. They admitted they made multiple alt accounts to harass me. Now they are walking it back and saying I harassed them.
New accounts see that it is acceptable to threaten to kill me or make fun of my appearance and have begun to join in. I won't name these accounts, but they're in the comments of these posts. The fandom sets the tone for what behavior if acceptable. Death threats are not. That is why I made the pinned post, but it seems to have been decided that death threats ARE more acceptable than calling them out, and it's fine to make them as long as you switch accounts after.
I see posts everyday from users calling out other users for joking about John's death. What does it say about us that we villify those who make light of the dead, but excuse and encourage death threats, flock behind accusations with no proof, and malign someone for sharing the threats others have made about them?
I have always welcomed anyone I have blocked to reach out on me on an alt to talk. Unless you have directly threatened to kill me. In which case, please leave me alone.
For the time being I won't be responding to comments, DMs, or asks. I won't be working on or posting fic.
