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13/10/2020

Last night I did something stupid, I put on alarm on midnight just to make sure you have somone to talk when you can’t sleep. But turn out you have sleep early. I think, that’s some great news. And yes you are the first person that pop out in my head this morning just like yesterday. We talk a bit on the morning, it makes my day. And I said some risky text but whatever. At this point you should know that I adore you so much. If you are not then you dumb. I don’t even play game I just said what I feel at this point. And by the way, you look so fuckin adorable in google meet holy fuck can I marry you already? I swear I don’t even listen to what the lecturer has said and I don’t care. As long as I see your face on my phone it’s perfect. I don’t even know if I can meet you In person without saying you cute every second.

For a moment I think about karaoke, I never done proper karaoke with somone that I love, I really really want to ask you out to do that together one day but, ugh. I think about real karaoke like in karaoke place or somehting. But I don’t think you want that. Like I don’t even know if you like me. Well I guess you are comfortable talking to me but you deff don’t have any feeling for me.or you did? i don’t know you give me mixed signal.

It’s 14.44 I think I’m losing control of my mind, all I can think about is youuuu. And my heart feels so damn warm my god I feel like I’m gonna die. I can’t take this anymore it’s so dumb lmao. I’m overthinking about scenario that will never happen in my life with you. Gosh you such an angel. I love you. I think I’m gonna write song about you.

12/10/2020

Today is the day I fall in love, atleast that is what I believe. When I woke up in this morning, only things that pop in my head is you and my heart feel warm. If you ask me why, I don’t know exactly but I think it’s because you trust me and become vulnerable when you talk to me. I love vulnerability. It’s funny because we are in the same class but we don’t talk to each other properly back then. I remember we become close because you reply to godspeed by frank ocean that I share on my instagram. I think we both love him? Let’s hope someday we can watch him live together.

It’s 20.43 I’m listening to our love song playlist for whole day and let me tell you something. I have been smiling nonstop thinking about you like a fuckin retarded person. Everything just become beautifull again. I don’t even remember you got a man. I don’t remember when was the last time I feel like this. I don’t even remember I got dumped by my ex. That’s how crazy you make me feel. I pin your face on my google meet, I know that kinda creepy but that’s what kind of stuff people that falling in love are doing.

So I think I’m gonna write everything about you from today. And today is the day one I fall in love with you. Let’s see where I end up. If I describe what I feel right now. I feel like somone hug me for the whole day. Yeah that’s the best decription. You just hug me for the whole day without even be here. That sorcery bro. I didn’t expect much just a bit of reply text is enough for me. And thankyou so much for motivating me doing homework from miss ayu I fukin hate that class. It means a lot. I love you cc!