Couple of days after my sister took her own life, one of her closest friends sent me a message basically sending her condolences and telling me how my sister had talked about me and how I was going to handle it if she ever succeeded. One of the things she said was "Ruut always said that after her death she will talk through music. Listen to those songs you listened with Ruut, she is there and is trying to tell you something".
I cried today for the first time in months because I cancelled an appointment entirely that probably might have been beneficial to go to because I have no job, no income, no studies. Like mental breakdown crying because I don't want to be here anymore and felt so disappointed in myself. Like I was full on planning on ending it. For some reason I decided to shuffle my liked songs and the first song that popped up was: You are not you past by Citizen Soldier. While I never listened to that song with my sister, the moment I saw that song I was like "Ruut sent this, 100%", because the lyrics were exactly something I needed to hear at that moment.
Some of the lyrics that really hit me:
"You're living on replay, stuck in your darkest days
You're paralyzed by shame, waiting on a miracle
No savior's gonna come, you are the only one
Who holds the key that can free you from this prison cell"
and
"Your scars are a reminder, you are a survivor
So get off your ass, you are not your past
Your story's worth defending, you decide the ending
Whys Jesus always painted or depicted in agony , pain and betrayal? Why isnt he ever painted frolicking with his friends? Hanging out with his mother? Petting animals, making tables, talking with the trees? In this ted talk I will explain why being the son of god is bullshit-
Ravings and urges get miscoded over time. Let’s say you’re thirsty, and you live in a strawberry field. Strawberries contain some water and a bunch of sugar so, over time, you may start to crave strawberries when you are thirsty because you get a reward and some relief in shorter time from the need starting than the trek to the stream. This can happen for every need: sleep, food, whatever.
Trevor Noah has a great tip, that when he craves ice cream at night he breaks it down into parts: I want something cold, I want something sweet. He drinks a glass of cold water then waits to see if he still has the ice cream craving. Usually he doesn’t.
So listening to your body isn’t “follow every urge” but “decompose the urge to discover the underlying need.”
If you always feel like getting cozy in bed you may be: cold, dehydrated, and/or malnourished (maybe a need for high calories that are bioaccessible…not processed).
If you do not feel tired at bedtime you may: need to eat dinner earlier because your body is still digesting, need to exercise or go outside more during the day, get the fuck off your screen for an hour so your brain can enter sleep mode.
Hope this helps someone.
P.S. notice i said nothing about neurodivergence. Not that it’s not a likelihood but the over-pathologization of behaviors prevents us from taking simple actions to improve our wellbeing. Also, these tips are pretty accessible and applicable to most brain variations.
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today i learned that the finnish word for ‘hazardous waste’ is ongelmajäte, which can also translate as ‘problematic garbage’ and my roommate and i immediately agreed this is a word that belongs on tumblr.
the more this season goes on the more i’m like. you know what. why isn’t cassie mckay the heir apparent. open and empathetic. doesn’t bring her baggage into cases. incredible teacher. takes criticism well and grows from it. has healthy boundaries. adapts well to chaos without crashing out. cassie mckay is actually the perfect doctor and leader.
i have such a hard time engaging with the pitt discourse, because some people fail to realize that people and relationships are allowed to and should be complex.
robby can be a good doctor and a good mentor, while also falling short in some ways — unfortunately, in the 10th episode, it being his own misogyny and self doubt bleeding through. it will never justify speaking to your residents and coworkers that way, however, it does speak levels on how he views his own anxiety and self worth.
langdon can be recovering drug addict, someone who is actively working on himself, while also fully being in the wrong for stealing medications and mistreating santos. being a drug addict does not excuse that sort of behavior. it does explain it. he deserves grace and time, while also being criticized for his decisions.
santos is intelligent, hardworking, and driven. she can also be pushy and unforgiving. she doesn’t owe langdon an apology for turning him in to robby. she, in turn, doesn’t owe him forgiveness for belittling her. trying to push him into a corner and mess up, making it very clear in front of patients of her disdain for him, though, is not professional. that is a matter that should be dealt with away from them.
let these characters be complex and messy and human.
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