wild mind

they said, a quiet person has wilder mind than the talkative one

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Let’s see if i could write something about red

 Red

My favorite color

My favorite color of roses

The color of the shirt you wore on the night i saw you

The color of the lipstick i wore on the same night

The color that expresses anger, but also passion, burning desire

The color that expresses love, but also fire

It’s warm, but it also burns

 (08/12/2017, 23:08)

  Loving you is red

Passion, fire, burning desire

  (09/12/2017, 08:01)

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Memang tidak ada peraturan tentang bagaimana mencinta Tapi saya rasa, saya mencintai kamu dengan sebagaimana mestinya (14/11/2017, 00:56)

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I got drunk

Not on alcohol

She didn’t let me have one last night. “You’re driving”, she said.

 But I still got drunk

Not on alcohol

I couldn’t stop watching her dancing in front of me. There was the thing about her that I love: how she was so comfortable with herself, how she was so carefree. She was so carefree. She never cared about anything, or anyone. Like last night, she was being her ‘carefree’ self. Though she told me to keep dancing with her, because she wasn’t comfortable dancing with anyone else. She didn’t mind me putting my hands around her. She just kept dancing. She danced, laughed. Watching her, I couldn t keep my hands to myself. She didn’t mind when I put my hands around her waist. She kept dancing, laughing. Sometimes she put her arms around my neck. But she kept dancing, laughing.

 I got drunk

Not on alcohol

There was something about watching her dancing in my arms. Something about her that pulled me in. I didn’t know what it was. What I knew was I wanted her lips on mine again.

 I got drunk

Not on alcohol

She was still dancing while I couldn’t hold it any longer. I took her face close to mine, then landed my lips on hers. She kissed me back. Then she smiled when we parted.

 I got drunk

Not on alcohol

She continued to move her body along with the music. She seemed to have a good time. Well, I had just had one too.

 I got drunk

Not on alcohol

For both she and I, the kiss definitely meant nothing. Every time we kissed, meant nothing. Our kisses never meant anything. But there was something about it that kept me wanting more.

 I’ve got drunk

But not on alcohol

  ─ I

  (05-06 November 2017)

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kamu, tinggi. aku, di bumi.

Kamu

tinggi, gemerlapan bersama sekawanan bintang lainnya

di angkasa sana

Aku

hanya berdiri di sini, berpijak di bumi,

mengagumi binarmu, sambil sesekali berbisik,

mengungkap yang ada di dalam hati, meski tau suaraku tak cukup kuat untuk menjangkau langit

(09/10/2017, 23:10 PM)

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Those dark eyes,

i did’t realize that they were so deep, they sucked me in.

Or maybe i did

Staring straight like they were looking

for something.

As my fingers studied your face

Stroked the hollow on your cheek,

brushed the curve of your lips

Those eyes, that gaze,

they were so dark, they were so deep

(08/10/2017, 02:09 AM)

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Kecintaannya pada alam, menginspirasi saya,

membuka lebih lebar mata saya,

membantu saya menyadari cinta saya pada alam dan segala isinya.

Terima kasih.

Dan, alam semesta,

terima kasih juga telah mempertemukan saya dengan dia.

(12/09/2017, 03:37 AM)

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indeed.

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The way we met, was like the beginning

of a fairy tale. But we end like how just

reality works.

─ guess dreams and real life don’t play along

    well together

(07/09/2017, 00:29 AM)

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Let me tell you about him

He came out of a dream

The way we met,

was like what i, once upon a time, fantasized

But there are a few things missing;

the kiss and the fling

(06/09/2017, 23:13 PM)

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And i hope, this feeling would fly as he is going to.

(04/09/2017, 18:56 PM)

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It’s not that i water my plants until they drown

to know how i love.

I spill it all over places.

That’s when i know that i have fallen.

(04/09/2017, 04:08 AM)

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The only way for me to shut up

is when my lips are locked with yours

(02/09/2017, 01:03 AM)

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I guess i used my mouth wrong that night

(02/09/2017, 01:03 AM)

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The only part missing was the kiss

by the end of the song or when one

of us had to leave

(01/09/2017, 23:00 PM)

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This... is different.

Words are lining up to reach,

but they don’t know where, what,

or how to.

(04/09/2017, 04:43 AM)

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And when i saw him,

i knew i wasn’t dreaming.

The dream came to me.

(04/09/2017, 04:14 AM)