INACTIVE

MOVED TO @kujos-sweetheart; also not writing for people anymore bc i cant handle it mentally nowadays 3

[mirthless-misanthrope]

cat :)

[hiamigoman]

[icarus-suraki]

Happy Easter.

[endspire]

rest? 💤💤💤

[mirthless-misanthrope]

me when i started 358/2 Days:

me after finishing 358/2 Days:

[vectortothehairgel]

A very special good morning to people who still say “indeed”, people with one eye and no impulse control, people with old man voice, underappreciated mad scientists, gentle giants with a massive axe, emo kids who like to read, werewolves, homicidal fire trucks, people who know what a sitar is, people with 5 earrings and a gambling problem, men with rose gardens who miss their sisters, women with anger problems who stick forks into outlets, boys who think ice cream is an emotion, girls who think they’re puppets, and all you other nobodies out there. 

[deghostly-art]

My friend requested a comic that was basically kiryu vs bearded dragon which was >:( vs :Y

[radiqueer]

one fairly common experience of gifted children is wishing for pain. wishing you had some great big horrible thing in your past so that you can justify the pain you’re in, and so that you’ll deserve help. it’s exhausting and it fucks you up and to anyone out there who feels like they haven’t suffered enough to get help: you’re allowed to want help. you’re in enough pain. you deserve to feel better

[rexieboii]

holy shit yeah

[homoslovenc]

[skiinny-bird]

is this one of those things that everyone actually does?? i just assumed i was a shitty person

[sir-ghost-the-green]

Wait that’s normal?

[star-anise]

It’s not “normal” as in “everybody feels this way so suck it up and quit whining”.

It’s “normal” as in “many people experience pain, loneliness, anxiety, self-hatred, and other symptoms of mental illness that feel like they ‘don’t count’ because there’s no real Thing they can point to to explain it, but their pain and suffering are real and ought to be taken seriously.”

However, when I say “many people” I actually mean “less than a quarter of the population”. The vast majority of people aren’t in massive internal pain most of the time. If this post resonates with you, I super recommend you look into mental health resources, because nobody deserves to feel this way, and there’s a very real hope that information, understanding, therapy, and/or medication can work together to help you feel better.

[star-anise]

Fantasizing about being hurt or dying in some way so that everyone realizes how much pain you’re in isn’t a sign that you’re a terrible person. It’s a sign that YOU’RE IN A LOT OF PAIN. Pain that deserves help and that CAN be helped.

The notes on this post today make me wanna CRY.

[lightning-crown]

…sorry, did you just say the vast majority of people aren’t in massive internal pain most of the time???? what

[star-anise]

So here’s where I’m getting my statistics from:

One basic test of massive internal pain is a depression test. Here’s one such questionnaire, the PHQ-9. It lists nine symptoms of depression and asks people how much they have experienced them over the last few weeks. Among them are symptoms like, “Feeling down, depressed, or hopeless,” “Feeling bad about yourself – or that you are a failure or have let yourself or your family down,” and “Thoughts that you would be better off dead or of hurting yourself in some way.”

It’s scored by asking people to rate if they’ve experienced the thing: 0, not at all, 1, several days, 2, more than half the days, or 3, nearly every day. Then you get a total score by adding up the ranking of each of the nine symptoms listed. So the lowest possible score is 0 (never experienced any of the symptoms) and the highest possible is 27 (all the symptoms nearly every day). The PHQ-9 considers scores above 5 to indicate mild depression, above 10, moderate, and above 15, moderate to severe depression.

When you run thousands of people through the PHQ-9–for example, if you ask doctor’s offices to ask everyone seeing their doctor for any reason to take it–this is what the score distribution looks like: 

Far and away, the most common score is 0. The vast majority of people experience no symptoms of depression in their daily lives. The vast majority of people do not feel hopeless, do not feel like failures, and do not think they would be better off if they were dead in their day-to-day lives.

Depression really is unusual, not the natural state of human existence, and, in the majority of cases, really truly treatable. 

[drinstadiscourse]

jesus fucking komaeda? what is jfk, i don't understand

[empathviv]

[cvberitual]

nothing bad ever happened to the komaedas

[mirthless-misanthrope]

i hope you are safe, its been a long time since weve heard from you <:(

hi yes i’m okay!!!

i just haven’t been on tumblr due to being dragged into drama in the self ship community and it just kinda felt like a chore to come on here ;-;

but, i hope you’re safe as well, dear anon!

[destiny-islanders]

i just saw a me? gongaga meme to the tune of one winged angel and it is SO cursed

egklefdjfsl;fjgsdfg 

[diamorics]

Reblog this post to wish a non-binary person a good day!

[subtitledjerma]

layers of fear is a scary game

[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[autumngracy]

The current pandemic has only made this image funnier

[sainttempest]

your vibes, what are they?

[sainttempest]

everyone be quiet unless ur holosapphic’s tags.

also, do y’all not realize how telling it is whether u have chapped lips or not?

[tender-blooming-devotions]

friendly reminder that if you associate with @/dragonzscene or whatever the fuck their url is i’m too panicked to look it up uhhhhh don’t even talk to me thanks!!!!

[mirthless-misanthrope]

reblogging my own post because i am absolutely serious about this

[spadearts]

im an artist and i draw what i want

[spadearts]

i aim to please

[arsonsara]

If you aim to please than I ask you to PLEASE STOP.

[puddlecomic]

if you’ve been trained to to dislike yourself for enjoying anything due to years of being told you’re annoying clap your hands 👏👏👏

if I listed out every particular instance that was met with negativity enough for me to stop feeling comfortable talking about it, this comic would be like 50 panels.

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[allstoriesarereal]

Okay so this is so important. Please don’t ignore this post if you think it doesn’t apply to you, because even if it doesn’t, it could be happening to someone you care about. And it may seem like nothing, it feels like it’s nothing for a while but after hearing people say just how boring or dumb something you love is… well, you start to believe it. Before you realise it you find yourself not finishing stories or sentences because there’s a voice in your head saying “shut up, no one cares” and just like that those things you used to love so much lose their spark. They no longer make you as happy as before, everything is tainted and you hate yourself for not fitting in, for not being as interesting as everyone else. Because if everyone says you aren’t then they must be right? But no! It’s not true and you tell yourself that everytime, but it’s not enough. You have to learn to love the things you used to love again.

In my case, I’ve missed out on so many experiences because of this. I had given up trying to make people see the things I like aren’t a waste of time. But I’m slowly trying to claim them back.

So please, if someone you know ever tells you something about them or about what they like please listen to them. Even if you don’t really enjoy the thing they are telling you about, if they matter to you please listen. That simple action could mean the whole world to them.

[megatronforever]

this is kinda painful tbh

[titleknown]

Also, speaking as an autistic dude rebloggin from another autistic dude, this treatment/feeling is so much a part of the autistic experience it ain’t even funny.

Which does say something about inbaked societal ableism that I can’t quite articulate…

[insanelyridiculous]

This hit me hard

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

:(

I can relate to this feeling so much….

[ficklepickle109]

I can relate on a spiritual level.😞