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trigger warning, suicide mentioned.

someone in my area jumped in front of a train today. I found out as I left my house; my friend messaged me saying he would be late to school because of a “fatality” at my local train station. I saw ambulance and police at that train station.

I went to period one, and two people in my physics class were late to school. They told me it was crowded on the bus because kids from another high school couldn’t catch the train; they had to go by bus instead. It was so crowded that it was impossible to get here on time.

I remember talking about it nearly every period. My friend told me that her teacher had to do to our vice principal and warn her. In case it was a student of our own.

I got home and everything seemed normal, but something was missing. I remember saying that it’s hard to see what’s going to happen. A friend of mine told me that if he was at the station earlier, maybe he could have saved a life. I remember the same friend telling me he couldn’t feel sad because of it - it didn’t make him sad that someone he didn’t know died. I can’t say I don’t blame him.

I was scrolling through facebook. A former prefect at my school shared something. A boy took his school bag off his back, and in his uniform, stepped in front of a ongoing train today. I realised that this was a lot more personal. I realised this was a kid. And something, someone had driven him to death.

He unloaded his bag as if it were the weight of the world on his shoulders. It’s a Wednesday night and I feel as if the world lost something today. Not many would be grieving, but I feel as though that could have been me today. And I wonder if all the times I wanted to kill myself... if a stranger would be grieve the same way I am grieving this boy.

I wonder if I would get help if I wanted to do that again. I wonder if I would jump. I wonder if one day I will die the same way he did; I wonder if people would care.

I hope someone realises that I don’t want you all to die like that. I miss this boy and I don’t even know his name or what school he went to. I hope you get help if you need it. I hope someone loves you; if no one does, I will. Please. This isn’t a soppy story; this is life or death.

I want you to choose life. I don’t want you to be missed by a stranger - I want to love you before it’s too late.

mrdafly

it’s your anniversary today. i haven’t stopped thinking you, stranger <3

reggiemess

I think tumblr should add a 'king for a day' feature. This would do very little other than add a crown to the chosen king's avatar (how blogs are chosen is not revealed) and enable the king to 'carcinize' blogs, changing their avatar to a crab. I think this would be a good feature because it addresses no problems with the website and also would make some people very mad and that would be funny I think.

feministism

drankinwatahmelin

4. If the car pulls up to you run in the opposite direction.

5. Walk with your keys in your hands and keep a key between each finger

6. If they put you in the trunk kick out the headlights

7. If you get lost find a woman with a child. Never ask a man for help (this one was drilled)

bando--grand-scamyon

That scream fire piece of advice is literally life saving

8. Watch your shadows and reflections, especially if someone is walking behind you. A split second notice is better than none and will help you.

gaylittlepieceofsh1t

Yes this last one really saves lives y'all I do it all the time

uncleromeo

girls have to learn to view the world like international intelligence agents just to be safe walking down the street. smh.

twilightt-fantasy

guys pls pls pls reblog and girls pls pls pls be safe out there. terrifying and so sad that we have to worry about this on a daily basis

guiltyidealist

(I’m an enby, but, frankly, this is helpful for anyone.)

cryptidinks

- always tell someone where youre at and an approx time when youll be back

witcheshaven

Add text replacement words in your phone if possible. Something short and memorable that you can send quickly to people in moments of emergencies.

E.g.

whatchagonnadoabooouuutttit

I f ing hate that we need to reblog this, people suck, but this will save lives.

DO NOT SCROLL PAST

anonymousmothman

Being female fucking sucks but yes this shit is important for everyone

buffshipper8490

I’m a guy and it’s absolutely horrible that women have to live in fear like this

homunculus-argument

ADHD and autism spectrum is funny in a way that isn't funny. Like hello, welcome to society, your brain is hardwired to function the most efficiently within certain parameters you'll almost never end up in. You're either so good at switching subjects that other people don't enjoy talking with you, or you're so good at sticking to the same subject that other people don't enjoy talking with you. Fuck you and good luck.

firegfarchive-deactivated202106

derinthescarletpescatarian

Let’s do a Wild Hunt larp where we kidnap Jeff Bezos and release him in the forest and then give all the larpers (who are amazon employees) weird masks and motorbikes painted to look like fucked up horses and wolves.

derinthescarletpescatarian

Somewhat disturbed at how fast this post started picking up notes.

bisexualshakespeare

don’t set out food if you don’t want us to eat

wonderwomemes

i love that i can’t write the word fuck on facebook without risking getting zucced and here I’m greeted everyday by posts like this

straightboyfriend

there is no medical component to a trans kid transitioning

if a little trans boy comes out to his parents & is like 4 all youd do for his transition is cut his hair, buy a new wardrobe, & switch pronouns & possibly change names

no one is gonna put a little 4 year old on testosterone OR puberty blockers until theyre actually about to start puberty & then they give them a few years to really decide if they want to start hormones

a trans kid existing isnt “child abuse.” child abuse is refusing to let your kid live their lives as they truly are & forcing them to present as a gender they arent

straightboyfriend

radfems who interact with this post will be blocked & your argument will not be read or even considered. i do not care about the opinion of a transphobe & my original post still stands.

gwenfrankenstien

a few years ago a kid in my preschool class transitioned socially and the only consequence was that as soon as her best friend discovered that changing your name is allowed she wanted to change hers to Detective

bunjywunjy

so the megalodon is most definitely extinct? how do scientists know?

well, the thing about large predators is that they leave an impact on an ecosystem big enough that you can tell they’re there, even if you never observe one directly. in this case, we know they’re definitely extinct because of the behavior of whales! whales used to max out at about 50 ft long and were fast and agile, entirely because of predation by megalodon!

but about 2 million years ago, our whales began to rapidly increase in size until we ended up with real monsters like the blue whale. this pretty directly lines up with the extinction of megalodon, and the removal of the pressure they were putting on large whale populations.

basically, large whales can get away with being gigantic, slow tanks in the oceans today because there simply isn’t a predator big enough to take them on anymore. if megalodon still existed, we would be seeing its impact on whale populations! whales would be smaller, and a hell of a lot more skittish than they are.

everything in a given ecosystem is connected, and you can often get important information about the unknown parts by observing the behavior of other parts of the ecosystem.

bogleech

All this, and the fact that if the ocean had sharks as big as Megalodon and had enough of them to sustain the species at all, we would have found at least one Megalodon tooth washed up on a beach somewhere that wasn’t fossilized. More likely, we would have found hundreds of such teeth every year for as long as we have existed. “We didn’t know giant squid existed!” is a common argument I see from cryptozoologists, but it’s also flat out false. We did know. We knew there were giant squid for centuries because we found remains of them for centuries. We simply hadn’t captured or filmed a live one!

cheeseanonioncrisps

Okay, so I am well aware that this isn’t at all how evolution or natural selection works, but I still want a horror film that begins with a pair of scientists with dramatic music playing in the background as they pour over piles of records, until one of them turns to the other and says “it’s the whales. They’re becoming smaller, and more skittish.”

The other scientist looks out the window, over the sea. “Mother of god,” she whispers.

milkchuggs

Alternatively;

We begin to find giant shark teeth washing up on shore. People freak out. “Scientists find evidence megalodons never went extinct!”

Then the lead scientist calms everyone down so they can explain. “No. It’s worse than that. If they never went extinct, we would’ve found evidence like this before now. This means… ” Dramatically takes off glasses.

“They’ve just come back.”

animeengineer

“But they can’t just suddenly come back like that!”

“You’re right. Someone brought them back.”

bunjywunjy

PLEASE,,,

crowgifts

Jesus Christ Super-predator

bunjywunjy

I’m pretty sure that I was the one driving when we all got into this little circus car but now I’m wedged under the back seat and the clowns have just ramped us off the grandstands and directly onto the popcorn cart

eelizabit

The khan academy guys first name is Sal…….. no disrespect I owe him my life but sal khan these nuts

paendorus-blog

EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO REBLOGS THIS WILL GET THE FOLLOWING IN THEIR INBOX.

A BRIEF ORIGIN STORY

A SUPERPOWER OR THREE, MAYBE FOUR DEPENDING

A SUPERHERO OR VILLAIN NAME

YOU MIGHT ALSO GET AN ARCHNEMESIS WHO HAS REBLOGGED THIS ALREADY

AND YES I MEAN EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO REBLOGS THIS.

betheal

give. me. an. archnemesis. I NEED AN ENEMIES TO LOVERS ARC-

redcabooze-moved-deactivated202

reblog if youre an idiot. reblog if youre just a fucking fool.

bff0f7

so can we start hunting down white liberals now or what

adamtheredbeard

The full picture is even more heart breaking after you open the uncropped version. Just a heads-up, it's rough

“The Roman Catholic Parish in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan was just grafitted.”

afronerdism

Nah let’s post it. Let’s feel it. Don’t look away.

doobiebenson

butch-bakugo

I notice alot of my followers on here skipping these posts just to mess with my lgbt ones, suspiciously the white popular ones.

Heres a not so friendly reminder, as an lgbt metis person, i dont give a single fuck what your blog is themed or if this is too painful for you to look at. Reblog this post. Reblog this post with the sources of the 751 children who were found.

Your compliance and silence as well as the compliance and silence of your ancestors is what allowed these schools to open and kill first nations children. The children of MY people.

Dont follow me if you cant reblog this post or the one with sources to your political blog or your most popular blog. Add trigger warnings if you must but if your political blog is only focused on the harms you personally face like being lgbt then you need to see some bigger pictures and stop being afraid of angering your racist mutural or actually saying some shit about racism. If you can reblog some antifa graphics or add blm to your bio to be a surface level ally, you can reblog some sources on the genocide first nations people faced and still face today.

They were CHILDREN.

They were murdered in cold blood.

churchoftheconfusedchicken

I’d like to add this photo I took last night in Victoria of the statue of Captain Cook. Though I myself am not indigenous, I 100% agree that these murderers, kidnappers and rapists shouldn’t have huge statues and plaques that decorate them and say how “great” they were.

Here’s another photo of the legislative assembly from yesterday. Later on there were more items, candles and signs at the memorial, as well as a big poster with 1505 painted on it but I didn’t get a picture

People need to see this. Not just quickly glance at the photos and keep on scrolling. They need to see this.

Reblog this or just stop following me

topherchris

snackwizard

a fools guide to not wanting to die anymore

by me, a fool who doesnt wanna die anymore

never make a suicide joke again. yes this includes “i wanna die” as a figure of speech. swear off of it. actually make an effort to change how you think about things.

find something to compliment someone for at least 4 times a day. notice the little things about the world that make you happy, and use that to make other people happy.

talk to people. initiate conversation as often as you possibly can. keep your mind busy and you wont have to worry anymore

picture the bad intrusive thoughts in youe head as an edgy 13 year old and tell them to go be emo somewhere else

if someone makes you feel bad most of the time, stop talking to them. making yourself hang out with people who drain you is self harm. stop it.

wildlyannoyingdoofus

… 8|

That’s some pretty good advice. I don’t know what’s left of my humor after ‘guess I’ll just die’ jokes but it’s worth a shot.

snackwizard

Personally i went from “guess I’ll die” jokes to “IF I HAVE TO BE HERE FOR 5 MORE MINUTES I PROMISE YOU I WILL BUY JUST, AN ARRAY OF CLOTHES.” and other wild hyperbolic stuff. Just replace the death part with something ridiculous and off topic. Its very entertaining

808lien

This also works with calling myself things like stupid, worthless, trash, etc. Even if you do this jokingly to yourself, your brain still believes it, and keeps up the cycle. Seriously, I found that when I stopped saying these things about myself, even jokingly, it made a massive difference.

maramahan

Here’s a tip I picked up from a friend that’s helped me a lot — replace self deprecating jokes with ironically self aggrandizing jokes

Like every time I trip and fall, instead of saying “l’m just a disaster human” I say “I’m the epitome of grace and beauty”

Or like, when I draw a picture I’m not 100% happy with, instead of saying “my art is trash” I say something like “you know I think it’s time we replaced the Mona Lisa”

When you do that you get to make a joke, but you’re ALSO getting practice building yourself up, y’know?

And eventually it becomes a reflex and you get so used to it that you can say nice stuff about yourself even when you AREN’T joking

jkl-fff

scottjate

This is so important

driftingdeviant

Reblogging this for anyone who might benefit from reading it. It’s a very good post.

fandomrecycling

Honestly can get behind this. My go to phrase is something like “I WILL FINISH THIS TO SPITE GOD!”

arsonistblue

And when you make the self-appreciative jokes, it also helps other people become more confident. I know, it sounds like bullshit, but it really works. A few months ago I decided “you know what, no more suicide jokes.”

If someone says “I love how we all hate ourselves,” even if I do feel like I hate myself, I say something like “No I’m cool and sexy as hell actually,” and it has done wonders for my mental health.

complete-nonsense

this isssss excellent advice.

To my approximately three (3) followers, if you ever feel like this. Follow these steps, connect with any support networks you may have and know that you are remarkable and have a beautiful future to fight for.

You are lovely and you are loved 💛

elibeeline

Also! I can’t remember who I heard this from but whenever I’m feeling like bad about myself, I remind myself of the quote:

“In order to have self-esteem, you have to do esteemable things. You have to do things that make you proud of yourself.”

Like YES, my confidence was rock bottom when I was too ashamed of my voice to even speak to my friends. Slowly but surely, I would start adding small things to conversations, and I would be proud of myself! I built my esteem by doing things I didn’t think I could do, and now here I am: able to talk on the phone, add to conversations with new people, i’m not scared to speak anymore

You’re not gonna have a good self esteem when you constantly doubt your abilities