For you my eternity au [Sun and Nexus fic]
(This is based on my theory that Nexus and Sun get linked because Sun can feel Nexus power and Nexus keeps getting attracted back at Sun and Moon. More than that, he revived near Sun house.)
Imagine Nexus being back, and getting killed again and again, by Sun. Like he refused to do anything else, and he is too dangerous to be alive.
But like, while his hatred for Sun is getting bigger and bigger, it gets to the point when Nexus doesn't remember what exactly make he hates Sun so much in the first time.
Sun is just his obsession, and the person he wants to destroy utterly and completely.
And Sun, the first time he killed Nexus has destroyed half of his soul.(Sun becomes colder and more aggressive. Dude straight up to violent options a lot these days, and some of his actions might make people mistake him for Moon.)
The second time, he just cried in silence and accepted, that Nexus was never meant to be alive. And the third, the fourth, again and again, and the most tragically that only Sun can put the final hit on Nexus.
So it definitely gives Sun really seriously mentally damaged. Like dude definitely not okay if he has to kill his brother again and again. Imagine if Sun gets more twisted or creative on killing Nexus and it really concerns Moon. Like Sun still tries giving Nexus a chance to be better but it is now just a statement, like he already knows Nexus wouldn't give up on making his life suffer. He treats Nexus like a common event now.
Believe me it's hilarious. It will be a big spiral for Sun, lol, anyway here are some of my scraps. For you my silly clown, I know you love angst @sillyzone1209
Anyway, I can imagine one of Nexus's death, when Sun just straight up crippled his legs ripped out Nexus's core, (the one giving Nexus power, his battery)
And then he just hugged Nexus and stayed with Nexus until his dying breath.
They still hadn't stopped. Their curses and oil-choked sounds echoed in his ears, almost making Sun regret leaving their voice box this time.
He didn't want his daughter to wake up this early when the dawn had not yet broken.
"Can you stop, Nexus? We have over it so many times. Yes I know you hate me, yes, you will make my life a living hell next time. Yes, I'm the one who killed you and ruined your life. I hate myself too."
Sun signs, his hand gently supported Nexus's back, bringing them into a more comfortable position.
The ash-colored cloth that rolled up to his knees, stained with oil and dirt, made Sun silently think about taking Nexus's clothes home to wash before killing them off again, before shaking his head because he already put Nexus out of their misery, or in process.
He doesn't know if he does that, would their clothes disappear or would they have new clothes?
Sun was so lost in thought that he didn't realize he was too close, close enough for Nexus's other arm to swing out.
The pain was almost burning, like being dipped in a molten fire, like the time when the Creator was still alive to torture him.
"It hurts, Nexus." Sun grumbled, covering his face with annoyance and tiredness.
His hands were wet with oil, dripping down onto the soft, baby-gold wool coat that Dazzle and Earth had knitted for him. This is his favourite coat and just like everything he loves, it gets ruined, all because Sun does things too late.
The metal plated reflected his reflection, a long, ugly gash right in the middle of his eye. He sighed, knowing Moon would be furious with worry when he returned, especially with a wound this large.
"Served you right." Nexus chuckled, his face satisfied at seeing Sun's discomfort. Sun wondered with the amount of hatred he had for him, if Nexus even remembered who he was, who they were? Was the broken animatronic gasping for breath before him still the same person or just an empty shell he had created.
Is he creating another monster by repeating this process, and turning an innocent soul into a Frankenstein by continuing this cycle of violence?
Is there any solution other than stopping Nexus permanently like this before the man who used to be his brother pulls another William Afton and comes back?
He is tired and he knows Nexus is tired too.
"Do you remember me?" Sun asked softly, he sat down, leaning against the wall near Nexus, doesn't mind the damage and also he doesn't think they couldn't do much, not when Sun had already cut off both of their arms after the stunt they pulled.
"Do you still remember why you hate me?" The question falls into deaf air, only to respond with more vicious swearing.
"I miss you." Sun didn't understand why that sentence still made him startled until now. He grabbed the ribbon around his wrist and pulled, feeling his claws punch holes in the fabric, neither pain nor worry aches as the fan grew louder and louder inside his chest.
The air smells like fire and smoke, and he is the one holding the lighter. The words were difficult to come out of Sun's mouth, like a hamster was having all its teeth knocked out of his throat.
"I still miss you. I still love you." And the voice was louder and louder until all of Sun heard was his own voice and all Sun felt was the bitterness of reality. And it was pathetic how Sun almost wished Nexus' silence was because they felt sorry for him or that there was still some trace of love in their souls for Sun rather than just simply a simple fact that they were dead.
Not that the battery can last long. And not that he expects anything from Nexus. For the person who says he hates Sun, they couldn't leave him alone.
And some ugly parts of Sun are really happy because he can still see Nexus ,even if the condition of them was so twisted like that.
Their hands are still warm, and Sun wishes they could hug him like they used to, that the thing in his hand was not a dead piece of scrap metal.
It seems like I still can't forget the person you used to be, and your revive has always been my curse and blessing.
For the next time I meet you... Brother.
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