“If a man’s son asks for a fish, will he give him a stone?”
In the morning a little overcast
I feel in the pit of my stomach that
God I ask and yet I don’t expect
Ever to be answered with an affirmative
I ask and sigh and tighten my muscles
Preparing my shoulders to bear up the rocks I expect to get
Instead of fish. Because of course the rocks are good.
They will make me strong.
Though I don’t expect you to give me one
It’s ok. I’ll ask and suppose I ask wrongly
Because of course I needed a rock
Although slowly it dawns on me under the overcast lens
Maybe I am doing you a disservice with this characterization
Always expecting the worst from you like you are a rock maniac
In a bootcamp where all the yelling is intended to make me strong and fast enough to save my life
And I settle into a starvation diet because I trust
You can help me survive one
But it’s just dawning on me
That occasionally you might do that by giving me a fish
I wonder God if it isn’t wrong of me to pray with the assumption
Maybe can you help me out with that?
You whisper me two or three
Is it a promise God? What should I expect?
The man across the room in a totally unrelated conversation
Interrupts to say “We asked for this. We shouldn’t be surprised.”
Maybe I still will be though
Just for the sheer delight of it