Second-Hand Crazy

"For I am an artist and I have no heart" author and artist of MERCY IS DEAD. I also post fandom stuff sometimes. https://secondhandcrazy.carrd.co

[2ndhandcrazyy]

Mercy Is Dead: Paranormal Poetry Digital Novella

The story of a young and rebellious found family trying to find peace in their war-ridden, apocalyptic world.

IT’S OUT! GO SUPPORT :D

[2ndhandcrazyy]

"every time i see you your hair is shorter" hm i wonder why maybe its because im tra- im cutting it. its because im cutting it.

[bottleofwater000]

i love found family with a side plot of romance i could just eat it up

[2ndhandcrazyy]

hi.. i have that.. kinda 🥺

[2ndhandcrazyy]

i just realized i don't think i ever posted the soldier boy // god is coming for him snipfics here. um. sorry guys. i'll do that eventually.

[2ndhandcrazyy]

changed up my theme a lil hehe. i think this is a lot better than the orangey thing i had for a while there.

[2ndhandcrazyy]

if i see ryota mitarai im gobbling him up like space dim sum... iykyk

[2ndhandcrazyy]

I've always been an extremely casual MILGRAM fan, but I want to take a minute to talk about the evolution of my opinion on Mikoto's trial 3, cause I think it's important.

When I saw the report, I literally about threw my phone across the room. I was spinning through the stages of grief like a fucking merry-go-round, telling everybody I knew how bad they butchered my boy.

But then, while looking for people online to validate my frustration (like a complete idiot), I came across some takes from people who... actually looked at something other than the songs (hi new mutuals, that's some of you!). And I realized I completely misinterpreted everything (and made the mistake of having an opinion without having the full picture).

One post I read said something about how "typical, middle class home[s]" (quoted from his report directly) are not immune to being abusive, and that was (embarrassingly) what it took for me to get it.

I'm not sure about Japan (I'll have to research it, or someone will have to educate me), but I know for a fact that in the United States, the systems in place to protect children are weak. They too often don't do anything unless the abuse is literally unignorable, or they can treat it like a property case in some way. So if Japan's protective systems are similar to ours, of course the report on Mikoto isn't going to include the childhood trauma. They probably never knew, because it was happening quietly behind the disguise of "well-behaved and easy-going child." (also quoted directly from his report).

The report also *only* recognizes his adulthood stress (the toxic workplace). Not only is it so very realistic for someone to go from a toxic household to a toxic workplace (abuse cycles, and such), but it's also realistic for specifically the childhood stress to go entirely ignored if the child is seen as privileged (which, that's a low bar if you're a child, since so many adults see childhood through rose-colored glasses).

Mikoto's case tells a story of childism (the belief children should be ignored, discarded or exploited for adult's comfort). And a TON of us missed it, even me.

I may write a longer analysis on this on Substack once I actually analyze the voice dramas and everything on my own, but for now this is my take. I hope getting burned at the stake by the fandom doesn't hurt too bad, cus I know this is gonna be controversial..

[2ndhandcrazyy]

it's only been ab a day but i want to thank the community here for taking this post as well as they did. i'm a very anxious person so when i posted this i literally had to block the tumblr app on my phone for a few hours.. i don't normally engage with discourse so it was scary. but so far the responses have been really constructive so again, thank you!! it means a lot to me..

[which-ocs]

Which OC is having a beer with the unimaginable horrors?

[2ndhandcrazyy]

Reed.

every day.

[legsdemandias]

Do you think tumblr will ever learn the difference between “I’m defending this person because I agree with them wholeheartedly and I am also like this person” and “I’m defending this person because your behavior is dangerous and you need to stop”

[legsdemandias]

IMO, blurring the lines between “I’m defending them because they’re right” and “I’m defending them because you’re taking this too far” is step numero uno to cutting down the very existence of fair trial and democracy–even in places where saying that might seem a little dramatic. 

Mob mentality is extremely strong in humans and it’s also extremely dangerous. Mobs don’t think things through. Mobs kill and they destroy and they can’t be reasoned with. Someone trying to calm a mob down isn’t someone defending the ~problematic party~ It’s time we re-learn that.

[crabussy]

I don't understand how cis people obsessed with gender norms think trans people are the weird ones. they're going around believing that your name has to correlate to your genitals. your fashion has to correlate to your genitals. your behaviours have to correlate to your genitals. your hobbies have to correlate to your genitals. who you date has to correlate to your genitals. whether you can put sparkles on your eyelids or not has to correlate to your genitals. and then people like me go "hmm. I might not do that. maybe I'll just do what feels fun and okay instead" and they LOSE their MINDS

[wordfather]

do you fuck with my unwritten story

[wordfather]

do you fuck with the weird guy i made

[2ndhandcrazyy]

I've always been an extremely casual MILGRAM fan, but I want to take a minute to talk about the evolution of my opinion on Mikoto's trial 3, cause I think it's important.

When I saw the report, I literally about threw my phone across the room. I was spinning through the stages of grief like a fucking merry-go-round, telling everybody I knew how bad they butchered my boy.

But then, while looking for people online to validate my frustration (like a complete idiot), I came across some takes from people who... actually looked at something other than the songs (hi new mutuals, that's some of you!). And I realized I completely misinterpreted everything (and made the mistake of having an opinion without having the full picture).

One post I read said something about how "typical, middle class home[s]" (quoted from his report directly) are not immune to being abusive, and that was (embarrassingly) what it took for me to get it.

I'm not sure about Japan (I'll have to research it, or someone will have to educate me), but I know for a fact that in the United States, the systems in place to protect children are weak. They too often don't do anything unless the abuse is literally unignorable, or they can treat it like a property case in some way. So if Japan's protective systems are similar to ours, of course the report on Mikoto isn't going to include the childhood trauma. They probably never knew, because it was happening quietly behind the disguise of "well-behaved and easy-going child." (also quoted directly from his report).

The report also *only* recognizes his adulthood stress (the toxic workplace). Not only is it so very realistic for someone to go from a toxic household to a toxic workplace (abuse cycles, and such), but it's also realistic for specifically the childhood stress to go entirely ignored if the child is seen as privileged (which, that's a low bar if you're a child, since so many adults see childhood through rose-colored glasses).

Mikoto's case tells a story of childism (the belief children should be ignored, discarded or exploited for adult's comfort). And a TON of us missed it, even me.

I may write a longer analysis on this on Substack once I actually analyze the voice dramas and everything on my own, but for now this is my take. I hope getting burned at the stake by the fandom doesn't hurt too bad, cus I know this is gonna be controversial..

[cirquezephyr]

My sweet boy did nothing wrong in his life ever. Drew this way back when the t3 trailer dropped....

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

[hiveswap]

Not now, kitten, m- da- m- your parental figure is in the middle of a gender crisis

[2ndhandcrazyy]

Not to be gloomy, but I've pretty much accepted atp that my Kickstarter is doomed to fail. I'm kinda okay with that though. I didn't expect it to go amazingly.

If it's of relief to anyone that was interested, I'm releasing Mercy is Dead anyway. I've already worked my ass off to get everything ready. I anticipate it to have an eBook and a paperback (it's too small for hardback, sorry), which I'm getting closer and closer to finalizing.

Thanks to everyone here who's been following me on this journey. I appreciate all 50-something of you. It means the world, seriously.

[not-your-average-url]

I miss when ads were a single click and then they’re gone. Now every ad has a minimum of three phases where you watch a video, exit the still frame of fake gameplay, and then exit the app download. That doesn’t even touch on the ones that forcibly take you to another app after opening a tab in safari without you ever touching the screen.

I hate advertising. I hate that you can’t do anything without companies jumping down your throat with mostly bullshit ads. I hate that billboards exist. I hate that every company unanimously decided to make their ads longer and longer. I hate that ad blockers try to charge you money and there are in app purchases to remove ads. I hate that my attention has become commodified. I hate that there’s nothing I can do about it.