והמבין, יבין

trans boi, cult escapee, CPTSD, etc, etc.

[chaotic--rebel]

Cis people are perfectly capable of gendering you correctly, don't let them transphobes convince you otherwise.

[black-girls-wizdom]

ALL LIVES CAN NOT MATTER UNTIL BLACK LIVES MATTER, JUSTICE FOR AHMAUD✊🏾

[chaotic--rebel]

Unpopular opinion, grocery workers, fast food workers, cashiers etc. were always essential and should be paid more.

[chaotic--rebel]

If every women and trans person who was sexually harrassed at work would bring it to court, the court systems would be overwhelmed. We don't bring it to court because we're tired, we're traumatized, and we just want to forget about it. But I'm starting to think that this might be a way to close the wage gap. And I want a good top surgeon.

[chaotic--rebel]

Men, I don't know why I even have to say this but if you ever sexually harrassed me don't attempt to apologize. Don't stick out your hand for me to shake it, and don't try to be friendly. Don't ask me if I'm okay. Just stay the fuck away from me and don't look in my direction. I won't forgive or forget and you're just going to have to deal with that.

[chaotic--rebel]

Not to be a thirst trap or anything, but I'll use your correct pronouns.

[chaotic--rebel]

Everybody knows that there are abusive people in the word, and nobody believes that abusive people can't get pregnant/impregnate someone, so why is it so hard for me to convince people that my moms abuse towards me was real? Are y'all awake?

[chaotic--rebel]

I think a lot of teenagers and young adults who bodybuild or work out, are doing it because they were abused and abandoned as children, and for them, it's a way to feel in control of their bodies and lives. For survivors of abuse, physical strength is often a lot more attainable than mental strength. (This can apply to people with and without eating disorders.)

[chaotic--rebel]

I like to believe that nothing happens for nothing, which is why I'm so angry that I was abused as a child. Because it's a myth that trauma makes you stronger. Mentally strong people usually had good childhoods. Abused children continue into adulthood with depression, anxiety, eating disorders, chronic self doubt, insomnia, nightmares, and many other mental problems. Suffering is not the same thing as strength. I don't need your platitudes or sympathy. I need money for therapy.

[chaotic--rebel]

Yes, I know she wasn't capable of empathy. And I'm not capable of forgiving her.

[chaotic--rebel]

A lot of times when non traumatized people tell me that I'm strong, they really mean to say that I cover up my symptoms in order not to seem out of place, and they like it because then they're not embarrassed to hang out with me in group settings.

[chaotic--rebel]

Stop assuming based on my age that I go to college. Stop asking me which college I'm in. I can't afford to go to college. Even if it's free. I need to work full time so that I could pay my bills. And I need my nights for myself, my own hobbies and for hanging out with friends. I can't heal from my trauma if I have no time to myself. Yes, I know that college is free. BUT RENT ISN'T. So STOP FUCKING REPEATING YOURSELF. STOP FUCKING TELLING ME TO LIVE WITH MY FUCKING PARENTS. YOU DON'T KNOW HOW FUCKING ABUSIVE MY PARENTS ARE AND HOW LOOKING IN MY MOMS FACE MADE ME LITERALLY WANT TO KILL MYSELF. JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY AND STOP FUCKING ASSUMING THAT EVERY FAMILY IS LIKE YOURS. SHUT THE FUCK UP BEFORE I GO INSANE FROM HEARING ALL YOUR MORONIC BELIEFS. Yes, I know college is free, thanks for letting me know. It was nice to meet you.

[chaotic--rebel]

I will never get over the disappointment of having been born to an abusive mother.

[chaotic--rebel]

I'm paying rent so that I don't have to live with abusive parents, so why do I keep having nightmares that I'm back with them? I'm paying rent for nothing.

[chaotic--rebel]

Why do I not bat an eyelash at the thousands of dollars I spend on rent, food, clothes, and transportation, that most of my friends get from their parents but that I choose to spend so that I could live away from a harmful environment for the sake of mental health, but have a panic attack at work over $50 that I wasted on a subscription that I thought I cancelled five months ago, but can't let go of for the sake of mental health?

[chaotic--rebel]

How come everyone tells abuse survivors to "get out of the victim mentality" but not abusers to get out of the abuser mentality? A toxic society that sanctions abuse by putting all the responsibility on the victim who didn't choose to be abused and ignoring the fact that the abuser CHOSE to be abusive and expecting the victim to just get over it? Sounds like what I'm living in.

[furiousgoldfish]

reblog if you haven’t felt good about yourself since birth