#ptsd thoughts

[iwantvodka0009]

[psychocitysblog]

I really want to kill what’s inside of my head. I hate living like this day after day. Just kill me instead.

[my-funked-up-life]

[unspokenwordsbyhb]

[psychocitysblog]

Why does depression have to take over my body? I feel so dead.

[satansetherealmoon]

welp

[skin-slave]

Camp Cretaceous is PTSD/trauma reaction visibility. It's not perfect. Nothing ever is. But listen.

S1 Darius, having dreams linking losing Ben to losing his Dad. Trauma dredges up trauma. The fact that he becomes kinda obsessed with getting everyone home, to the point that he regularly puts himself in danger. Hyperfocus on preventing Bad Thing from happening again.

Everyone's reactions after Ben falls. Kenji obsessed with finding Bumpy, and keeping his fanny pack from then on. Sammy bursting into tears, while everyone else seems shocked. Brooklyn has an angry outburst. Everyone reacts differently. As the story moves on, they're all mourning, but they react to references to Ben in their own ways.

Ben himself. His changes are framed as positive, but that's some serious exposure therapy. He becomes angry and reactive, focuses on being strong and able to endure. And when he's taken out of his element, he has a crisis. Even later, when it seems resolved, he's stubborn about his relationship with Bumpy. She's an extension of his strength, and anything that seems to lessen that is a threat.

The Long Run, with Yaz talking to herself, reliving moments of her relationship with Sammy. Kenji afraid to approach while Brooklyn is hands-on. Darius has to move, go, do something. Ben assuming she's dead when they all get back. Begging, bargaining, addressing one another

S4 Yaz with her vivid nightmares. The sensory overload when triggered. Lightheadedness, racing heart, shortness of breath. Freezing. Hitting her leg when extremely triggered. (It doesn't address whether she's trying to wake herself or if it's a kind of reflex that she's developing, but either would be appropriate.) The fear of never being "normal" again.

The fact that not everyone is affected equally. Even tho most of the kids have nightmares, their responses are different. Darius's sense of responsibility for everyone else doesn't go away when he finds out Ben is alive. Yaz doesn't start freezing until they're away from Nublar, and talking about it doesn't "fix" her. It's not formulaic. And it's not resolved at the end. There's no message that everyone is all better. They're all changed. But life goes on.

[whiningmeow]

I just want to stop feeling tired, I want to be taken care of without third party interests, I want pure love