Screamin' emo

I live on the internet...this is a random blog

[conflictedhedgehog]

Take your meds and eat some food, I love you For being you :)

friendly reminder to take care of your awesome self, and that you deserve to feel better

[conflictedhedgehog]

When you get to the mental illness section of your Psychology course and you finally get a chance to shine

[conflictedhedgehog]

Tumblr feels like being at a gas station at 6:30 AM, and its foggy and quiet and there's lots of interesting characters and everyone's super tired but genuinely happy to see each other.

Reddit is like walking into a bar during the middle of a brawl, and everyone stops to stare at you

[conflictedhedgehog]

Some ✨Depression Meals✨

I know its hard, so here are some ideas:

OBVIOUSLY PAY ATTENTION TO UR ALLERGIES AND LISTEN TO UR DOC DONT EAT WHAT YOU ARE ALLERGIC TO/NEED TO AVOID!!!

EASY

Ensure: yuk, but its calories and u need em

Fist-fulls of cereal: the classic

Ice cream: nothing easier than poppin open a pint

Protein/granola bar: good 4 u!

Fruit: easiest if you dont have to peel/cut

Soup: u can even eat it cold if u need

MED

Apple with nut/seed butter: yumi and healthi

Oatmeal: feels good

Smoothie: requires prep but THE BEST if someone can make it for you:}

Mac n’ cheese: comforting

STAY SAFE>>STAY ALIVE>>KNOW YOU MATTER

[maa-iingan]

Update:

They think I have late stage Addison’s disease.

I have more testing I have to do.

I’m without words. This is terrifying.

I can’t even let myself grieve or relax because I don’t even have enough money to be diagnosed properly OR treated.

So please, please. If you have anything to spare.. I need it now more than ever ..

I appreciate any and ALL HELP!!!

If you’d like to immediately help me my PayPal is

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

I don’t want to die because I can’t afford to get treatment. I’ve come this far.. I’m desperate. I need my community now more than ever. Please don’t let me be forgotten

BOOST THIS

[maa-iingan]

https://www.gofundme.com/f/1s9mcl6neo?utm_medium=copy_link&utm_source=customer&utm_campaign=p_na+share-sheet&rcid=40da252734534337a34905a6ced9b9f5

Click here to support Medical emergency, in desperate need of treatment! organized by Kailey Babcock

Kailey Babcock Medical emergency, in desperate need of treatment! Hello, my name is Yves, I’m a young, trans individual who recently moved t

Here’s my GoFundMe to help with everything, I can’t reach the funds fully til I reach my goal or I end it. I’m only at 10% of what I need. SO PLEASE SHARE IT EVERYWHERE!! COPY THE LINK AND SHARE IT TO YOUR FB, TWITTER, IG, everywhere!! It’ll help me tremendously, and it’s the perfect way to help me if you cannot donate anything. It’d be helping survive, thank you

[maa-iingan]

IM RUNNING OUT OF TIME!! , please help in any way that you can. If you’re unable/ not in a place to be able to donate then PLEASE boost, or repost my story!! That helps me just as much !!! and I don’t have much time left to wait and hope for help.

if you’d like to immediately help me with medical funds/survival funds you can donate here:

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

[starstruck-dandelion]

I’m dying too but hey help this person. Good luck whoever you are. Sorry I have a small blog so I’m not helping much.

[maa-iingan]

I love you, I’m sending you all the positive energy, thank you for your time. I appreciate you ♥️

[maa-iingan]

This is what it’s doing to my body as we speak..

This is what i get all over my body when I get flare ups from stress. It’s extremely painful and leaves open sores, which is dangerous because I have a compromised immune system

My body is shutting down, and I’m fighting my hardest to get a diagnosis to TREAT whatever this is AS SOON AS POSSIBLE because the symptoms are getting more severe by every flare up I have..

I’ve had to have 3 emergency catheters so far because my bladder keeps completely shutting down..

I’ve been rapidly losing weight and having muscle loss. I’m not able to break down protein properly for some reason.

I went from 117 to 97

These are only SOME OF THE SYMPTOMS DEALING WITH, But here it is! As humiliating as it is..here’s what it’s doing to me in full view..

I need help while it’s still possible.

[maa-iingan]

My procedure is in a couple of days!!! This is important!! Please help me! I NEED TREATMENT

[the-autumn-apple-artworks-deact]

JESUS CHRIST THIS IS IMPORTANT!!!!!!

DUDE I HOPE YOU ALL THE LUCK OF THE WORLD IDK WHO YOU ARE BUT ILU AND YOU DESERVE TO RESTORE YOURSELF

[youtube-animeace-deactivated202]

Get this person all the help you can everyone

[maa-iingan]

I’m exhausted. I just want this to end. I want to live a normal life…

I can’t mentally, emotionally, and financially afford this shit. I need help. I’m working so hard on my own to get everything I can done and it’s like it never ends.. I just want a break to breathe

[currentswim]

GET HIM THE HELP HE NEEDS

[inactive-go-away-deactivated202]

I put this on my Facebook of the post to share it around. I really hope you get the treatment you need. Prayers for you @maa-iingan​. Don’t give up!

[maa-iingan]

I STILL NEED HELP!

[canine---cadaver-deactivated202]

EVERYONE WHO SEES THIS PLEASE DONATE OR AT LEAST REBLOG IT IS INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT

[dontmakemerattlemybones-deactiv]

PLEASE DONATE AND SPREAD THE WORD FOR HIM ITS DANGEROUSLY IMPORTANT THAT WE DO WHAT WE CAN TO HELP PLEASE REBLOG OR DONATE FOR HIM

[maa-iingan]

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

Pay Kailey Babcock using PayPal.Me

Go to paypal.me/YvesOrage and type in the amount. Since it’s PayPal, it's easy and secure. Don’t have a PayPal account? No worries.

[maa-iingan]

I HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL TODAY FOR A MAJOR FLARE UP &. FOR EMERGENCY HELP

THE BEST WAY TO HELP ME IS TO DIRECTLY DONATE!!

I have two procedures I have to do this month, an appointment today and needed transportation, rent, bills, ect.

I HAVE PAYPAL, CASHAPP, & AMAZON $ CARDS HELP AS WELL

I appreciate anything

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

[spacemiddenzz]

signal boost! please, pitch in and get this guy the help he needs!

[maa-iingan]

PLEASE HELP ME‼️I now have severe inflammation and MORE tests, going to ANOTHER specialist this month and having another appointment in a week, besides my two procedures & now maybe three..

I’m just trying to stay alive day to day. My body is literally shutting down idk wtf to even do anymore. It’s extremely painful, and terrifying. I’m 23!!!and NO ONE could afford a MONTH of this, even with “help”. I appreciate ANYTHING‼️

[worm-with-a-top-hat]

Signal boost!! Please help, every little bit counts, and if you’re unable to help, please share this!!

[sweetberry-roebuck]

SIGNAL BOOOOSSTTTT

[maa-iingan]

I’ve been bedridden all day, I’m in extreme pain. They think I have psoriatic arthritis as well.. my whole body is swollen but especially my joints. To the point of my skin splitting. I feel like I have severe whip lash and am probably going to have to go to the E.R because I can barely walk. I have an appointment this week but I don’t even know if I can wait. I NEED HELP. I CAN’T afford my medical treatments alone, I need YOUR help. Boost, reblog, or donate, it all matters to me. Please help me get through this and survive..

[undrinkablesmoothie]

I really hope you get the help you need and pull through this.

[maa-iingan]

Thank you,

I HAVE to. Or I’ll die.

I have so many appointments, and rent is due and I’m late, due to an emergency visit….So PLEASE keep posting, reblogging, donate whatever you comfortablly can, all helps!! Please PLEASE help me survive.. and if not, share my story/ GoFundMe to all platforms. donating directly to me through PayPal is the best way to help me right now !!

[1-walked-witha-zombie]

Y'all please help this person, this is really fucking important.

[maa-iingan]

‼️Had an appointment today, did some tests, and needed x rays of my hands. I’ll be on more meds, and have to see ANOTHER specialist. I can’t use my hands much because of my joints and inflammation. I also have to be careful because I’m at high risk of infection, due to the open wounds on my hands from them splitting open from swelling so much.. it’s extremely painful. & I can’t hustle without hands… SO PLEASE, help me if you can. Anything and everything counts! Directly donating helps the most w bills‼️‼️‼️

[strugglingqueer]

Guys, please! Help this person! I am so sorry, I can’t donate, and all I can do is reblog, but I truly, truly hope that it will help you!

[maa-iingan]

I now have an unexpected MRI on top of getting a catheter today, and two upcoming intense procedures where I will need after care… I literally don’t even know at this point. I’m so scared and lost. I feel so alone. No one NO ONE could afford this shit, live this shit, and have to do all of it at once. My mental health is taking a huge hit because of the stress of literally TRYING TO STAY ALIVE because of bills!!!!!!

[maa-iingan]

I had to have an emergency catheter put in last night and I am in so much fucking pain. I can’t keep up with any of this.. any of it. I don’t have the money, time or ENERGY! One thing after another :( please keep this going for me so I can at least be a little less stressed.. I need help rn.

I have 300$ in my account rn I and I have to use it for meds tomorrow, as well as transportation :( I can show proof. I have an MRI coming up and two other appointments this week. PLEASE , PLEASE if you’re able and ok donate what you can, share, boost, reblog, repost, share my story!! I need to SURVIVE! I just want to be able to heal like I said

[becausewedefinetheworld]

IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT 

[tortoiseshell-dessert]

FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING SPREAD!!!

[heeheeparfait-deactivated202206]

OMG JUST HELP THEM STRAIGHT UPPPP. UUUGH

[gummyhype]

I’m literally at ROCK FUCKING BOTTOM of poverty and have nothing, but friends PLEASE SHARE THIS and help him!!!!

[vergol]

jesus christ please help him.

[maa-iingan]

@jesuschrist pls help me please sir, I am poor and not well at all……. for real.

Pls help me, I’m at a mental breakdown point.

[emotionalsupportmanteau]

My friend has Addisons. Signal boost please.

[bizzare-knight-deactivated20200]

!!!SPREAD THIS!!!

[soontobeskinny30]

Reblog

Boost

Share

Or dontate

Please do something

[cutecherriepie-deactivated20241]

Please help or at least share :s

[magpigment]

please help them, me reblogging wont do much but please.. i hope this helps a lil dude

[maa-iingan]

Thank you for your reblog, I want you to know I see these comments and am forever grateful to y’all. This does matter and it does help me. More than a little, so thank you.

[mabs-key]

Look, NO ONE should have to go through this, I can’t imagine not having a proper health system to help in a situation like this. He has to live it and it’s unfair. If you can, please donate. If not, then reblog. Because I don’t know how to explain that you should care about the wellbeing of others.

[itgetsstranger]

BOOST THIS!!

[cannibalcomputer]

going on subreddits for donations helps a lot ive heard, i wish you the best and i believe you can survive, god i hope you get the money

[jays-shit-parade]

PLEASE spread this!!!!!!!!!! Help this person out!!!!!!!

[aadyeah]

IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT

[cursedcringe-deactivated2020121]

PLEASE BOOST OR DONATE! 

[starstruck-platforms]

long but important!!

[sukunaslefttesticle-deactivated]

SPREAD SPREAD SPREAD, SPREAD IT LIKE BUTTER ON BREAD, THIS IS INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT

[maa-iingan]

I am now internally bleeding and have to have a procedure- maybe a surgery over it-

PLS help me just secure a safe place to recover and live! Please. I am scared, anxious, in pain - and exhausted.

Most hospitals are at capacity, & I am terrified of dying over this super virus - or my body giving up before I can get help. These last 2 months have been the worst of my life

[pandoras-tupperware]

I HAVE A TINY BLOG BUT STILL BOOST HOLY FUCK

[occultpansalesman]

i’ve reblogged this before, but this person need all the help they can get

[weaselweaselweasel]

guys guys guys please donate as much as you can to save this persons life

[stinkle-mcfuckwit]

@one-time-i-dreamt signal boost?

[conflictedhedgehog]

Boost

[one-time-i-dreamt]

It’s been six days and 16 year old Karlie Lain Guse is still missing, with no new information about her disappearance or where she might be at. Last time she was seen, she was walking towards the direction of Highway 6. She has no personal belongings on her, including her phone. People in her life are adamant that this is completely unlike her and that she wouldn’t just walk away like that. I’ve seen tweets from her friends and family and they all fear for her so much. Please, let’s help them spread her face around, it might make a difference!

edit: I can’t believe I forgot to add a link, my apologies, here’s another source to the news about her disappearance: x.

[one-time-i-dreamt]

It’s been over two years since her disappearance and since I’ve made this post and as of December 2020, Karlie Lain Gusé is still missing.

KARLIE LAIN GUSÉ | Federal Bureau of Investigation

Mono County, California October 13, 2018

If you have any information about her whereabouts or this case, please call them in!

[conflictedhedgehog]

Sometimes I’ll just be chillin and my brain says “no one loves you” and Im like “WTF????? We have no reason to believe this????”

In conclusion, your bully brain doesn’t know shit. U rock

[conflictedhedgehog]

This is a very niche post, but am I the only one who’s like, scared of what my therapist is gonna think of me?  I feel like I don’t wanna unleash all the crazy on her, like I feel like I need separate therapists for each little thing.

[taking-care-of-you]

(Credit: ourmindfullife.com)

[conflictedhedgehog]

Try and remember this--i know its hard <3

[conflictedhedgehog]

This is what’s great about Tumblr...

You don’t have to be beautiful.  You don’t have to be “normal” (whatever the fuck that means) You just have to be weird. You could be a 40 year old virgin in your mom’s basement and run a popular fandom blog. You could be a nobody in other people’s eyes and have a MASSIVE meme page!  You just have to be.  And that’s why I love Tumblr! (even though it can be a total hellscape)

[conflictedhedgehog]

You read “tho” differently than “though”

amirite?

[conflictedhedgehog]

So I’ve been taking some supplements, and I’ve been having some INTERESTING dreams...

The other night i dreamt I was dancing in this elaborate ballroom with lots of mirrors.  I was surprised when some old lady came in who told me she was my fairy godmother.  Then I was in another room with her and Princess Aurora who was teaching me to do some wave that she called the “Hail Fairy” and then cackled.  I'm alarmed by the inner workings of my mind...

[tsunflowers]

also I learned about this project called “queering the map.” the idea is that in the past gay neighborhoods and gay spaces were very clearly defined bc it just wasn’t safe to be yourself anywhere else. as lgbt+ people become more visible and accepted many feel that we are losing our connection to those spaces

so every dot on this map is basically someone’s queer experience: coming out, meeting their future wife, seeing another gay man in public for the first time, anything you can think of that truly left a mark on them

it started in Montreal and is primarily English-language with most pins dropped in the US, Canada, and Europe, but there are people all over the world who’ve shared their experiences. it’s great to look at places near you but it’s also great to see that even people in places you thought were the middle of nowhere are happy with themselves and finding community and living their lives

[sazandorable]

It’s here and it’s SO SWEET?? Just clicking around it’s very personal stories, in first person and a lot of them addressed to a specific “you”, and sooo many in extremely poetic language. It feels like an art installation and it’s so beautiful. ;W; Thanks for sharing!!!

… there’s also a lot of really silly ones (like gay sharks in the middle of the ocean)

[coolnpc]

[captainlordauditor]

I looked at Jerusalem and immediately found two favorites for entirely different reasons.

[chibigikochin]

Things I found from the queer community of japan:

It’s no secret to the Japanese that Shinjuku nichome is the gay district of Tokyo but about half the pins left there are for the same club in that area named gold finger. Definitely a place to check out if you’re looking to get involved in the Japanese queer community for whatever reason, it seems.

I have a sneaking suspicion this submission is a haiku when written in Japanese…

This guy got the scenic view I guess

Is this how people feel while reading deep romantic poetry because wow I’m moved.

Honestly the best feeling is learning we’re not as alone as we’ve been led to believe

These are all super poetic oml I appreciate every single one of them

[phuk-ewe-deactivated20221207]

There are none in my town. Guess I’ll be the first

[isabelofwraithmarsh]

I went to my old, STAUNCHLY conservative town and saw “There are a lot more of us here than most would think, past and present” and I nearly cried

[toniins]

small town australia vibes

[toniins]

oceania gays are funny bitches

[ficcyshit]

With what’s happening in Poland, it’s super important for us queer folks to be able to find each other and take strength from the community. I’ve always loved queering the map and I thank whoever created it every day.

[roomba-with-knives-taped-to-it]

The link isn’t working can someone post it again

[conflictedhedgehog]

i love this

[conflictedhedgehog]

My last thoughts last night...

“I’m going to die at a claw machine.  I want my last moments to be winning the claw machine” and????? I’ve never even used one????

[conflictedhedgehog]

Tumblr is great, it's like screaming into the void

but less metaphorical, and sometimes no one hears you, and sometimes you hear voices calling out from the darkness “lol same” and “mood”

[randomreasonstolive]

Reminder

You matter. You matter. You matter. Your life matters. Your feelings matter. Your struggles matter. Your progress matters. Your goals matter. Your hobbies matter. Your interests matter. Never forget that YOU matter. ~C

[conflictedhedgehog]

YOU GUYS LOOK!!!!

#I made a Ned cake for my brothers birthday :) I’m kinda proud of it (it had dry ice/blue water coming out of the “tank”)