feelin like maybe making a little intro into my blog for once!
i mostly rb general stuff here :)
my main blog for the dragon prince is @self-spaghettification !
aka my special interest of 10 months </3
quick content warning for my blog: i sometimes post depression/suicidal ideation based content! there also may be nsfw content, i don't really filter/categorize that!
other than that this blog is pretty much just media i like/wanna watch, things i find interesting, issues i care about, relate, or thirst lol
other stuff is below the cut
Hello there! ✧
This is me :]
i love:
❤︎the dragon prince
❤︎the magnus archives
❤︎arcane
❤︎goth subculture
❤︎psychedelic rock
❤︎vampires
currently consuming:
✰stardew valley (year 3 summer now…)
✰terraria once I get my pc restored
✰arcane (waiting for act 3 AHH)
✰mistborn by Brandon Sanderson
✰hollow knight ( I HAVE finished the main game now, just not col 3 or any of pantheon)
inactively consuming:
✰the magnus protocol
✰omori
✰Lego monkie kid (on s3 I think? I stopped bc I’m no longer friends with the person who was the main reason I watched it lol)
✰death note (I need to finish it tbh)
✰chainsaw man
✰revolutionary girl utena
✰adventure time
✰the bell jar (?)
✰vox machina (at my friend’s behest)
✰what we do in the shadows
things i plan to consume:
➢the case study of vanitas manga
➢dunmeshi
➢interview with a vampire (⬇️)
➢vampire diaries (⬇️)
➢hannibal (i blame miharin)
➢american psycho
➢everything on my letterboxd
➢tales of arcadia
➢amphibia (bc my sister)
➢the powerpuff girls rewatch <3
➢loki season 2
➢why women kill
➢discworld
➢live action atla
other things i enjoyed/consumed in the past!
❀our flag means death s1 & s2 <3
❀ You
❀hazbin hotel (ish)
❀scott pilgrim og movie
❀the magnus archives
❀the adventure zone
❀the penumbra podcast
❀nimona
❀atsv
❀raya
❀the owl house
❀fionna and cake
❀atla and tlok
❀good omens
❀my little pony (it's been a very long time though)
❀gravity falls
❀dsmp / sleepybois inc (why did like 50% of them end up being pedos/abusers 😭) (I’m also somehow not surprised )
❀sanders sides (when the season 2 finale comes out I’ll drop everything for it RAHH)
❀arcane (when s2 drops I’ll drop everything for it)
❀she-ra reboot
❀castlevania: nocturne
❀celeste
❀hades
❀glitchtale (&aus, of which i contributed to)
❀undertale (&aus)
things i like to do
♪be chronically online (jk but not really HAH)
♪analyzing media
♪journaling
♪drawing
♪writing
♪coding (sort of doing it freelance for money right now lol)
Ok so people have told me that I'm being vagued about, and this has already taken a toll on my mental health but the fact that people can tell that it's me being vagued about is making me concerned that others might be being misled.
Under a cut because woof, are you guys in for a ride.
There is a certain BNF in this fandom. This BNF was my friend and sometimes, because of their neurodivergencey, they have trouble realising that the way they're communicating with someone is inappropriate. This is valid to some extent and can be afforded a little grace, however one of the things they have been known to do is condescend to other fans and sometimes call other people stupid for diagreeing on an interpretation or opinion regarding a children's tv show.
This person has been known to get particularly aggressive over a specific season of their favourite show. The season itself was controversial: many people didn't like it and thought it lacked the tv show's nuance and complexity. I myself thought the season was lackluster.
This person doesn't like it when people talk about the season negatively. The actually left a private server after some other fans were talking about the kind of culture they wanted their server to have. One particular quote was that other people shouldn't be called stupid for not liking said season.
This person felt called out by this. They felt that they could not adequately express their feelings and opinions about said season in the server because of this discussion. They told me they couldn't understand why they felt other people were misunderstanding them, and because they were my friend, I wanted to help them. They wanted examples of things they said that could be misconstrued. All I did was clarify that people just don't like being called stupid for not agreeing with their interpretations.
This is the conversation that followed:
This was part of a two-day long conversation and we did eventually come to an understanding in spite of the above. I wrote and sent them ia199 as a sort of peace offering and they responded with this:
Regrettably, I didn't screencap my response but I think I said something like:
"There is nothing I can say that would be respectful to my feelings that won't also make the problem worse, so I'm just going to leave it. Take whatever time you need."
They then contacted me on Discord and we had another conversation which went as follows:
Then they blocked me.
This happened in November 2024. You may notice it is now May 2025, and they've been vagueblogging about it and about me for months. Maybe they do have trouble communicating and I get that, but when they came to me saying they didn't understand, I took that in good faith and wanted to help. This person was my friend and I knew they were neurodivergent, but I didn't think neurodivergency was an excuse to call people stupid and belittle them. I still don't think that being neurodivergent means that you're incapable of treating people with respect.
This entire ordeal was and remains hurtful and frustrating. You guys may have noticed I'm not really active on Tumblr anymore and it's because of this and the way it affects my mental health. Everytime someone sends me a post implying I was being ableist for trying to help them with something they told me they couldn't understand, it stings all over again.
I have seen this person accuse people of being racist, arophobic, and/or ableist to retain the moral high ground in disagreements. I have seen them throwing around their popularity, their degree, and their neurodivergency to justify their behaviour.
You have too, and we all just let it happen because they're The Popular Blog of the fandom.
Enough is enough. This isn't okay.
You guys can consider this my last tdp post. To the person this is about who will inevitably see this: wish granted. I'm out.
I don’t know about the rest of you, but I don’t think it’s cool to share private dms and make an entire call post just to say you’re leaving a fandom due to a fallout with a former friend. Then, portraying it as some fandom social issue.
Like, airing out private dirty laundry for a goodbye post isn’t cool. It isn’t classy and it feels kind of petty. You could have been respectful and moved on if that was your wish but…
Exactly what Kuno-chan says. This is something that should be deal with in a private way. I like both people involved here but this is just not okay and shouldn't be supported. It's a violation of privacy‚ privacy you had with a friend.
It's sad to see a lovely creator leave the fandom and you have your reasons but there are ways...
The only thing that's been cleared up is that I've been given a blocklist- which would be anyone who supports this kind of sharing private stuff in public behavior just as a dramatic way to slam the door on fandom. We're adults here, come on.
If you think sharing this kind of thing makes you the better person it backfired.
What's insane about this is that some of you seem to think that the problem here is a shared DM, with all personal info removed mind you, and not the fact that someone is insulting to their friends, and to the rest of the fandom, and has been vagueblogging like a child for half a year because someone wouldn't let them get away with being an asshole
Like, is your issue someone sharing a few private messages or someone bullying others out of a fandom and calling anyone who disagrees with their subjective opinion an idiot? Because to me one of these is a much bigger issue
Amazing how a person who's very anti purity culture is also pro leaking private messages just to announce you are leaving a fandom. Who's bullying who here?
If you think the main purpose of this post was to announce leaving a fandom and not to call out years of bullying behavior and months of vagueblogging, you clearly didn't understand the post. Jelly is talking about standing up for herself after this behavior has continued to go on after she TRIED to handle it, and she got called ableist and then blocked, and then vageblogged about for months. That's just not fair to expect someone to just take that.
And that's just a few things I could say about this situation, which has honestly gone on for far too long because of people covering for and excusing this behavior.
Finally, I don't have to be active in a given fandom to know what decent human behavior is
Sorry, gotta make a separate account to protect myself, but some of these comments are lowkey disgusting.
First, no one has an absolute expectation of privacy. If you’re vague logging someone in a way that everyone knows who you’re talking about and damages their reputation, that person has a right to defend themselves against mischaracterization. Even in that sense, Jelly still took great care to anonymize BNF to protect their identity (in contrast to BNF who actually tagged Jelly!), only did so as a last resort after MONTHS of being vagueblogged and only shared portions of the conversation that were relevant to demonstrating the nature of the interactions, not unrelated personal information. As far as disclosing DMs go, this is probably the most justified and targeted way of doing it.
Second, the DMs actually show the point that Jelly was making, that she was being extremely patient (even though she was clearly frustrated) and clear as to what they were saying. They maintained focus on BNF’s behavior, not their opinions, and every time the conversation shifted to opinions, Jelly calmly brought it back to behavior. Jelly acknowledged BNF’s perspective as valid and pointed out clear patterns and examples of problematic behavior that BNF themselves were asking for, and offered constructive feedback on how to move past this. Even when BNF was being dismissive or defensive, Jelly remained respectful and focused on the issues rather than retaliating or escalating.
Third, another thing that these DMs show was that BNF was downright lying about Jelly. In the DMs, they acknowledged and apologized for their behavior that negatively impacted others, but in public portrayed themselves as being attacked for their neurodivergence (even though the DMs show they weren’t). It also showed that even though BNF was requesting feedback on their behavior, when Jelly provided specific examples they became defensive and rejected feedback before claiming they were harmed by the very interaction they were initiating. Essentially, both the DMs and the follow up post shows that BNF expects others to manage their emotions and reactions while showing little regard for how their behavior affected those around them.
Fourth, BNF is showing some disturbing, borderline narcissistic traits. The limited ability to prioritize other people’s stated emotional experiences (constantly redirecting to their own emotional experience), the grandiosity (their interpretations reflect canon, other opinions are “stupid”), the defensiveness rather than acknowledging the feedback, the self-victimization (framing the feedback *they asked for* as an attack on them personally), the moralizing/mudslinging, the willingness to revise history to maintain their self image even though the DMs contradict that, the cynical exploitation of their own vulnerability, and emotional manipulation (given how starkly different the private acknowledgements and public narrative are, it’s hard to imagine how BNF isn’t just prioritizing their self image).
Fifth, BNF’s supporters here who are attacking Jelly while overlooking BNF’s behavior are showing some wildly hypocritical. On the one hand, Jelly is violating BNF’s privacy by showing anonymized DMs, yet none of the same people bat an eye when BNF outted Jelly by tagging her. They simultaneously accept BNF’s gaslighting that, actually, they weren’t vagueblogging Jelly but that Jelly could only be talking about BNF. Not only is this selectively deciding who gets taken in good faith, this makes no sense - if BNF really wasn’t vagueblogging then, then Jelly’s posts should not have been identifiable enough to violate BNF’s privacy. It can’t be one or the other. But that doesn’t matter because BNF’s fans are willing to throw all standards to the wind and Jelly under the bus all to signal support for the popular blog.
TL;DR Jelly did everything she could, BNF has some reflecting to do, and BNF’s friends are hypocritical sycophants riding a popular blog’s coattails.
I would like to second everything that Orca has said. Another point I’d like to add that
This is a pattern.
This is not the first that BNF has thrown around progressive language in order to shit all over other folks in the fandom, whether publicly or privately, and it clearly isn't the last. I have been witness to and/or counsel on multiple conversations where BNF’s behavior has been shades of Jelly’s experience. BNF has:
Taken conversations not about them personally and extremely poorly (despite wanting others to take THEM in good faith…which ended in the creation of a server that’s rules boil down to no negativity allowed ever, which sounds an awful lot like a flavor of purity culture that they profess to be against);
Accused people of arophobia for having shipping preferences and expressing them (God forbid people’s shipping preferences be romantic rayllum and they have FEELINGS about their ship and aren’t just happy no matter what the show does with them. God forbid people not write a meta to support every thought or feeling or opinion they have about the show.);
Accused someone of being racist because of an innocuous opinion, without care for the impact both socially and emotionally on the other person (While vagueblogging about how being called racist isn’t the end of the world…cool, yeah, great, in a private conversation intended for reflection? Sure. In public where randos will come rake you over the coals over it when you didn’t actually do anything? Fucking no. Inconsiderate at best, unnecessarily hostile and cruel at worst);
And finally, it is absolutely fucked up to use Autism as an excuse for this behavior.
Autism is not an excuse, and frankly? The idea that it is, is insulting to Autistic people who have taken responsibility for their social difficulties. This is fandom. So many people here are neurodivergent, and I don’t see every single person running around refusing to think ahead about/acknowledge how their words and actions impact others. I don’t see every Autistic person weaponizing their Autism so that they are never responsible for making meaningful changes to their behavior. It’s not masking or ableism to have to consider how your words and actions feel to others, and it’s unfair to make your friends shoulder the burden of correcting your communication.
And then pushing back when they do give you that feedback? Why, if you really want it? If you really want to be a better friend? Why do they have to PROVE how your words made them feel?
The answer is that you don’t want to be a better friend. You want to continue to do whatever you want to whoever will let you. You don’t listen, and you don’t change because at the end of the day you don’t care about those you’ve hurt.
Honestly, yea. This is not the first time we’ve been here talking about some sort of fallout involving this specific person, who has been vindictive enough that I only feel comfortable talking about this through a separate account.
It’s fine if the BNF has strongly held views they think are 100% right. It’s fine that they don’t want to waste time talking about elements of the show they don’t like. But it’s not the opinions themselves anyone has a problem with. Its the fact that if anyone has anything even remotely critical or negative to say about ANY writing choice, it’s because they’re stupid, illiterate, or ill informed, because if they weren’t then their interpretation of canon would 100% agree with BNF’s.
Which is, quite frankly, absurd. TDP writers are great but they’re not gods. They’re going to make mistakes and they’re going to do make judgment calls that don’t land. It’s totally legitimate if someone goes “you know what? I’m criticizing X Y or Z things and it’s not just because it didn’t work for me personally but because I think it was the wrong writing choice, isn’t consistent with the themes, isn’t coherent character development, etc.” You’re not an idiot for having the opinion that the writing was imperfect.
But as bad as being called dumb is, being called racist, sexist, transphobic out of the blue, essentially as a strategic move is so beyond the pale I’m surprised people tolerate it. TDP wears its progressive values on its sleeve so most racists, sexists, homophobes, transphobes are going to read the room and self select their way out of the fandom. It’s just not possible that EVERYONE who disagrees with BNF is actually a bigot too (instead of just wrong, at worst). It’s such a jump to a bad faith accusation that I don’t even think BNF truly believes those accusations, just making them as both a way to undermine the other person’s standing in the fandom but also as a threat - disagree with me, and you’ll be called a bigot too. It’s such a fundamental disregard for not only actual bigotry but for the wellbeing of other people in the fandom, and for what? To get people to agree with you or just be quiet when they don’t? We should not be tolerating casual toxicity like that.
All right, this took me ages to finally do, oops 🙈
Above all - Michael W. Smith
Wir gehen zusammen - Mufasa Cast
Ngomso - Lebo M.
Herzbeben - Pur
Live the Life - Michael W. Smith
Can You Feel the Love Tonight - Elton John
Ich wollte immer einen Bruder - Mufasa Cast
Coming Back Around [5m41] - John Powell
Not So Fireproof [3m21] - John Powell
Das bist doch du - Mufasa Cast
As far as @'s go, @thatartiststudios @ripple-rapple @self-spaghettification @thrandilf @a-very-sparkly-nerd @mandaloriandragontrainer @sagegreenfrogs @konmaao3 @nix-moon @flaming-thing and anyone else who wants to do it 🥰
Allein vor dem Spiegel (trl: alone in front of the mirror) by Pur (German pop band that’s existed since the 80s and sings almost exclusively in German). I went to see their musical 2 weeks ago which started another brainrot that I didn’t have like that since spring/summer 2015 🥰
I was tagged by @thedissonantverses thank you soooo much!!! I love love love loooove music tag games!
(sorry for being so incredibly late posting this)
Put your ‘on shuffle’ playlist on and list the first 10 songs (or your most used playlist if you don't have spotify)
Dark Signs - Sleep Token
Over This! - Slayyyter
HISS - Megan Thee Stallion
Sensation - Crosses
I Don't Wanna Be Me - Type O Negative
Talk To Me Nice - Tinashe
Diamond Eyes - Deftones
luther - Kendrick Lamar & SZA
BEVERLY HILLS - Doechii
God Did Me Wrong - GRLwood
This is pretty good shuffle tbh. I might be a little biased, but these are all bangers in my book. I used my Youtube's 'Supermix' and put it on shuffle, and it was pretty accurate for my usual listening. I was going to use my Writing 2025 Playlist, but I tried to keep it open to everything.
If you see any artists you also like let me know! Hopefully this will also introduce some artists to other mutuals. I love sharing music very very much.
Tagging, with no pressure, some mutuals I know who might enjoy music tag games: @staticpallour @toxiclizardwrites @atonalginger @lyriumrain @lucaanis @lisa-and-shadow @blightedcrow @bearlytolerant @ellstersmash @skeleinor @therealgchu @fangbanger3000
I've been stuck in a bit of a rut lately and have been listening to, like, the same 10 artists, so my usual "On Repeat" playlist from Spotify reads as follows:
Like A Villain - Bad Omens
Heavy Is the Crown - Linkin Park
Airhead - Honey Revenge
Top 10 staTues tHat CriEd bloOd - Bring Me The Horizon
Lonely is the Muse - Halsey
THE DEATH OF PEACE OF MIND - Bad Omens
Circle With Me - Spiritbox
Blessed Be - Spiritbox
Ascensionism - Sleep Token
Take Me Back To Eden - Sleep Token
No pressure tags: @evildarkacademiaarchivist @darkacademiaarchivist @forthegirlsngays and anyone else who'd like to join in!
I haven't used playlists much lately, as I've mostly been just listening to Hozier's entire discography over and over again. But this is what I get when I hit shuffle on the playlist I DO use the most (my art playlist):
1. "Spin The Wheel" - from Arcane (as sung by Mick Wingert)
2. "All Is Soft Inside" - AURORA
3. "To Someone From A Warm Climate (Uiscefhuaraithe)" - Hozier
4. "Inertia (Acoustic)" - AJR
5. "LABOUR (the cacaphony)" - Paris Paloma
6. "Friend, Please" - Twenty One Pilots
7. "Hate to See Your Heart Break" - Paramore
8. "Brother" - Gerard Way
9. "Tired" - beabadoobee
10. "Matilda" - Harry Styles
As you can see, this shuffle encompasses the entirety of human emotion, and no I will not elaborate :3
And yes, I use YouTube Music. Parents paying for YT Premium is a wonderful thing :)
(my phone restarted itself in the middle of my first attempt at posting, despite the fact that I had JUST restarted it three minutes before, I AM GOING TO CRASH OUT)
They intended to dummy it out, but you can still access it if you strafe into the corner at the right angle. Doing this will bypass 3 nights of your stay and glitch out your room service to read 244 pizzas (the pizzas are actually infinite-use, the counter will not decrease).
Just go outside and punch the ground a couple times. Go back inside and build a noob tower up to the sitting area, it can’t be higher than 3, 4 blocks.
First you need to get the spider ball, then there’s a hidden morph ball power outlet behind the front desk that activates a spider ball track. You can reveal the outlet using the x-ray visor. Getting up there will earn you an extra energy tank.
He would NOT be taking care of that body, he probably barely sleeps or eat and gets hurts all the time. Ford has to patch him up constantly. Also, redeption arc.
