Sebastian | Brasil sil sil | 20s | VIOLENTLY GAY | Mild funnyposting | Certified Otter™ by the Council of Otters | Uppercase W Whore (I get bitches now) | Benny is Love, Benny is Life, #benny4ever
Hey!!! My name is Sebastian, I have a pronouns page, and my pronouns are he/him. Here's a list of my diagnoses.
I am HomoSexual™. I'm trying to keep this shorter than my last pinned posts so here are some pillars of my personality:
I like Half-Life and Portal, my favorite bands are Jinjer, Meshuggah, Periphery, Opeth and A Sense of Gravity, I tend to think I'm funny, I'm probably 25% cool. I have three sideblogs: @just-faggot-thoughts (NSFW sideblog I WILL block minors) @abaddon-of-secrets (dreamcore/liminalcore sideblog) and a ventblog that is currently inactive.
My tagging system goes as follows:
#seb speaks his mind - Original posts
#seb's writing - My writing
#seb does vocals - My vocals, I do screaming and singing
#seb shows himself - For when I want to show my face (and my tits before I made the NSFW blog)
#vent - Ventposts (for blocking if necessary)
#no antipsychotic - I quit my antipsychotic. Reporting on that.
#kity - Any post I ever see that has a cat in it I will tag it this
#dogy - Posts with dogs
#birb - Posts with birds
#webbed site - Posts that webbed site
#supernatural - Posts about That Show With The Normal Brothers
#blorbo!chuck - Posts about my blorbo Chuck from the aforementioned show
#lyric posting - Posting lyrics
#show dad - Saving things to later show to my dad
#writing - Old writing tag (so far most of it is here)
A detail I find really interesting about Chell, GLaDOS, and Wheatley's first confrontation in Portal 2 is when Wheatley starts gloating about taking over the facility. "I did this! Tiny little Wheatley did this!"
And GLaDOS interjects like, "You didn't do this. She did all the work!"
I find that interjection fascinating because. Like.
GLaDOS doesn't actually know anything about what happened behind the scenes. She lost track of Chell and Wheatley after Wheatley opened up a wall panel and they bolted off together into the facility's inner workings. She doesn't see them again until Chell falls for her fake door trap, at which point GLaDOS is unpleasantly surprised to discover that Chell's disabled the turrets and neurotoxin in the meantime.
She has no evidentiary foundation to base that accusation on.
This is also before GLaDOS recognizes Wheatley as the Dumbass Core, so it's not based on an assessment of him.
The only explanation it leaves is that it's based on her assessment of Chell. Despite GLaDOS's enmity towards Chell, the one thing she rarely goes after Chell for is her intelligence.
When she does, it's an admission of her high standards for Chell; Like when the fake door trap works and GLaDOS concedes, "I didn't actually think that would work. I already built a much better, smarter trap up ahead for when this one fails." That's a backhanded insult. It's calling her dumb, but in a disappointed way rather than an affirming way.
Chell tests very well. Between the two games, GLaDOS has developed a strong understanding of Chell's aptitude for critical thinking and problem-solving in stressful situations.
And so she takes it on faith, just from what she knows of Chell, that Wheatley is stealing Chell's credit.
"Learn the fundamentals first" seems like really sound universal advice, and as a former classical musician, I can vouch for it. You will have a more solid foundation for increasing complexity if you put in the time to study in a structured way. If you don't, you'll have a lot of shit to fix later.
As a former music teacher, I can also say that "learn the fundamentals first" is the death knell for a vast percentage of beginners, especially adult learners.
I've run into this with drawing several times, where some well-meaning artist has lectured me on needing to study anatomy properly or not use shortcuts like CSP brushes. And oh, believe me, I know. I know exactly how to learn an artistic discipline in a structured way. I just...don't want to!
The thing is, I'm not aiming to be a professional artist. I want to draw my gay little anime guys. I would undoubtedly improve at art much faster if I approached every gay little anime guy drawing as a study exercise. But I would also have quit drawing a decade ago if I couldn't just let myself enjoy drawing imperfect fucked-up little guys with whatever shortcuts I needed to body myself across the finish line.
With my adult piano students, my approach was always "What's your goal?" If their goal was to learn exactly one Elton John songbook to play at parties, then...that's what we did. We'd put tape on the keys to label the notes, and just fuckin go for it. Learning exactly one Elton John songbook is a good and noble musical goal, full stop.
Some of my students needed and enjoyed a more structured approach to learning; if they wanted to be able to play classical music, then yes, scales were going to have to enter the equation at some point. And yet others would learn the Elton John songbook, catch their white whale, and realize they wanted to explore more of the ocean. The scales were still there for them to learn!
Often the choice isn't between "learn art well" and "learn art imperfectly" - the choice is between "learn art imperfectly" and "don't do art at all." To which I say, learn imperfectly! Or, what the hell, don't 'learn' art. Just do, and enjoy the doing of it.
You have official permission from your local pretentious classical music snob: fuck the fundamentals. You can always unfuck them later (but only if you want to).
thats the kind of thing i would love to just have in a little jar on my shelf so that when people came over they would be really unnerved by the mysterious shifting blob i have in a flask and i would refuse to acknowledge its existence
Extremely excellent, very very very autistic quote from Brennan Lee Mulligan:
"Curiosity is love for the world, and when you love something, you want to get to know it more. So when you share facts about crows or pterodactyls or whatever, what you are expressing is gratitude for the ability to exist in and come to understand the beauty of the world around you."
"When you tell someone that you don't like all the crow facts, you're...
"You're actually saying that you hate me. I am my crow facts."
Go for it! From what I’ve seen, everyone has a different genre but instrumental (no words) seems to be key. I guess Sweet Dreams words are so ethereal, ADHD just rolls with it????
For me, orchestral covers of songs I know work best since my ADHD is using the extra hyperfocus to remember and keep up with words. Have fun experimenting!!
I have some arrangements of songs I did that I just loop. Mind you, these are, like, 1-3 minutes long, but the drone really helps with focus
Y'all I just listen to Lana Del Rey. Would recommend because with instrumentals I tend to focus on where actual words would be but with Lana’s stuff her vocals sound like music but it’s words
really wish I could’ve done this when I was spending 4 hours on every page of math homework in the 90′s. Fast forward to my last year of college when I finally figured out I could just listen to Blackmill and blaze through an entire semester of college math like it was nothing.
Find the study methods that work for you!!! Help kids find the study methods that work for them!
It takes me all day to do simple chores because i keep getting distracted. If i put in earbuds with upbeat music I’m done with everything in a couple hours AND i feel really good and probably danced a little i.e. exercised.
Try songs in another language - one you don’t speak. The idea is that since you don’t understand the words, your brain doesn’t go “Oh hey, someone is talking to me” and thus you can maintain your focus. Although, this is something probably best suited to writing. But on the other hand, if it works, it works.
Personally, I like Opera. BUT, I advise against using Pandora’s Opera Station. At least in the free version, it either cycles through the same ten Singers/Albums or drifts off into instrumental covers.
On the other hand, it’s great for background noise when gaming. Just be sure you have an ad blocker running. You will also have to confirm that you are listening every hour or so.
Followup on the lofi front:
I recommend the following channels.
Chillhop Music: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCOxqgCwgOqC2lMqC5PYz_Dg
In particular, I recommend the relax/study livestream radio. Or just about any of their mixes.
Fantasic Music: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZyyXrEF2WCZbI653PFNBbA
Both the Chill and the Jazz playlists are excellent.
Jazzhop Cafe: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCi8wqezBudeAiTdKOX571ug
Their ChillMix videos are the best.
Jazzhop Cafe Archive: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKbD–QKXKosHmSXarqYUeg
Name is self-evident.
I believe ChilledCow also has a livestream, but I honestly prefer Chillhop. YMMV
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSJ4gkVC6NrvII8umztf0Ow
EDIT: Oh, Pandora’s Vitamin String Quartet IS good, but it tends to drift off into New Age type stuff. Adblocker thing still applies though.
I also find jazz, city pop, and vaporwave work well for this purpose too. Beethoven’s Ninth Symphony and Vivaldi’s Four Seasons also got me through many a college paper back in the day.
A variation: I don’t know if I would get any chores done without audiobooks…
My husband recommends
myNoise sets the standard for online background noise machines and interactive soundscapes.
as there are many options for looping sounds, fully customizable, categorized by what they’re good for, no ads, and can sometimes be played with screen locked. It’s truly wonderful.
Ooo time for me to drop my secret anti-ADHD bullshit weapon!!
Sometimes with ADHD I really do just need rain noises or lo-fi beats or instrumental stuff, and sometimes I need the music equivalent of being hit by a truck made of candy carrying 16 tons of high-octane fruity energy drinks. That’s where this playlist comes in. It’s the closest I can get to just blasting serotonin directly into grey matter and it works wonders when I really need to get something done but doing it sounds worse than stepping on white hot metal lego bricks. I hope it can help y'all as well!
