July 2026: How Is It Going?
Halfway through 2026 and I need an accountability post. This year has been a crazy ride already and if I put off tracking things until December that is a guarantee for forgetting.
January and February started me off in my Biker Mice From Mars Works In Progress. I outlined Evil Jack: Perseverance, posted Wars Are Won By Those Who Dare: Sacrifice of Happiness on Ao3 and the BookWorm's Library, and then added 7409 words to the first draft of Wars Are Won By Those Who Dare: Laissez Les Bon Temps Rouler. Perseverance took some time to figure out the details since my muse was convinced we had given away everything in Three of a Kind (Ao3 | BookWorm's Library) last year. We figured out a way to surprise the readers when I actually get to write it. Rouler is now in between the first pinch point and the mid-point shift, which is a pretty decent chunk.
March and April were for Star Wars WIPs, but March is also when my therapist officially put me in burnout. I finished Sororal Lineality: Kyber so I could post it on May the Fourth (Ao3 | BookWorm's Library). Then I tried to start on Rescue the Farmboy: Extrication but burnout sapped all my energy for that one. And since I'm still unsure what lessons Yoda will be teaching and I needed to do more reading, I ended up reading two books on Zen Buddhism and one book on Taoism.
May and June put me back in the Zackverse WIPs and the first one I'm filing in is the first of the Legends of Hyrule series The Hyrueliana. I had steady writing progress most of the days of both months and will take the low word counts I got because it was steady.
Plans for July and August: these months are set aside for making updates to the BookWorm's Library and my Ao3 account so I decided to also catch up on the To Be Read fanfic list and comment on them too.
I am learning that Gen X/Xennial experience burnout differently than how it is typically described from medical professionals. Medically-speaking burnout is supposed to leave you unable to function, but we in this generation-cohort have been trained to just put up, shut up, and make sure everything gets done regardless. You have to earn that rest, earn that fun activity time, but there is always everything to do to a perfect standard that is not possible to achieve at all.
And I got a triple whammy of this by being born a girl (who has to maintain that standard or else), the oldest who was parentified to take care of younger sisters and the slack of the home-front while parents worked, and society on my generation.
Which is a long way of saying that I haven't been resting as much as I need to and I have let my projects creep up again. I did get 4-10s back at the paying job, which has given me energy for yoga again. I had about a month where I just couldn't deal with going to the studio. Unfortunately, work has informed me that the 4-10s schedule will only last until one of my coworkers retires this year and then it is back to the paying job five days a week. So I really need to rest more than I have been while I have the time.
Oh, this is a biggy. Basically the appraiser refused to appraise my house until a contractor made repairs, so it turned into a complicated math problem and the HELOC loan was denied. I got a remodeling construction company to do a walk through to tell me if my dreams of a new addition and up-to-code electric and plumbing were possible. They very bluntly told me that my hypothetical $100k (because I haven't actually got a loan for that) wouldn't get me a new addition, much less the other issues, and I would be better off demolishing and starting over. Which is the same possibility the appraiser gave me.
On the plus side, I do have equity. I just need to get some comps and find out how much my land is worth and then get a construction loan to build a new house, which would recycle as much of the old house as I possibly can. My wooden walls are cypress, baby. My sisters don't care what I do as long as I'm happy. Dad understands I need new interior, but doesn't want the exterior to change that much. "It's Gram's house when I look at it." I'm not opposed to Creole Cottage look on the outside, and have been playing with Floorplanner.com to see what I can fit in what kind of footprint. I'm hoping to get that done this week and move onto the next steps. My home insurance wants something to happening by October to see if they will renew me, so I do have a deadline.
I think that's everything for the first half of this year.