syljor

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[syljorxx]

i think i might be a therian. i always found it weird when i saw people who proudly wear tail and ears outside, i still feel weird when i see it, but something changed in me, i got my first tail and ears (red panda) and i fucking love it. im so ashamed tho, for the most of the time they lay in the back of my wardrobe and when the night comes i sometimes wear them and look at myself in the mirror. im enjoying it too much, its so weird i need help

[syljorxx]

i will kill myself before my 18 birthday. I can’t live anymore, i have no hope and no strength, i hate this world and i want it dead. I want everything to be over, to finally find some peace, to stop being this annoying guy that always looks for attention. I want for someone to yearn for me like i yearn for everyone. But that’s all, all i want is to be loved, but if i won’t find love what should i do? Even if i will have someone how will i live, i can’t imagine myself working, having my own house, moving out. There is no job for me, no person for me. I do believe in soulmates and i think my soulmate already killed themselves and is waiting for me in another world. So i have to kill myself for them, i need to find them in another world, not here, not in this body, not with these thoughts.

[syljorxx]

i will never do what i want because i can’t like anything for longer than a year. im 17 and the only job i had was cleaning places, i wanted to be a vet but i can’t study biology, i hate it. i wanted to be an actor, i still sometimes do, but who would like an actor with this many scars, i wouldn’t be able to play any good role, no one would want me, no one wants me now so why would anybody ever want me. i will kill myself after my 18 birthday, i won’t be able to grow, grow and do what?

[syljorxx]

i am unlovable. There will never be a person who will answer my every „am i annoying” question, no one will ever hug me and play with my hair, no one will ever remember my birthday and wish me happy birthday on 12am, no one will ever remember my favorite things, no one will ever record tik tok trends with me, no one will ever answer my texts, no one will ever be able to make me happy, really happy, no one will ever

[syljorxx]

MY HEAD IS EXPLODING I HATE THIS FEELING IM SCREAMING

[syljorxx]

i’m at the point of my life where i just wait for the weekend to get wasted. I think i got addicted to alcohol again, every weekend i drink, much. This weekend im hosting a sleepover and will drunk again, and i actually can’t wait for it, i feel like when i’m drunk everyone likes me more, everyone is nicer. When i’m sober i just feel like im in simulation, i have really big memory problems lately and i just don’t want to be sober, i want to be drunk, i want everyone to like how funny i am when drunk. They will never like sober me anyway.

[syljorxx]

i really can’t stop thinking about calories and death, and how lonely i am, i have thousands of ideas how to off myself.

[syljorxx]

new year is here, but i still have thing that is never leaving me, suicide thoughts. It’s 12:21 now, 2026, and i feel so fucking weird. If it weren’t for my sister and her husband that is with me right now, i would kill myself. I feel like i have no point in being here, if i were alone now there would be blood running down my body. i don’t want to be here and i never will, no one will ever get how i feel, not even myself.

i will starve myself to death this year.

[syljorxx]

i can’t speak

[syljorxx]

I started taking new meds from my psychiatrist, and i hate them. First i started to remember my every dream, every day, first i was happy because i loved to get dreams as a kid, but these dreams are so fucked up, now sometimes it gets to a point where i don’t know if i’m dreaming, that leads to me stopping caring about what i’m doing, because what if all this is just a dream? Second of all, is that i stopped feeling, i know how it sounds, but sometimes everyone is sad or happy, and i just stopped getting this feeling in my chest when i’m sad, i don’t laugh anymore, i don’t do anything. I hate it here, but who cares. xo.

[syljorxx]

I’m gay, and i have a friend - best friend - who is a bisexual woman, and i can’t stop thinking about the fact that only if she was a man i would be so in love with her. When we were younger i did actually said that i love her and want to be with her, but she rejected me. And i really am gay, i can’t imagine myself kissing a woman, having a family with a woman. But she is so perfect, we like the same things, she is yang to my ying, she is the type of a dominant when i’m a bottom. She is a sadistic when im a masochist. I feel so comfortable around her and when i see her talking to other people i get jealous, but i don’t want to be in a relationship with her, i mean, only if she was a man. I think that if i would finally find a man that i really like all of this would go away, but i think i won’t ever find anyone, i will just die, lonely, as many people did, and can anyone remember them now?

[syljorxx]

drawed this mlp version of tcfsr cover cuz i think it’s really cute. I did it in my polish notebook so don’t mind some stupid notes.

[willbyersneverbackdownneverwhat]

woman has just lost most of her family and wants to prepare for a deathly battle and all we can talk about is who gets to have sex with her

[syljorxx]

louder please

[syljorxx]

Does anyone else have this hate-love relationship with Stranger Things?

Don’t get me wrong i love this series, it’s just that it’s extremely predictable, i watched 4 episodes of season 5 and i did in fact predicted that William will get his powers, and i also knew that Max will be alive. For 4 seasons none of the main characters died, by main i mean a character that is longer in the show than 1 season. Maybe Billy was the only one but i think he died because Duffers will only kill characters that people don’t like.

Stranger Things got me really entertained and i’m still waiting for the next episodes but when i already can predict the ending what’s fun about it?

I think that the another reason why most of us is still watching is that we are attached to this show, for me it’s been 7 years since i watched 2 first seasons.

Anyway i want to hear yall opinion about it, even if what i just wrote isn’t something we didn’t knew.

(Also i’m praying for byler endgame :p)

[sunnydaymuse]

Those damn heart eyes...（๑ ᷇ 𖥦 ᷆๑)