Three Empty Words
“It’s so hard to pretend to be friends with someone special, when every time you look at that person, all you see is everything want to have.”
Summary: Have a best friend who sticks with you through thick and thin is impossible to find. The moment you met Jackson, you know he was going to be your best friend for life. Jackson always knew how to make sure you were happy and healthy and always seemed to turn a negative situation into a positive one. However, you would be lying to yourself if you were to say you didn’t have any type of feelings for Jackson… But Jackson is just your best friend… You knew best to push those feelings away and just move on.
Previous Parts:
Part 1 // Part 2 // Part 3 // Part 4 // Part 5 // Part 6 // Part 7
Part 8
Masterlist
This is exactly what the doctor ordered. A night out to forget about what's been happening. Lately, it feels like you were suddenly cursed…. Nothing but bad events kept piling up in your life. First, you lose someone you claimed to be your best friend and now you aren't even happy in the relationship you were currently in.
What can possibly be next?
When it comes to your relationship it’s weird… When Yoongi and you are together everything seems to be perfectly fine. The two of you enjoy one another's company and can talk about anything and anything. He shows that he cares about you when it's just you two and he never fails to show that you are special. However, after he leaves and you two aren't around one another, it's like he suddenly forgets he is in a relationship and acts completely different. It’s like he forgets about your existence and seems so distant and cold.
He doesn't check up on you. He always seems to be too busy to respond and he just makes you believe you two aren't in a relationship...
In other words, this whole relationship was rather complicated. You wanted to talk to him about it, but you decided it was best to just suck it up and hope that something will change...
Hopefully... Something will change in this relationship and when you say change you mean for the better...
You already lost someone important to you... Did you really want to lose Yoongi because of your own paranoia?
"Y/N!" That was the first thing you heard as you stepped foot into the bar.
You look to your right and there you see your best friend Nani waiting for you in a chair with a glass in her hands already.
You quickly walked up to her. As soon as you approached her, she got up from her seat and pulled you into a hug.
"It feels so good to reunite like this," Nani says as you two were hugging.
"You have no idea how relieved I am to see you..." You two pulled away and you sat down in the seat that is next to her.
"I can't wait to hear all about it... But before we begin, I think it's important you get you a drink first... You're going to need it first," It wasn't long until Nani called the bartender over and ordered you a drink.
She's right... Right now, a drink sounded very much needed at the moment. -
Nani's Point of View
After calling Y/N and finding out that her and Jackson were having problems... I knew right away I couldn't just sit back and do nothing about it. From the moment we all became friends I knew there was something different about the two of them.
I always had a gut feeling the two of them would end up together at the end. On top of that from what I recall Jackson did tell me very valuable information that I can’t ever forget.
Flashback
It was 1985 when I first lost my husband...
WHO AM I KIDDING.
One Friday night, it was the day where I decided to hold a goodbye party after being offered a new position to move away from home. I invited all my very close friends and thought it was going to be a good night... Don't get me wrong, it was a good night.
However, it was also a very unforgettable night.
Before I learned the fact that Jackson had a thing for Y/N I remember I had a small crush on him. I mean let’s be fair you can’t blame a girl because he is a good-looking man.
I thought before I left Korea, I had to make it a mission to sleep with him before I left...
But boy did that bite me in the ass. That clearly didn’t work out in my favor.
There was of course alcohol in the party and many people under the influence.
I remember at this party telling Y/N about my intentions of hooking up with Jackson. The thing about the situation is she never agreed or disagreed with my decision which from the start I found that oddly suspicious. But at the time I didn't think much of it. As I said drinks were involved in this party...
I remember that night I was watching Jackson from afar with a red cup in my hand, drinking to get that liquor courage in my system to make a move... After my final sip, I remember setting the cup down and before I knew it, I was suddenly walking in his direction.
Jackson looked at me as I approached him and as soon as I was in front of him, he looked at me confused and quite taken back.
"You me upstairs now," those are the only words that happened to come out of my mouth. He was surprised to hear me say such a thing TO HIM. Yes, I knew I had always been a bold kind of gal.
I grabbed a hold of his hand not giving him much of a choice but to listen to me and pulled him upstairs. I was under the influence of alcohol, but I wasn't drunk, so I was fully aware of the decision I was making at the time.
By the time we got upstairs, it wasn't long until I pulled him into my room and threw him on the bed.
I thought maybe by being aggressive it would turn him on.
As he was lying on the bed, I closed the door behind me and made sure to lock it so no one would interrupt this moment.
While Jackson was lying on the bed, I walked over, and it wasn't long until I was suddenly straddling his waist looking down at him smiling in satisfaction.
I looked at Jackson and noticed how taken aback he was with everything that was happening. I was planning on kissing him, but I suddenly didn't feel right about the situation.
What am I doing...
If Jackson was into this, he wouldn't be looking this confused...
"I'm sorry," I said as I removed myself from Jackson and he slowly sat up.
"No, I'm sorry... I don't know if I ever gave you the impression that I was interested in you... and if I did, I'm sorry...." hearing that come out of Jackson's mouth did sting. I didn't know how to feel...
It's not like he was rude about the situation. I was at fault especially since I just read his body language wrong in the first place.
"No, I'm sorry... I don't know why I even did that... " I was slightly embarrassed, but Jackson got close to me and grabbed my hand.
"Listen I respect you too much as a person to let something like this ruin our friendship," Jackson was always a sweet man.
He was someone who if he truly cared about you, wouldn't let minor situations like this interfere and that's something I admired about him the most. If I were in a situation like this, I probably would have acted awkwardly and completely killed the friendship in a matter of seconds.
"Can I ask you a question?" I asked him and he looked at me.
"Yeah?"
"Who do you like?" Usually after getting rejected like this a normal person wouldn't ask about their interest right after... But as you can tell I am not your normal girl.
For Jackson to react the way he did I knew right away that he was interested in someone. It seemed like he put all his marbles in one jar, and I suddenly became curious to know who it could have been.
"How do you know I like someone?" He asked me and I smiled.
"Because I'm smart." Jackson looked hesitant to even open up about his feelings, but he looked at me.
"Y/N..."
As soon as he said her name I wasn't even surprised. I had a feeling this whole time, but I never said anything because I thought it was all in my head. The way the two acted around one another showed that the two had eyes for one another... Jackson seemed to pick up on the vibe, but I couldn't say the same about Y/N.
She is probably still in denial or still ignoring her true feelings.
"I should have seen it coming," I blurted out and Jackson looked at me confused.
"Do I make it that obvious?" I couldn't help but smile.
"Just a little... But to be honest I'm pretty sure Y/N feels the same way she just doesn't know it yet. " Jackson just looked at me and I got up from the bed.
After that encounter, we never brought that up to anyone and I never asked any further questions about his feelings towards Y/N. I just kept it a secret because I knew that if Jackson wanted it to be known he would have said something a long time ago...
I always hoped that the two of them would have started dating while I was gone... But boy was I wrong... I came back and I found out that the two weren't talking...
Nope, not on my watch.
I love both equally and I know that these two were a match made in heaven. They both just needed an extra push to talk to one another and finally confess how they truly felt.
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Your Point of View
As soon as you received the drink in your hand, it didn't take long until you began to take a few good sips from it.
"Before I even tell you about my depressing news... What's new with you?" You asked Nani and she smiled.
"No no no we must start with you... I know you probably don't want to talk about it but what the hell happened with Jackson and you?"
Before you decided to open up, you lifted your cup and took a good chug.
"Oh..."
After putting down the drink you looked at Nani.
"That's the thing, I have no idea where it went wrong. We went from being best friends and everything was normal to suddenly Jackson removing himself from my life and not explaining himself. I don't know where everything went wrong. We were so good and before I knew it things went bad so fast." You truly don't understand where things had a turning point.
Did you say something that could have offended him? He would have said something... it's not like the two of you haven't argued in the past or at least had a disagreement.
"Hmm, at what point did you notice Jackson acting up or acting distance?" Nani asked you and you sat there and had to really think about it.
The more you thought about it... You realize he started to act towards you the moment you started to see Yoongi.
"Well... It started after I started to see someone, but I don't feel like that could have been a good enough reason for Jackson to want nothing to do with me?" you looked at Nani and she just smiled.
"Girl... Do I have to spell it out for you?" Was there something you missed here?
"What are you talking about?"
"I don't know if you're acting clueless or if you really are... But I don't know... Maybe Jackson LIKES YOU?" When Nani says those words, your eyes widen.
No way.
That sounded impossible. Jackson... JACKSON WANG YOUR BEST FRIEND liking you?
That doesn't sound right.
"No, he doesn't," you quickly shot the idea down and she just shook her head.
"Okay, what other explanation is there for Jackson to cut you off out of the blue?" Nani seemed very convinced that Jackson had feelings for you, but you never got that impression from the guy.
"I did forget to mention that Jackson has a girlfriend. What if he started to date without telling me anything and his girlfriend wanted him to cut me off? I don't know, I'm sure there is a perfectly good explanation," you said, and Nani looked at you like you had 4 heads.
"Wait... Did I hear that right? Jackson has a what?"
Before you can say anything, you are cut off when suddenly by your surprise you look up and there you see Jackson entering the room. Why is he here?
You noticed him the moment he walked right through the front door. Speaking of the devil...
Just seeing Jackson's presence made you suddenly want to drink even more.
You looked over at the bartender and smiled.
"Can I please get another one?"
You had a feeling that Nani must have invited Jackson over here. Talk about making things awkward.
Jackson noticed your presence but suddenly looked away and looked right at Nani. You could feel the unwanted vibe he was giving off with you just being there.
"I'll be back, Ima head to the bathroom," you told Nani, and she nodded her head.
You instantly got up and found the nearest bathroom. Right now, you need a chance to mentally prepare yourself before facing Jackson... After the conversation you two had I felt hard looking at him.
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Nani's Point of View
I felt someone tap my shoulder. I look up and there I see Jackson right in front of me. Clearly, my presence was needed in a situation like this. Before I left on my trip, I was pretty sure I was going to come back home and find out that Y/N and Jackson were finally together. . . HOWEVER, it looks like the complete opposite happened instead.
"A warning would have been nice," were the first words Jackson blurted out.
"Well, how was I supposed to know that Y/N and you were not on good terms? I leave you guys alone for two seconds and I come to find out that you two hate one another?" I wanted to ask Jackson as many questions as I could before Y/N came back from the bathroom.
"I don't hate her. . ." I knew he didn’t, but I wanted to hear that come out of his mouth. By the way Y/N explained it seemed that way, but I knew that she was exaggerating.
"Well why she is away, care to share why you two stopped being friends? Or would you like to start at the part where you have a new girlfriend,"
Jackson looked over at me and then at the bartender.
"I need a drink,"
I shook my head and looked over at Jackson.
This could take all night.
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Y/N's Point of View
As you came back you felt much worse. Usually at least back then when you would see Jackson you used to be happy. But now that there was nothing but this awkward tension between the two of you... You wanted to run out of there.
The only way you can manage being around him is if you have enough alcohol in your system.
You raised your hand and called over a bartender.
"Oh, so it's that kind of night?" Nani asked and you looked over at her.
"Oh, you have no idea..." you said as you slightly glanced at Jackson, and he was already looking in your direction but instantly looked away.
You knew that once the alcohol starts to kick in you are going to give Jackson a piece of your mind sooner or later.
-
4 shots in and you were definitely feeling the buzz.
Jackson hasn't said a single word to you, and you couldn't help but feel yourself suddenly getting more and more agitated.
How can this man sit close to you and not want to talk to you? Did your friendship mean nothing to him?
"I need another drink," You were ready to call the bartender over yet again but that's when Nani stopped you.
"Listen Y/N I love you, but you need to slow it down with the drinks..." You knew Nani was looking for your best interest, but it didn't help with the fact that Jackson was inches away from you.
"I wouldn't have needed to drink so much if you didn't bring him here," you said pointing right at Jackson and that's when he finally made eye contact with you.
"If I would have known that you were going to be here, I wouldn't have come," Jackson splats out...
Those words themselves felt like he pulled out a knife and just stabbed you in the chest...
Jackson was so cold to you... Never gave you a full explanation and suddenly it seems like he can be so harsh to you and not feel a single remorse after saying it.
"Wow," you blurted out...
At this point, you don't think you can no longer hold back your tongue.
You were hoping that eventually maybe in the far future, there was a chance you two could have put your differences aside and work something out but suddenly that doesn't seem like that will ever happen.
"Guys..." Nani was trying to interfere but it was far too late for that.
"No... Jackson tells me how you really feel," you said looking Jackson directly in his eyes.
"You know what, let's just drop it," And there he goes trying to leave you in the dust... You were sick and tired of being confused and clueless. You needed answers.
"No... What the hell did I do to you, Jackson? How the hell do we go from being best friends to suddenly me being dead to you? Did my friendship mean nothing to you? Did I mean nothing to you? I would have thought maybe if I ever did something wrong you would come to me and talk to me about it. But clearly, you don't seem to give a single fuck about me since it seems so easy to remove me from your life..." you were about to continue but Nani cuts in.
"Y/N don't say something you will regret," Nani knew how much you valued Jackson as a person... But it was far too late now...
"Stop. If Jackson doesn't give a fuck, why should I? I was stupid enough to think you valued me as a person. I wasted my time hoping that maybe we could put our problems aside and become friends again. But you know what, I don't need you in my life."
"Y/N," Nani tried again but it was no use.
"You're dead to me the same way I am to you... Now we are even," saying those words out loud suddenly made a sharp pain appear in your chest.
You were hoping to hear something come out of Jackson's mouth by now or even explain himself at least but he stood completely silent.
That reaction by itself showed you everything needed to know.
Internally you wanted to reveal how upset this situation had you feeling but you weren't going to allow Jackson to get that satisfaction. Lately, all you have been feeling has been upset and depressed, and instead of anyone showing any sign of concern... You were alone yet again...
You lifted your head and looked at Nani.
"I'm sorry but I have to go... I think it's best if we see each other when this person is not here," you said to Nani.
"Y/N," Nani was trying to stop you from going but it was far too late for that.
You started to grab your belongings.
Just as you were getting ready to leave suddenly that's when everything seemed to happen so quickly...
Just when you thought your night couldn't get any worse... You thought wrong.
"Hey babe," you looked over and your stomach dropped.
There you see Yoongi kissing Nani.
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To Be Continued.
