#pfdid

[soiarsys]

some alters hold trauma/memories that they didn’t exist to experience / didn’t front during.

some alters have amnesia for moments they were there for.

like that’s really common. you have a dissociative disorder. you aren’t faking if you remember something you didn’t front for and you aren’t faking if you forgot something that you yourself literally did. our brains are trying to protect us. sometimes it does a good job with the amnesia thing and often times it doesn’t. there’s no real way to make amnesia convenient. like a lot of systems only get amnesia from switches, but a lot of us forget the day prior even if no switch occurred.

and although this post is about amnesiac systems, you’re valid if you don’t have amnesia either, or not very much. everyone is different. every system is different.

[myrmidon-hearts]

“the other day” means either today or 6 years ago. no inbetween

[heavens-roses]

Octocon and RAMCOA survivors

pt: octocon and RAMCOA survivors

cw: RAMCOA, number names

Felt I should share this as I haven't really seen it talked about in system or RAMCOA spaces. When you use Octocon your parts will be attached numbers to each part based off who was created first. While it's likely due to how to code the easiest. it is important to remember that if you are a survivor who has parts who were forced to be called a number, are a survivor who was called a number collectively/bodily, forced to refer to others as numbers or has any trauma related to number names please tread carefully.

I know as a survivor it can be extremely scary not being able to control your name or having anxieties related to not being called your number too. Please know you are not forced to use Octocon just because other people are using it. If plural kit or simply plural work best for you than keep using them. You do not need to switch over and risk your own mental health. Being a survivor who was dehumanized to numbers is horrible and whether you decide to reclaim your trauma or are healing by moving away from it know your triggers are valid.

Know you are never alone in healing your trauma and note this post is for education. This is not to bash in the creators of Octocon nor is it to tell you how to feel about the app/bot. At the end of the day how you find support with yourself is for only you and your system to decide. With thet being said do not interact with this post if you are pro/neu-endo / believe in any form of "plurality" outside of being trauma based. If you are a questioning system, a cdd system who is syscourse unaligned or apathetic you are more than welcome to repost and interact.

[youlookkindadead]

i came up w a cool thing in therapy today with my therapists help. so like. alot of my parts struggle greatly with cooperating w each other and we all kinda hate each other, and the model of like "view them as your roommates or your friends or as vulnerable baby woodland animals" or whatever is in style now just makes us all even more angry at each other so ive started like. editing the model to something that part would actually agree with. like for me im trying to view my headpeople as patients at my office because im like dentist weirdo guy and it makes more sense to me bc i wouldnt wanna piss of my patients or else they might sue. and ig im supposed to like help them to the extent i can. i dont have to force myself to form an emotional bond to anybody bc i dont want to and thatd be inappropriate for my job but i can be civil and polite now because it'd be poor work ethic for me to tell a patient to shut the fuck up and go kill themself

[the-echobah]

HELLO!!! Could we get an Undertale Tenna, please?? Level 2 is fien for us<33

It's an au here in Tumblr...but I dunno if there's any content outside of here. Still!! I'll be content with what we get

[%^*TENNA UT BAH PACK*^%]

I SCREAMED WHEN I SAW THIS REAUEST POP UP, it’s why i was rushing to finish the other requests lol. but i genuinely love UT tenna im giving you a level 3 fuck it

NAME(s): Tenna, 10a, Anthony, Ant, gen, ???, TV, Mr. Ant/Tenna

PRONOUNS: He/him, tv/time, junk/junks, sight/sights, AD/ADs, why/whys, mar/mart, ginger/gingers, ant/ants, bug/bugs, scavenge/scavenges, sell/sells

GENDER(s): transmascquasineu, sleepyboy, boyfluff, tvobjehead, staticgender, tvglitchic, brokenglassian, 2000stvnostalgin, brokentvgender

ORIENTATION(s): vincian (gay mlm), acefucked <- (used an arofucked flag, couldn’t find ace)

ROLE(s): memory holder, attraction holder

SOURCE(s): Undertale tenna AU

INTEREST(s): selling things, fixing mechanic issues

SPECIES: TV head monster

nonharm TRANSID(s): transecholocation, transsight (cis mostly blind)

nonharm PARA(s): N/A

PERSONALITY: mostly closed in, loyal, paranoid, lively when you get to know TV

COLOR CODE(s): #005657, #140043, #5F7FE9

LIKE(s): helping scavenge with spamton, spamton, cats, learning languages, mechanical work, fixing things to sell

DISLIKE(s): walking into walls, being reminded sight’s stuck underground, mirrors, dealing with people, white noise/that type of stuff (drives ant insane)

EMOJI(s)/SIGNOFF(s): -🧰, -⚙️, -🦾, -📸, -☎️, -💻, -📺, -TV, -tens, -10s, -anthony, -ant, -UT!tenna, -tenna

POS FRONT TRIGGER(s): sourcemates, being near cats, different languages, fixing machines

NEG FRONT TRIGGER(s): wearing any sort of glasses, interacting with body/hosts ex(es), looking into mirrors for too long, getting injuries on arms/upper body

FACECLAIM(s): 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6

couldn’t find pictures of UT!tenna on pinterest so most are from tumblr (here)

-SUNNY (he/it) + PUDDLE (shx/xe/pup/star)

[multiplesillylittleguys]

Please tell me we're not the only ones who are discovering A LOT of new alters all of a sudden??

Not splitting, because that gives us headaches. Just discovering new people.

We've had a while where we completely forgot we have DID, we barely remembered anything about each other. And now all of a sudden we're discovering more of us, rapid fire.

If you've experienced this too, please interact I wanna know I'm not the only one cuz the mood rn is impostor syndrome

-Kate

[spiritwoods]

hello! looking for some more currently active osddid focused blogs to follow, especially other polyfrag systems and/or systems of colour

pls like/reblog/reply if this applies to u! :D

p.s. : follows from a main + more info in tags

[truly-a-snitch]

singlets rly like 2 ask polyfrag ppl the hard questions, like "whos fronting" and "what happened yesterday to make you split"