Cecilia

[normalhumanity101]

Hi there. 👁️🧠🪖🐉🎱🎼🪗♟️

My name is Cecilia

My pronouns are it/they on here, I’m Techum/objectum and will probably talk about that too. I’m also on the aroace spectrum .

Religious Christo-Pagan. Specifically a Greco-Egyptian polytheistic, Jesus worshiper and archangel Michael devotee.

I made this blog to talk about my disorders, more specifically my personality disorders.

I have avoidant personality disorder, borderline personality disorder, ptsd, generalized anxiety, bipolar 1 with psychotic features ,adhd .

I want to learn about myself, and since I don’t journal, I thought this would be a good place to go.

My interests are poetry (I write a lot of poetry), movies (I like psychosexual, trying to get into French new wave), reading (I’m getting back into classics and I want to get into philosophy ) and music (minimal synth, Appalachian folk, black metal, more..)so I’ll talk about that too probably.

[echoesofsaturn]

"slut era" i say as i rot and decay in my bedroom and watch the years pass me by as i miss out on core experiences other people my age are having while i think about the past

[normalhumanity101]

Restless dreams about my ex coming back is angering me so bad. It’s like my dreams are taunting me. I don’t want her back, and I don’t like thinking about her. I don’t want to talk to her , or be affiliated with her. I don’t want her in my sinking heart anymore. I’m so uncomfortable every single night. I wake up laughing , crying, sweating , all depending on the dream , and it’s always about her. There’s so much that happened with her and it’s like I cannot escape it. Why? Why do my dreams taunt me?Why does this stupid woman haunt my soul?

[alexandraisyes]

Reblog/interact if your blog is a safe space for all people struggling with their Cluster A, B, and C personality disorder regardless of whether they are high or low-functioning in their disorder.

[ceruleanheaven]

sometimes i have a dream that reveals such a humiliating desire i have that i genuinely lose a bit of respect for myself

[avpdculture]

Avpd culture is actually feeling better when you're completely isolated because the universe can't go a fucking day without humiliating me for some reason

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[normalhumanity101]

I’ve been having non stop slow debilitating panic attacks because of my depersonalization / derealization .

I don’t know what to do. It feels like everyday I’m sinking deeper into hell. I keep thinking that this day (everyday) is a dream . I don’t know how to escape .

[normalhumanity101]

I’m at the lake. I was having fun until I touched poison ivy. I’m so irritated.

[normalhumanity101]

Doc said i have cluster b traits but i was just acting to get into an institute or smth to get away from my family . I will have more freedom in jail. They just gave me prozac prescription. Only thing that can "fix me" (whatever it is according to them) is a lobotomy.

I’m cluster b and been in a hospital more than 13 times. It isn’t worth it to go. Unless you really need help. You really have more freedom in prison than you would in a hospital. You can’t have anything or do anything that you want. It’s like youre stripped of your dignity, and I mean that literally. Unless you’re maybe not in the states it might be better. I hope you’re okay, and you can get away from your family. Prozac is a hell of a medication. A lobotomy sounds nice , anything to get away from my current brain functions.

[the-irreverend]

And stay safe everyone!

[normalhumanity101]

Something that truly annoys me as a system who struggles everyday due to oea/tmbc flashbacks is people trying to convince young kids that they’re a system just because they change their looks a lot or have memory gaps. Genuinely so annoying. No you aren’t automatically a system just because you vaguely relate to a systems post or because you see a lot of systems in your feed.

[goth-queen]

[normalhumanity101]

I have avpd with some schizoid traits. For some reason people always come to me for advice or comfort. I do admit I can have empathy and compassion though. I don’t judge or discriminate, I’m good helping people I guess , so maybe that the reason.. it just gets to be a lot . I become the main person people go to for advice and venting. It gets to the point where i feel like my time isn’t my own anymore, and im burnt out.

[zegalba]

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

I think people with personality disorders are so brave (not just cluster b, but any cluster) because you guys face so much stigma and misinformation

You guys are so strong just for existing, please keep going your local tumblr anon is proud of you /gen

aww thank you! your support is appreciated and I'm glad that more and more people are realizing the stigma around us

[normalhumanity101]

I hate social interactions and somehow I’m always in them. How do I always find myself in these situations.

[normalhumanity101]

I just listened to this thank you:) I love it. Very relatable. Does it count as folk?