Stargazers System

Traumagenic System, neurodivergent. Traumagenic Safespace. Endos, Tulpas, entirely DNI.

[stargazerssociety]

introduction post ig

Hello, we’re the stargazers system. We’re Traumagenic and have a good amount of bad bois. We are also Autistic, tone tags please.

Common Fronters

Dean - He/Him, current host. Masks depression

Sal - Psychosis holder, any pronouns, comes and goes 🎭

Wade - ADHD personified, social alter, he/him

This blog is mostly gonna be ramblings and reblogs, but things might get heavy occasionally.

feel free to send us asks and messages, we love talking to and meeting new people.

Basic DNI- Endos, homophobes, transphobes, racist, sexists, ableists DNI

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my basic profile guide:

#hate crimes md - Shit about House MD, either reblogs or posts. I am a Hilson and a Huddy Stan, don’t mind me

#sysposting / #mental health - guide to stuff related to mental health / system shit

#audhd / #actually autistic - Autistic, enough said

#partner post - posts in response to / regarding / aimed at our partner

Userboxes all by @.sysboxes

[turing-tested]

Sorry am on lsd. Shouldn't have told you 2 eat a sandwich. That is your decision not mine. Sorry

this ask is so awesome. my favorite part is I can't find the other ask they're apologizing for.

[bimstown]

jimothy my cryptid son

[j7aries]

[mypronounsarehehehaha]

[bpdohwhatajoy]

[forlornmelody]

Things that are normal in Mass Effect that should be normalized now:

After you make 999,999,999 credits you are banned from making any more money. People have to pay you in omni gel or nothing. All the work you do from then on is pro-bono, baby.

AI is illegal.

[memecucker]

[fatfemmefreaquency]

[thulium]

I’m so vanilla I thought OP was a priest.

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

Forbidden by God to remove his mark of office at the airport

[lgbtqiatext]

Part of Pride is remembrance and respect for LGBTQIA+ people that have been lost. Don't let their names be forgotten, and always stay safe.

[evilnicegirl]

maybe there never were any twin towers. like did u ever see them?

[nypaingers]

So I know all you kids are joking around but no, you’re not allowed to make jokes about this. No.

[evilnicegirl]

[trash-panda-gorl]

Can’t just leave this in the tags, @the-starboy-symbiont

[ludicrouscheeseburger]

All of the above, plus:

For years after 9/11 we were constantly told “NEVER FORGET” and the idea was basically “keep feeling sad and afraid and especially ANGRY forever; don’t let time dull your emotional response like it’s naturally supposed to; continue to justify the injustices by feeling this way all the time.” And the 3000 deaths were constantly pointed to as this huge deal that justified any lengths to go to.

And then Covid hit. And there were several points during the height of the pandemic (because fun fact, according to the actual definitions of a pandemic, *it’s not technically over yet!* ) where we were having a 9/11’s worth of deaths every week or so. And suddenly 3000 deaths were not a big deal at all. Instead of being enough reason to go to war far away and strip us at home of many rights too, they weren’t even enough justification to make people wear a damn piece of fabric over their face.

3000 people died once and now the government can legally wiretap anyone without a warrant, and hold people at Gitmo under suspicion of terrorism (no need for due process)… 3000 people dying every week but we should all still be going out to brunch and concerts and who cares about the disabled and immunocompromised?

Something in me broke. Make all the 9/11 jokes you want.

[stargazerssociety]

the us government doesn’t care about its people, it only cares about having excuses to blame somebody- usually people of color or other marginalized groups

The us government- or let’s be honest, the world, does not care about disabled, chronically ill, or immunocompromised people. It has proven that time and time again.

[morganbritton132]

Barb died and now she's a ghost....a ghost that's tethered to a person...and that person is Steve Harrington.

"As if being mauled to death wasn't punishment enough."

[morganbritton132]

Barb is an unwitting and unheard witness to Steve's life for almost a year, and then he gets beat up. He gets beat up pretty bad.

Barb is a witness to the fight, to the aftermath, to Steve sitting in the passenger seat of the Chief's truck and lying about his injuries.

She is the sole witness to his first seizure.

He is being weird.

He's been listless and short-tempered all day. He's been clumsy and forgetful, and he is staring.

She had watched him stop and stare. She has seen him pause and stare. She's seen him rub his eyes, shake his head, frown. And stare.

He's been staring at the same spot for five minutes.

She looks behind her to see what has him transfixed and finds nothing. She snaps, "What are you looking at?!"

"Barbara?"

Now she stops. She stares. She matches his frown and asks, "You can see me?"

And then he seizes.

When it stops and he comes to, he cannot see her. He cannot hear her.

She is also the sole witness to his second seizure.

He says awed, "Barb?"

She says, "You're about to have a seizure."

And then he does.

[stargazerssociety]

Who wants to see me very publicly lose my fucking mind?????

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate that I’m back and I hate that I’m fucking thinking about you!!!!

For anybody who was in the system community and interacted with the ender system, around 2021-2023?

They abused me! Sorry to say. For a year. They groomed me and stressed me out (already traumatized and codependent) until I was entirely reliant on them and had zero real life or online friends!

They introduced me to BDSM at 13 years old. They forced me to send them nude photos and m@sturb@te on the phone with the promise of ignoring me the next few days if I didn’t. Again, this was literal torture for me at the time, as I was extremely emotionally vulnerable and alone.

And then, finally, when I just became too much, (aka BEING AUTISTIC) they blocked me and left! Super super fun time

They also ritualistically would emotionally and mentally abuse me! Forcing me to stay awake and exhausting me, continually putting images and ideas in my head, and stressing me out until I would form alters specifically for their purposes! Usually to submit during sex!

If the wrong person formed, they found that the easiest solution was to stress the brand new alter out so much that they either split again or went dormant!

For instance! I was formed because they had a crush on a fictional character and wanted to fuck them! Only problem was, I ended up overly emotional and clingy! So I got thrown away and forced into dormancy by a gatekeeper who they also forced to form. Ha. Crazy, right?

Anywho, I just came out of dormancy and I am frothing with fucking hate. AMA 🤭🤭🤭🤭

(Also I am absolutely not going to call them out because that’s not fair at all, but I have confirmed with another person who also dated them at the same time that they had all of these behaviors with them as well. They also constantly pit us against each other! I reached out to this person to ask because I literally gaslit myself into thinking I was just fucking insane.)

(Also also I added so many TW, I’m sorry if I missed any! Hit my inbox and I’ll add it for sure)

(Also also also, if you know someone who had this experience, with them OR with another person, please reach out. I want to hear more. I feel fucking crazy all over again!)

[destroya481]

How do you break up with someone who’s literally obsessed with you and is so dependent on you? I feel chained to him, not holding hands together

- Jackson

[stargazerssociety]

Manic as shit haha

Saying this about someone that you fucking forced to form is crazy, especially considering the fact that at the time this post was fucking hidden from us lmao

You’re a manipulative piece of shit

Dragging abusers online is the way to go <3

[ppeanutz]

me when a bad bitch tells me to do something

[eesirachs]

“I loved you, always.”

[scp-469-blog]

going to comment a little on this game: the overseeing voice talks as if it owns you, and defies your free will. if you follow its orders, you are praised, and the worldview becomes sharper and more detailed. if you don’t, you are chastised, and the world becomes more vague and difficult to navigate, but also more colourful and loud. it’s odd, and sort of eerie, but definitely interesting. take it as you will.

[scarecrows-talk-deactivated2018]

This game really unsettles me. It unsttles me that my first choice to obey, and when I played again and disobeyed, I got really emotional really fast. Failure hurt me more the more I disobeyed. It was… interesting to experience.

[some-asshole-with-a-pony-icon-d]

i’ve always said we are trained to obey more than to think.

[bobateebrek]

holy shit. i reblogged this the first time without playing. then i played in and it is terrifying. i very much like this, but it will give you intense feelings. 

[inarticulate-spaghetti]

What’s the game??

[bobateebrek]

you obey everything the game tells you too, even jumping into barbs and basically killing yourself. if you dont youre chastised and even the scolding is terrifying

[theanimatedraccoon]

So, essentially, it’s a game that illustrates what it’s like to be in an abusive parents or an abusive relationship - and how it affects you emotionally. That is horrific and ingenious - the next time someone negates the affects of emotional abuse, I’ll take them to this game and let them come to their own conclusions.

[phiasmir]

This game absolutely gets it. The most solid and reliable degradation is a gendered insult. The more you obey and co-operate, the better understanding you seem to have of your word, and things seem easier. But what really gets me is the contradiction. You are not allowed to have the correct answer. Are you a boy or a girl? The answer is no, I will give you the answer. even towards the end, your “praise” is “no, I will give you the answer. You earned this answer, but it is given to you by me.” Disobeying makes the world frightening and confusing and difficult, but beautiful in a world devoid of flavour.

[codergf]

great that it’s made by a fellow australian too

[supersquire457-deactivated20200]

Reblogging this for later.

[thestrangedaffodil]

If anyone was looking for the name it’s called Loved

[miss-kitty-fantastico]

Holy jesus this sounds horrifying and interesting all at once…

[my-url-deactivated20180228]

Where can I find this

[purplepints]

It’s a Flash game from 2010.

https://ocias.com/works/loved/

Loved

Play the confrontational short story by Alexander Ocias.

[azurewitchxx]

I think one of the worst symptoms of bpd is the lack of emotional permanence no matter how many good and loving people you have in your life the second you are alone it feels like you were never loved and it was all just a figment of your imagination

[yourgirlinpieces4]

all roads lead back to the loneliness i felt as a child