I just want to make it through my best friend’s wedding.
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I just want to make it through my best friend’s wedding.
at this point fuck off if you can't see the double standard. we refuse to be quiet. fuck.
It’s the not knowing when it’ll stop. The unpredictability. Wondering “will this ever get any better?” It’s the people close to you just accepting that this is how you are now. It’s the 24/7 nature of it all. It’s the not having a choice. It’s the not having a break from it. It’s the people around you thinking you chose this. As if you enjoy it. As if you actually chose this life. Nobody would ever choose this. It’s the having to play symptoms down. It’s having to pretend it isn’t as bad as what it is. It’s having people judge you, even the people closest to you. It’s having to live with symptoms that most people wouldn’t know how to even begin to cope with. It’s a lack of self confidence and self purpose. It’s staying hopeful when it doesn’t seem like there’s anything to be hopeful for. It’s a lot of things.
You might not feel it, but you’re one of the strongest people EVER. You put up an invisible fight daily. You do all that you can. You often survive second to second, minute to minute, hour to hour. You get through the day. You do your best no matter what obstacles are in your way. And it’s important to remember that even on the really bad days that you’re amazing. You’re strong. You’re tough. You’re fabulous. Lots of love xxxxxx
10 January 2023
Dress: DÔEN
Bodice: El Costurero Real
Being able to dress adaptively and in a way that makes me feel happy, aesthetically, is a constant battle as a disabled person. When I'm able to achieve both at the same time, I feel at ease, like I can breathe again. 🌸
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Next appointment for chronic illness stuff is tomorrow, pretty stressed about it.
He's very nice so far, but I find most doctors are NOT happy about me being a scientist, and even less happy about how good I've become at tracking symptoms and researching them. But after over 10 years of medical gaslighting like what else was I going to do...
Still pretty sure my second chronic illness is a lupus.
Tomorrow I hope when I tell him that he actually listens😅. Wish me luck💘
big stompy doc martens paired with a wheelchair is a god tier look tbh