I'm Happy You're Here

Stuff you'll find here: my PTSDiaries and some futile attempts to chronicle and cope with all my trauma using humor and an abundance of sass, the bloodstains of my undeniably liberal heart, Merwholock gifs, drugged up late night philosophical musings and someone who will always listen or try to help or spontaneously become your friend, whatever it is you need.

[findingmyrecovery]

When you’ve lived through abuse it’s normal to come out feeling guilty about something. It makes you confront and aware of the darkest parts of you. You are not a bad person for having those things brought up. You are not alone in it. 

You are not the only person who considered killing their abuser

You are not the only person who knew their abuser was hurting someone else and still didn’t report them

You are not the only person who has testified against a family member

You are not the only person who didn’t fight back

You are not the only person who DID fight back and hurt someone

You’re not the only person who has refused to testify

You’re not the only person who has lied to a teacher/parent/therapist/doctor about what happened

You’re not the only person who has wished horrible things on your abuser

You’re not a bad person. You’re someone who has been mistreated and traumatized. You did what you could with what you knew at the time.

[justice4mikebrown]

For anyone who’s still having trouble opening the two links.

(Link 1) (Link 2)

[theblasianbarbie]

dont forget baltimore, dont forget ferguson, dont forget nyc, dont forget freddie, dont forget mike, dont forget eric, dont forget rekia, dont forget renisha, dont forget all the countless black people who have been murdered by police, dont forget any of it. black lives STILL matter, do not forget that we STILL matter.

[freeasthepaperburns]

I have to admit I get pretty upset when I hear people condemning other people for being "inauthentic" or "fake" or "showy." If you grew up in a home where being who you were was safe and accepted, you're really fucking lucky, but not everyone had that privilege. Some kids are taught from a really young age to hide who they are because who they are is worthy of and will provoke abuse. It takes a really, REALLY long time to unlearn that.

[youknowyouareasurvivorwhen]

…when you’re happy when your abuser really crosses the line, when they do something truly and obviously abusive, because the rest of the time they’re using subtle forms of a kind of abuse that so many people think isn’t even real, and you finally have some validation that they’re as terrible as you’ve always thought they are.

When you’re happy when your abuser spits vile hatred at you and storms off in a rage because you finally know you aren’t a liar.

[x-menunited]

[marxisforbros]

“There’s a cure?!” asked the girl that kills everything she touches.  “Hey shut up we’re perf” replied the girl that makes clouds. 

[theboylondon]

For real though. Storm has stopped an entire tsunami before. “Makes clouds my ass” she can conjure lightning and tornadoes and is revered as a god in her tribe. She literally changes atmospheric pressure and that’s how she flies. So fuck you. Storm is flawless.

[sun-spiral-deactivated20210109]

I think you missed the part where the GIRL WHO KILLS EVERYTHING SHE TOUCHES wants to NOT KILL EVERYTHING SHE TOUCHES and everyone dismisses her incredible misfortune just because the lady who is the AVATAR OF THE STORM won the fucking SUPERPOWER LOTTERY

[jezunya]

And here we see X-Men perfectly illustrating the disparity between the larger disability community (Storm) and the chronic illness community (Rogue). One wants society to accept & respect them & their various different needs, which is surely a noble cause, while the other would like to NOT BE IN PAIN EVERY FUCKING DAY, which is just as important but often gets shouted down by non-ill disabled people who only want to talk about disability as a social construct.

[thischroniclife]

[thischroniclife]

When I meet a new doctor...

[stagrunner]

Signal boost for GamePhobias, a wiki-style website dedicated to categorizing games based on content and trigger warnings. Users can either view content warning categories to find games that do and don’t contain the triggering content, or search for specific games to see exactly what content warnings are attached to that title (as well as brief, almost exclusively non-graphic descriptions as to specific scenes/levels containing that content).

It’s a very, very new wiki (IIRC it launched late August) and so its offerings are very paltry right now, and I would seriously encourage anyone with experience with games, wikis, and/or both to contribute however they can.

[eirstegalkin-deactivated2015011]

I’m writing up a review for FFXIV right now, and I seriously encourage anyone who can do this to help out!! This is SUPER helpful to people with triggers and I’m going to use it in the future.

Don’t ignore this, I know gamer culture doesn’t care about mentally ill people but you guys should try to be better than that.

[geekoz87]

YouTube closed captions. I’m dying.

[freeasthepaperburns]

Bitch don't even try to hide your soup from Ant Man

[midnightjellys]

starting a girl gang of girls aggressively supporting other girls so reblog if you want in because if we get enough people we’re getting jackets

[pixielight-dee-foxfire]

oh just so everyone knows: if you’re like me and you get anxiety whenever you see someone vagueblogging because you think it’s about you even though you never did anything remotely similar to what’s being talked about, it is always okay to pop into my askbox and ask if i’m talking about you, and i’ll say “no” and i won’t be annoyed or anything no matter how often this happens.

[teesadutta]

4.8.15

[thatwetshirt]

same

[kingforaking]

I’m doing a social experiment called ‘agreeing with boys when they compliment you’. 

the results: 

[fuckyeahbodypositivity]

perf example of how uncomfortable boys are with women owning their own awesomeness. for many men, beauty, coolness, desirability are gifts they alone can bestow upon women. they get baffled, even aggressive when you show you’ve known you possess those things all along. 

[officialjeffgoldblum]

i love this experiment! 

[daggers-drawn]

[ideal-men]

Date a boy with black hair. Date a boy who wears scarves. Date a boy who left his small town life to be in the big city. Date a boy from a land of myth and a time of magic. Date a boy who has the destiny of a great kingdom resting on his shoulders. Date a boy whose name is Merlin.

[oddstorykeepertime-deactivated2]

Yeah take notes, boys

[chromeofficial]

boy: I love you.

me: uhh…

[freeasthepaperburns]

Do I actually have anons in my inbox right now telling me I'm unamerican for using the word "grande" when I order my coffee and asking me to become an expat? I'm not even mad. This is just really genuinely hilarious holy shit you guys