Part one if my Aromantic Aplatonic Allosexual short story short story LET ME KNOW WHAT U think 💚
⚠️this story has sexual themes it’s not the whole plot and not in this section there is a bluild up for it)
I don’t want a man or anybody I need a warm body to hold. I don't want any kind of love.
I don't even love my friends, it's not like I hate them. I don't love very often. That doesn't mean the people I love are any special. The main person I love is not “the one” whatever that means. If they were, it would be incest. The only person I truly love constantly is my sister. This is not to
say I don't care about humanity or the people in my life I just don't love them. I don't feel anything
in my heart for them. Not my parents, not my friends, not the guys that ask me out because I'm pretty. I hate it when anyone says they love me because I can't love them back no matter how badly I want to. The guilt and disgust I feel when I hear the word love aimed at me like a missile that could kill a hundred men or more.
My life is pretty okay right now. I'm in the first month of my semester of college and three boys have asked me out and two have asked me to parties. I like to think they asked me out because of my smart and witty comments in class but in reality, it's because of my face and boobs. I hate college boys. Well most of them are pretty alright he is in my biology 101 a I first noticed him when I accidentally saw his test score on a pop quiz. I just happened to be looking that way. I was daydreaming about my sci-fi fantasy world I've been thinking about since I was 5. The main thing that pushed me to try so hard to learn to read was the world. I needed to write it down and publish it one day. Maybe some other bullied kids would find as much comfort in that world as me. Anyway, he was one of three people who didn't get a D or below on that test and this girl I didn't know was the only one who got a decent grade. The third person who got a decent grade was me. I know this because everyone else grew or looked very sad or angry. The girl was so excited that she passed she let out a tiny shriek. He got an A+ I got an A.
“Congratulations on your grade, that was a difficult quiz,” was the first thing I ever said to him.
“Thanks, hopefully you didn't do too badly.” I chuckled. I still don't know why I did that.
“I got an A. I figured I would get a B or C,” I said I was surprised I told him that last part.
“Why would you suspect a C you always make amazing comments in class. Sometimes it seems you know more than our professor.”
“You notice what I say in class? I thought no one paid attention to the professor much less me." Wait, I didn't mean to say that out loud.
“Sometimes your comments in class teach me more than Professor Browns,” he chuckled after he said that. His chuckles are like music. I don't love him. Don't get this twisted, this is not a love story. And this is definitely not one of those love stories that says that it's not a love story at the beginning of the movie but by the end, they are in love. There was a short pause then he spoke again.
“I forgot to tell you my name, I'm Bayley but my friends call me Bark. I have a feeling we will be friends,” after he said that he grabbed my purple pen and started writing something a the straw rapper from his pesi. “Here is my number. I need more smart friends,” he said smiling, and handed me his straw rapper.
“My name is Sophia but I hate my name so call me whatever you like,” I responded. I hope he can't tell I'm awkward.
“Well I'd better get to my next class bye So-” he stopped himself from saying Sophia and just waved and smiled. Surprisingly, he stopped himself from saying, Sophia.
I kinda hope I see Bayely again. Something about him
seems different from the other guys who gave me their numbers. I think I might actually message him. I hear a ringing sound from my phone. It's a phone call from my sister.
“Hey Sophia, how are you? We haven't talked on the phone in so long. I apologize that I've been busy with school.” I could not help but smile it makes me happy when my sister calls me. She is the only one whom I actually don't mind calling me Sophia.
“Hey Emma, I'm doing pretty well. Speaking of school, another guy gave me his number.”
“Wow, isn't that like the 5th guy or something? Do you think you are gonna go out with him? Is he hot?”
“He is the first guy to give me his number and not ask me out I think he wants to be friends or something. He said he needs more smart friends. It's weird that a guy wants to be my friend and doesn't see me as just a hot body.”
“So Sophia, do you think you are going to text him?”
“Yeah, probably he has a rare combination of brains and being attractive. He actually made me chuckle I don't know how he did that.”
“Does someone have a crush?” She said that in a sing-song voice, she is clearly in her romance-obsessed high school phase.
“No but if he asked to fuck I might say yes.” I probably shouldn't have said that. It's okay Emma is a senior in high school. She lost her virginity last summer to her now ex-girlfriend.
“College must be wild.”
“It's really not especially compared to high school which is probably for the best.”
“I have to go, Sophia, I still have some homework.”
“Okay, Emma, if you need any help with your homework call me back cause I'm kinda a huge nerd.”
“Okay bye I love you sister”
“Love you too Emma” I mean it's true I love my sister and myself are the only ones I really love in this world.
I begin to type out “hi this is Sophia”. Remembering when Bayley was about to call me Sophia but stopped himself I really liked it when he did that. I press send hoping he doesn't ask me out. A few minutes later I hear a ding from my phone. It's Bayley. “Hey this is Bayley. How are you?”
“I am okay, just bored. I finished my homework ages ago. How are you, Bayley?”
“This is a weird question but can I call you?” Bayley texted
I didn't text him back, instead, he called me himself.
“Hey Bayley, why did you want to call me?”
“I just want to be closer to you.” Oh fuck he wants me doesn't he?
“I'm sorry Bayley, I don't want to go out with you.”
“I don't want that either I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that I just really need someone to talk to it's getting boring. I hate being alone and I am not on good terms with my family. Oh shit, I didn't mean to say the family stuff out loud. I literally just met you. I am just really awkward.”
“It's okay Bayley. I need people to talk to as well as my friends from high school were shit I only have my sister and she is 2 years younger than me.”
“How old are you So-” he stopped himself from saying Sophia he remembers I don't like that name how sweet. I still don't love him.
“I'm 19. I turn 20 soon. How about you?”
“I'm 20 I turn 21 in October. I don't know what I'm going to do and who I'm going to hang out with. All I know is I don't want to spend my birthday by myself. When is your birthday, So??!”
“Doesn't matter. What day is your birthday, Bayley?”
“It's October 20th. And of course it matters when your birthday is!”
“It really does not, trust me.” said looking up how many days till then on Google. It's 21 days till then. Whoa, I can't believe it's September 30th already.
“Do you want to hang out this weekend? There is an orchard right by my house where we can go.” I asked hopefully he says yes. I really need something to do.
“Yeah, that sounds fun. I mean how could it not you are witty and pretty.” I laughed loudly when he said that.
“Shit, it's already 7:30. I need to eat dinner.” I feel a little sad to end our phone call.
“Alright bye so,” he said it just like he was saying someone's name. I think I like So better than Sophia.
