ShiningMyLight

Since 2012. Mostly Original Written Self Expression with Expressionist Vibes. Nothereforlikes. 🦉🌟 🎱🎱🎱🧿

[lovingmylight]

MyLight Revelations

(The biggest flaw)

Those who are placing you in their microscope, hoping to find any flaw in everything about you to satisfy or justify their ego, are also actively and openly revealing the biggest flaw in themselves.

How?

By spending massive amounts of their lives in avoidant mode (even in their sleep sometimes), never turning that very same microscope in on themselves toward the painstaking process of self-discovery.

Why?

It's universally the easiest thing to do and the most commonly chosen behavior ... to look upon others and treat them with contempt, indifference, etc.

It may be as simple as the process being too painful, uncomfortable, exhausting, embarrassing, or humiliating to bear ... that they would not know how to tolerate being in their own mind and in their own skin.

That process is like when a ray of sunlight is shone through a magnifying glass causing objects (in this case, their perception of themselves and their ego) to burn away instantly ... which is usually perceived as something to avoid altogether as the effects may be traumatic, especially to a poorly equipped, unstudied, uncultured, unenlightened frame of mind.

C.

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Energy Vampires and the Reflection of a Forgotten Self

(triggering visual and descriptive language)

Close your eyes. Imagine giving your all to anything or anyone. Keep giving ... until you disappear.

You're a ghost now.

Except you are alive. No joy, no other purpose. No other thing left.

Regret sets in ... for the act of forsaking yourself. Looking back at your former, more vibrant self.

Your ghost haunts only you, while everything or everyone you once gave your all to are still receiving from others taking your spot.

Don't worry, you'll soon be in their company too!

Haunting yourselves and each other with regrets.

For giving too many f#$% about all else which only sought you out only when they needed ... and discarding the memory of you after they had their fix.

Open your eyes. But also open your mind and see yourself in that mirror.

Which side of the mirror do you think you're on?

Or ...

Have you instead been the energy vampire all this time?

C.

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Voices Carried Across Timelines

By the time we exit the first ten minutes of a conversation ...

I would have already fallen apart and recovered so many times and in so many ways; a constant arrangement orchestrated in both the micro and macro cosmic scale.

The 'inner work' opens connections to past, present and future timelines

C.

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If You'll Just Allow Yourself To Be Momentarily Mindf@#$%!

(your reality versus truth: triggering content)

These are the times in which I wonder and ponder:

For all the light I become in all-encompassing experiences, it isn't lost on me ... how the irreverent darkness also sees itself in that process.

C.

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My One Phoenix Versus All Their Flying Monkeys

(visually triggering / metaphorical context)

Your problems don't last forever on their own, right?

Those usually get a boost whenever you allow others; the opps and their flying monkeys to convince you that whatever they say it's the way it is and that it will never change.

And if you continue to allow others including neighbors, family, friends, and coworkers, (the flying monkeys can be anyone) to reinforce any belief that's contrary to your own by insulting your intelligence, it can become so real that it will drag you down into the dirt and leave you conflicted and afflicted without so much as a contrite apology for the presumptive egocentric manner in which it was enforced. So prepare now to deal with its consequence.

Stay there for a while, in isolation where it's just you against you ... for there may just be some valuable lessons to learn from down in that dirt! Get familiar with it -- Learn its ways ... until you can taste nothing but dirt, until you can no longer recall the taste of anything else from memory!

Burn in righteous trial-by-fire.

And rise from the former false belief, leave that in the dirt and hot ash to disintegrate.

I proactively set out to learn to trust myself and my natural born abilities. Embracing the pain, strife, loss, and every manifestation originating from a lower vibratory state just as much as I embrace all the good and great things; all in equally balanced measure. Treating the former not exclusively as adversity to fight against, but also as tools, stepping stones and much more. Treating the latter as a well calibrated compass as I'm continually being guided along the way. All this confirms the purposeful detonating of literal truth bombs which I subsequently use to shape and mould my lifepath. Feeling the fire within and allowing it to burn through and consume what I instinctively know I cannot take with me to the next evolution.

My phoenix arises from the ashes of its former self standing on its talons, ready to shred the flying monkeys and their egos to pieces. It has been so in the past and it will be so into the infinite.

And so it is.

C.

[lovingmylight]

Expressionist Vibe

This isn't the breakthrough you're looking for. Breakthroughs are often violent acts at play and I'm not promoting violence this day. This isn't the poem you expect. Expectations aren't my concern and usually lead to a crash and burn. This is not a haiku ... enjoy nonetheless its expression of the potential in you:

The unmadness

Is like a nice gentle breeze

And if you sit in it long enough

You become

Just become

Ending up in stark contrast to what you were just moments before that

As for its opposite ...

I allow that breeze to do its job, despite the army of madness attempting to block and deflect it.

Until I myself became the breeze which some take in with open serenity while others take in with hidden hostility.

C.

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Trust the process

I'll not quickly project what I'm slowly consuming, ingesting, digesting ... because I'm trusting this process at its own pace, in its own time. By taking in any information or material as prompted by circumstance alone, I'm most definitely contributing to the process.

Being patient until this is done, highlights its importance and is key to proceeding in certain growth.

Yes, there are momentary bouts of angst and anxiety. That's very human. What isn't readily acceptable in 'modern' society is being something more than human while still in this form ... and this is all too often dismissed. So be it.

Be patient or patiently be.

C.

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Painfully / Insanefully

I may be wrong, but I don't think they'd go all in on causing so much pain and strife against some of us ... If they were to engross themselves in the knowledge that this was being righteously and masterfully alchemized and used as a means to strengthen our resolve.

Unless ... their mentality is so extremely dense and damaged that they will keep at it; thinking matters will ever change even when there's evidence of it always blowing back at them.

What's the standard definition of insanity in any culture? I wonder.

C.

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After your alter ego and I met ... it instinctively made a mad dash out of your orbit and is now desperately searching for an alter ego of its own.

They thought they could, but didn't stop to think if they should.

C.

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Being faithful to my calling, honoring it and all that it continues to reveal to me. This in itself is an answer to the prayers my ancestors clamored for ... so fervently!

I recognize and reaffirm.

C.

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Your fire will not burn me.

Even as you attempt your worst ... Only because it is meant to burn you into a righteous existence instead!

Your coldness will not cause me to shiver.

Even when you are distant and despondent ... Only because it is meant to freeze the core of your being as you feel the effect of your own unjustified, vindictive desire instead!

Go in peace. Abandon your want and need for what will never be controlled, nor give you any true fulfillment ... Or be tormented by the ghost of your own breath upon an under-served, underperformed life!

C.

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Knowing When You're In The Drone Zone

Articulate your responses, don't be a drone who only regurgitates what someone else says.

C.

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As long as they continue to copy, clone and attempt to assimilate what they see and believe that to be a way into the collective psyche without the benefit of original and free critical thinking skills ... They'll continue missing the point.

It's like trying to hit a target while blindfolded.

C.

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Yes, I have considered that I may be the villain in their story as I rise to be my own hero.

When you come face to face with yourself and take ownership of your decisions, your spirit will stop seeking and attracting validation from others. You will then gain strength and wisdom in your true calling to keep your own counsel as others continue to ignore the responsibility to do the inner work.

C.

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Sometimes, we create our own hell simply because of a feeling .... an attachment to familiarity.

Sometimes, we overcome our own hell, elevating from our baser instincts to reach evolved states.

Sometimes, that same feeling of familiarity is experienced in different ways, with seemingly unfamiliar faces and places.

And

Sometimes, once we shed our former layers ...

Our alignment to renewed purpose, unattached to familiar outcomes, is a way through what could not have been achieved with our former selves still clinging to familiar pain and suffering.

For such is the very human need to evolve.

C.

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Not minding your business will one day become such a huge demon in your life, that you won't know how to peacefully lay your head down at night. Unless and until you come face to face with that ... You won't understand why and how some people keep to themselves for most matters.

C.

[lovingmylight]

There are clinical definitions and confidential treatment options for people in every sector of society who continue to blame and punish everyone else for their own choices as they go on resisting any shred of accountability over fears of simply going within themselves.

There is qualified help out there. If this is you, by all means reserve a little bit of time away from your doomscrolling and search for help with counseling, crisis intervention, etc.

Be well.

C.

No offense intended