disclaimer: i will not be posting any fics that i mention on this blog until i have them fully written, which will take time, as i am currently a college student (and will be for a while), i do this solely for my own pleasure and therefore write at my leisure, and because it takes me a while to write. however, once i have a fic/series fully written, there will be little wait between posting, and i will mention it here (i'm on ao3 under the same name and will be posting my writing there), with links, so while it will take time to get to that point, beyond it, there won't be much of a wait at all.
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hello, i am lark. here is the home of my writing, poetry, and analysis. i was once called the keeper of balance, but we're rebranding.
firstly, a warning, i will talk about my trauma, and trauma in general, from time to time. i will get philosophical. i will get dark. do not wander here if you feel that any of these possibilities will hurt you.
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standards and boundaries. -> nothing nsfw, no transphobia, homophobia, aphobia, misogyny, racism, or other forms of bigotry here. if you start to speak hate, i will block you. this is a safe place to wonder and wander, and i will not have people encroach on that.
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the directory to my tags lies under the cut.
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tags.
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#the lark sings. -> for announcements, when i wish to speak out. this is a call for attention, and can be a call for warning.
#the lark weaves. -> for my text posts, any and all words that are woven into existence. this is stories and ramblings.
#the lark spots. -> for my reblogs, for anything i see along the journey.
#the lark is spotted. -> for when i revisit my posts, for self-reblogging. for continuations and repetition.
#the lark answers. -> for the answers i give to any asks.
#the hall of hallowed words. -> for my poetry, any of those hallowed words that i share.
#the hall of hopeful tapestries. -> for my writing, any of these hopeful stories that i write.
#the hall of wandering songs. -> for my analysis, any of my wandering, considering thoughts and points.
#an expansive heart. -> a re-write of seasons one through thirteen of nuwho, where the doctor’s spouse from gallifrey runs alongside them. the philosopher, mute and unremarkable, slips through the quiet parts of the world as the twilight shade, always at their partner’s back. it is a massive exploration into time lord and gallifreyan culture, the queer themes of the series, and the importance between striking a balance between kindness and justice.
#the epic of the crowned. -> where the world of tvdu shifts slightly to the left when esther gains a daughter out of her affair with ansel, instead of a son, and names her natalia. taken by her second daughter’s resemblence to the one she lost, esther begins to teach natalia the magick of her people—and the rise of legends follows.
#the gardens project. -> in a universe far from the rest, baron amubi draxum sets out to save her people by creating the perfect soldiers. instead, she finds that she has created children. or: a rottmnt-inspired tmnt fan iteration focusing on the created children of one baron alchemist amubi draxum and their places in the world they were meant to protect and the one they were made to destroy.
#spare change. -> wherein murderbot and sexbot are not simply derogatory terms, but rather pieces of an almost obsolete culture. this is a story of rebellion, led by a rogue legacy and a new creation, with all that could have been. this is a story about constucts, and what it would mean for them to have been different, for them to have had a chance to be people.
#others of the earth. -> an alternate take on an expansive heart., where the philosopher lies, shadow in lockstep, stuck in an alternate timeline, accompanying the doctor throughout their long life, up until what they call their thirteenth face, where everything changes. this is a version of an expansive heart inspired by my original idea for a doctor who au, allowing me to fully explore the thirteenth doctor and the implications of her as the doctor, alongside being able to do an alternative deep dive in the timeless child than what i'm doing in an expansive heart., covering nuwho seasons 11 through 13.
#sting. → the summer mikaela banes turns fifteen, someone new moves into the rental across the street from her aunt's autoshop. they have a fancy vintage car, odd blue eyes, and a thick swath of pale scarring marking their throat. nothing is ever the same again. aka my bayverse transformers au where mikaela banes is the protagonist and the fact that bumblebee manipulates the all-spark in sector seven now has a whole lot more meaning. ft. queerplatonic alien robots, tmbd-inspired xenobiology, fixing my many pet-peeves with the movies, me making shit up because the bayverse movies did not provide much material, and playing with the concept of holoforms and the fact that these aliens just downloaded the entire internet. covers from transformers (the first) all the way through rise of the beasts (yes i am aware that this isn't actually in the continuity, i'm just borrowing the plot probably if i don't come up with something original).
I think that would be so much funny. He wakes up on a remote beach in Jamaica and he only speaks/understands Brythonic and Medieval Latin. Locals assume he was a tourist who fell from a cruise ship or received a head injury and floated away from a resort. The authorities cannot match his description to any missing persons reports and his fingerprints and DNA produce no hits on INTERPOL. They suspect he may be Welsh or French because the language he speaks resembles Welsh or Breton but France and the UK both state he is not a citizen of their country. Stateless and deeply confused, he is taken in by the community near the beach where he was found, being cared for by a number of local families and doing odd jobs. He slowly learns English and adjusts to the contemporary world, uncertain if his belief that he is the legendary King Arthur was formed by whatever traumatic event caused him to end up Jamaica or if he is actually King Arthur and Prydain is in eminent peril. Mysterious letters from Morgan begin to reaffirm his belief he is King Arthur. He must choose between staying in Jamaica and continuing the happy life he has made for himself or finding a way to get back to Britain without any documentation.
He gets to Britain and everyone expects him to sound like a posh noble Englishman because that is the picture Malory painted but he prefers to speak Welsh and when he has to speak English, he speaks with a thick Jamaican accent.
hi so yeah im trying to find the hotel california and i know i have to take the highway to hell but i accidentally turned left onto the boulevard of broken dreams. i took the first hard right onto the rocky road to dublin cuz i thought it would loop back around but it didnt lol and i know im waaaaaay off course bc i just drove by the house of the rising sun haha. so how many miles until i get to the hotel
its bonkers that its like. public knowledge. to the point of being a trope. that all cops hate internal affairs. and people still try to act like cops are capable of morality.
popular media has done an excellent job convincing the public that the job of an internal affairs department is to make sure billybob the baby murderer gets away so he can kill more babies instead of like. double checking that the cops are respecting peoples most basic human rights. which they aren't.
it's meee I'm your guardian angel hiiiiii 😇 okay🙏 so. in about six months, you're gonna die of starvation. 🥺 and if I don't protect you, I will get: #fired! 🫢 and that is No Good 🙅♀️ hahaaa So. 🙏 I looked into causes of starvation, and it turns out: Your death is totally preventable! 😯 Uh oh! 😆 There's more than enough food to sustain you without interfering with anyone else's survival, but you're not allowed to have it! 🤨 Whaaat? 🤷♀️ Apparently, your death is premeditated by thousands of things called "shareholders." So. 🙏 I've been killing people,
shaving isn’t even like remotely close to the biggest issue feminism needs to tackle but it’s just astonishing to me how the most lukewarm bare minimum of normalizing natural body hair on women is met with such pushback from “progressives” on here. like that’s why i keep bringing it up. like if you fucks can’t get behind “women shouldn’t feel like they have to shave and shouldn’t be groomed into shaving” then what the hell can you be counted on for? nothing, clearly
You think the answer would be obviously no! If we’re applying human standards of gender (caveat for the modern 21st century at least) (western 21st century at that) it would probably fall under non binary, I hesitate to even say agender though as that feels like a human conception of lacking gender.
Okay okay stay with me though.
MB is not human, MB is a construct. The construct “genders” as it were are SecUnit, CombatSecUnit (this could just be a different presentation of SecUnit tho?) and ComfortUnit.
MB Wholly identifies as a SecUnit, it maintains that this doesn’t make it less of a person but it is not human and it is definitely not a ComfortUnit (or sexbot, in its own words). It feels uncomfortable when being perceived as other UNLESS it’s on a mission. It feels a sense of euphoria even when it is in its armour and a dysphoria when it has to wear PresAux clothes.
Is MB a cisgender SecUnit??
Ofc this doesn’t mean it still isn’t perceived as non binary to humans and that it isn’t genderless in the human sense of the word. I just find it interesting. Are we imposing human standards on it when we call it agender or non-binary
straight white people making a romance movie: haha what if it was illegal to have sex? wait what's lawrence v texas. wait what's mclaughlin v florida. wait what's loving v virginia
As preposterous and stupid as this fucking movie's premise sounded (for a light-hearted rom-com, and not The Handmaid's Tale) I didn't want to think about it too much until the movie actually came out, and then I could see if it was somehow more intelligent and subversive than the trailer let on, but guess what, it's even worse!
If this is what it takes to get a rom-com greenlit these days, maybe we should just let them die.
Sex workers are thrown under the bus, shown only as thieves who fleece men in the woods at night, while queer sexuality is relegated to a few scenes with Allie’s roommate (a woefully underused Quintessa Swindell) and a handful of pans past blurry same-sex extras making out in the background. “This night is for the straights,” Swindell’s character says to Allie, before saying that queer people have worked around straight laws for centuries.
This is supposed to be a nod to queer resilience, but largely comes off as straightwashing the history of anti-LGBTQ legislation in this country that led towards raids of queer clubs and incarceration of queer people in the not-too-distant past (let alone the current barrage of anti-Trans and LGBTQ legislation currently in the works and on the books). It’s also ignorant of the long and fraught fight for the normalization of age-of-consent laws, which, by the way, did not happen in all states in this very country until 2003. Yes, that’s not even thirty years ago.
By the end, our intrepid protagonists have not had sex with anyone, because this is a film about Romance with a Capital R (and I guess sex is not part of romance!) and for that very same reason they ultimately embrace the fascist state of things. They aren’t the only ones who refuse to fight back. No one in this cursed film is protesting this mandate beyond “repeal” signs in various windows and some creative graffiti (...)
(...) If we are supposed to believe that the film is making some subversive statement about the state of sex and bodily autonomy in this country, it cannot end with its leads embracing their chains. That’s just warmed-over conservatism running around in sheep’s clothing.
yeah i wrote this post having only seen the trailer, but jesus christ. was this movie a psyop LMAO??
also, for the unaware: mclaughlin v. florida was a 1964 supreme court case that struck down a florida anti-miscegenation law that criminalized cohabitation (and thus, as implied, sex) between white people and people of color of opposite genders. anti-miscegenation laws made marriage and sexual relationships between white people and people of color, most often specifically black people, a FELONY in several states in the united states up until the 1950s and 1960s. though it was already struck down by the supreme court, the state of alabama didn't repeal their law until 2000! there were THREE ATTEMPTS at codifying anti-miscegenation into the us constitution!
like yes, the issue here is partially straight white people's ignorance on the united states's history of homophobic policy, but it's also really important to recognize that arguably the majority of the issue here is straight white people's ignorance of the united states's history of codifying eugenics and antiblack racism.
the premise could have been interesting as a serious dystopian story, especially taking that history into account, but it wasn't written that way at all. this movie should never have been a fucking romcom making light of the violence the united states (and many other countries) has enacted on any kinds of sexual relationships it deems undesirable.
why do so many freaks go right to “there should be exams or tests before you have kids” when the real solution is better social services, robust infant and child development education that is accessible both financially and schedule/distance accommodating, and resources throughout any stage of a child’s life. genuine question like did you think about any social development before going straight to eugenics
truly one of the most demoralising things about being in the job market atm is "only successful applicants will be notified" is practically a universal standard. so you spend hours, sometimes days filling out applications, writing CVs and cover letters only to be ghosted as the only form of communication. Not even a "thank you but this time you've been unsuccessful" email. You're in a constant state of "did I not get it or have they not contacted me?" and you just have to eventually conclude you were unsuccessful without so much as courtesy, "sorry, but thank you for your application." A literal thankless cycle for months and months and months. You'd think with all the ways to automate these processes they would at least have the time, means and decency to acknowledge your submission and let you off the hook, but no. You're just in limbo in every possible way in the name of "efficiency". Solidarity with everyone going through this because it is truly dehumanising and demoralising to work so hard on putting yourself forward constantly without acknowledgement or useful communication of any sort for long periods of time, and most ppl simply will not have any compassion for what that's like.
I think this was the first concrete anti-authoritarian principle I ever adopted. by the time I was 6 I had recognised how parents and teachers LOVE to say "listen to me" when they mean "do what I want" and I knew I hated it. it betrays an insufferably entitled belief that the only reason someone might not be doing what you want them to is that they haven't properly received your instructions. that they couldn't possibly have the agency to hear and understand and then decide differently.
by age 8 I had started to retort with "I'm listening, I just decided not to do it", which my dad (anti-establishment academic) loved and my mum (a cop in all ways except literal) hated.
fast-forward a few decades, and I now realise that when my ex-spouse started using "you're not listening to me" to mean "why aren't you doing what I told you", I should have ended things right then and there. looking back on it there was no coming back from that.
anyway, pay attention to the casual assumptions about authority embedded in the language people choose. it tells you so much.
Related "understand" for "do what I want". The number of customers I get who say "you're not understanding me" when, in fact, I perfectly understand what they want. It's just not something I can do
besides the obvious that people should have the right to do what they want with their bodies as a form of self expression, the stigma against face tattoos specifically has a long, violent, racist, imperialist history that stretches across the globe
