Starling's Grimoire✨

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[lenastarling]

✦Starling's Author's Note✦

Welcome to All who are Good ,

I am Lena Starling , Your Alt Pop Monarch .

I grew up on the border between the USA's Midwest and South .

I'm 20 and attending college .

I believe art can change the world .

In my experience, Life imitates Art that imitates Life .

A Dreamer who dreams that everyone can have their own dream (within reason) as there is more than enough money in the world for it .

Some say it's impossible but that's why I've been blessed with 80 more years to prove them wrong — My great grandfather lived to be 99, after all .

Until the Sky Falls ,

Lena Starling ✦

✦ Table of Contents ✦

[lenastarling]

(my) DR!VE Announcement

https://youtu.be/9H4WSMIBYGs?si=2kTGmmTnP5AESGiI

My first non-life or death {but indeed Do or Die} release!

PreSave N✦w

https://share.amuse.io/8nnL3FdreAe8

Amuse

Create smart music links that anyone can listen to!

[lenastarling]

@ Mike Wheeler

Don't go chasing Waterfalls

Stick to the Rivers and the Lakes that you're used to

♪

[lenastarling]

⚠️ Vague ST S5 Spoiler Warning ⚠️

⚠️ Errrm ☝️🤓 Buzzkill Warning ⚠️

In Reality☝️🤓

El was obliterated and the entire cast besides Erika and the Mr. Clark were shot one by one .

Our Group Fight Back ,

but the Gov got 'em .

They Dead .

𓏒

Erika is the one telling the tale .

" Can't spell America without Erika . "

The End

♪ BUM⬆️⬅️ BUM➡️⬆️ ♪

[lenastarling]

✦My muscles might be deteriorating✦

I'm not sure but my bones are slowly becoming easier and easier to dislocating .

Few years ago it was my knee .

Now it's my back / ribcage .

It's a little scary .

I just hope that if it ends me , it happens w/o pain ✦

[lenastarling]

✦ Good News + Bad News ✦

𓏒 Good News !

I think my cavities aren't so bad that I need to get fillings ( That's Music Money ♪ That's Freedom Money ) 😁

𓏒 Bad News ¡

I think I'll need to get my wisdom teeth removed 😑

I don't like doctors 😐

My doctors tend to be weird :/

[lenastarling]

Ned Fulmer — ✦

Help me understand .

Ned Fulmer's story .

Is that he's had a loving woman with him for so so long .

And never had empathy . . .

And didn't fix that . . .

He never thought , "I should love her back" . . .

Had kids . . .

Never thought , "I should love her back" . . .

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NAAAAAAH 🤪

I Gotta Be Wr🤪ng

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Anywhosumz , Stream my Music ♪ , and I'll be able to afford to advocate w/ money 🤟🥰

[lenastarling]

Shame ?

For finding an actor attractive ?

When they are casted . . .

To be attractive — ?

I'M AN ACTOR !

This is fine . . ✦

I'm okay . . ✦

— But what if I say something weird — ?

— Cause All I'm thinking is :

" Wow , he's fine "

" Wow , he's fine "

" Wow , he's fine "

And I'm . Just . STARING .

And I'm frozen in complete blubber

— Cause I've never been in this situation before

— "You're overthinking it Lena —"

YOU HAVEN'T LIVED MY LIFE — Strawman

ShutTheFuckUp — Strawman

— My point is

. . . What's my point . . . ?

My point is that , Sam Reid ( As Lestat ! ) is f i n e and I hope if he ever sees this he forgets about seeing it before I meet him 😬👍👍

And I'm glad he's actually nothing like that man in public because 1. Lestat is ... No spoilers but you know how he is 😮‍💨 2. I just wanna talk to actors about acting for once because NO ACTORS WANNA TALK ABOUT ACTING FOR SOME REASON !!!

𓏒 Why can't I ask 'em about how they decided the nuisances for their character ?

𓏒 Why can't I ask if you auditioned for a different role initially ?

𓏒 Why ?

𓏒 You scared 😤 ?

I'll grill ya with st🤩rs in my eyes all I like , Acting B i o t c h !

Interview on and off set !

Interview With The Vampire ? No ! Interview With Lena Starling (Cringe😏) !

Consider it practice , Playa !

{because actors/characters are sometimes called players 😜}

I ask better questions than interviews anyways 😤

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Write a book w/ my questions !

People want it !

They DOOOOOOOO

I SWEEEEEARRRR

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i haven't slept since yesterday 🙂‍↕️

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[lenastarling]

Smoochie ♪

Go Smoochie Girl ♪

𓏒 ||:||

[lenastarling]

Fall Fest '25

Went to the Fall Festival 10.08.25

It wished for an okay day and it was good . That means it was great 😁

[lenastarling]

Now I Dream Of You Daily

Got Me Looking So Crazy

Right Now

You Told Me Maybe

Baby Maybe

- You're Not Going Anywhere .

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

[lenastarling]

Christ on a stick .

I wish my heart wasn't hooked .

I wish no more songs would be of him .

Cause he's just a symbol to me .

I haven't seen him in almost 2 years .

When an upcoming chapter is a net positive , I know this plotline will close .

A forgotten memory .

Cause I'll know what a good life is and what I believe good to be .

[luna-azzurra]

On Writing obsession

𒁍 everything comes back to them, conversations, plans, stray thoughts.

𒁍 collecting details like treasure: their handwriting, their laugh, their favorite pen.

𒁍 rearranging your life just to orbit closer.

𒁍 rehearsing conversations that may never happen.

𒁍 jealousy so sharp it feels like being stabbed.

𒁍 the high of being noticed by them, no matter how small.

𒁍 defending them instantly, even when it doesn’t make sense.

𒁍 mistaking obsession for destiny.

𒁍 neglecting other things (sleep, food, friends) because your focus is consumed.

𒁍 scrolling endlessly for traces of them, their shadow online.

𒁍 staring too long, memorizing without realizing.

𒁍 everything reminds you of them, songs, colors, places.

𒁍 the panic when they drift away, like suffocating.

𒁍 obsession twisting into possession: wanting to keep them, own them, never share them.

𒁍 the crash after, emptiness that feels louder than any noise.

𒁍 obsession is love’s distorted mirror, the reflection warped, but familiar.

[lenastarling]

Example

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I don't think you understand What's going on here I don't think you understand You're Not Going Anywhere . I don't think you understand I don't think you understand I don't think you understand You're Not Going Anywhere . When it was new I'd be happy for you Now I heard the news You're Not Going Anywhere . You said - Wait You should know your place You are my soulmate (You can't challenge fate) You're Not Going Anywhere . Now I dream of you daily daily Got me looking so crazy right now You told me maybe Baby Maybe I don't think you understand What's going on here You're Not Going Anywhere . You're Not Going Anywhere . I really don't care You're Not Going Anywhere . I promise I swear You're Not Going Anywhere . Call me callous Call me cruel You're Not Going Anywhere .

♪

I don't think you understand You're Not Going Anywhere . I don't think you understand You're Not Going Anywhere . Everywhere you go Everything you do Everyone you see You're Not Going Anywhere .

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[lgbtqiatext]

[lenastarling]

Open Up

🚪

Oh.

🚨

[lenastarling]

On To The Next

Same As Yesterday

All That I Have To Say :

Okay

Okay

- EVERYDAY ! ! !

[lenastarling]

Nightmare From Moments Ago

! TW Familial Abuse !

Granny was in my nightmare moments ago

She was a control freak

"Are you done eating?"

Is all she said over and over again

While following me throughout the house

No one was helping me

I was scared she was gonna hit me

Like usual

[lenastarling]

GUYS I'M FAMOUS !!!