Alex blog

Welcome to my new blog. Alex is my social name, I'm azurgirl + agender and aroace with kinks. my pronouns She/her she/shim

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Hi I'm isabela, I'm an ex-system and ex-radquer. My mogai blog was previously known as belinhagamer999, I'm against self-diagnosis (self-suspecting is ok), and I believe in CDD systems. I have imaginary friends and psychosis. I'm spiritual, not religious, I study spirituality and talk to spirits.

If you want to talk with me message me on Tumblr because I'm having trouble accessing my discord!

[miki-kit]

[alexidentitiescoiningblog]

did anyone do the neuropsychologic test?

[maplequinn]

WE WIN TONIGHT!!

[alexidentitiescoiningblog]

Conditions not in the dsm5

Here’s a list of neurodivergencies and related symptoms not formally recognized in the DSM-5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fifth Edition):

Atypical Highly Sensitive Disposition (AHSD)

Extreme sensitivity to sensory stimuli (e.g., light, sound, touch, taste, smell)

Emotional reactivity to subtle environmental changes

Deep processing of emotional experiences

Overwhelm in busy or chaotic environments

Emotional Dysregulation

Intense and rapid emotional shifts

Difficulty in managing or calming down from emotional arousal

Tendency toward extreme emotional reactions that are disproportionate to the situation

Race Dysphoria (Trace)

A sense of disconnection between one's race/ethnicity and ancestral heritage

Identification with a race or ethnicity different from one's ancestry

Cultural alignment with the chosen race rather than the ancestral background

Personality Variations Not Fit for NPD/HPD

Exhibiting traits of narcissism or histrionics but not meeting the full criteria for these disorders

Overemphasis on emotional validation without a pathological need for admiration or attention

Attachment Sensitivity

High emotional dependency on close relationships for validation

Extreme emotional reactions to perceived neglect or rejection from others

A pattern of seeking reassurance to maintain emotional equilibrium

Neurodivergent Traits in the Context of Family Systems

Inability to emotionally connect with family members while still feeling obligated to assist them

Difficulty understanding family dynamics emotionally despite intellectual understanding

Sensation-Seeking Traits

A high level of impulsivity tied to boredom or the need for stimulation

Seeking novel, exciting experiences without a clear thought of consequences

Dissociative Experiences Not Meeting Full Criteria for DID or OSDD

Occasional, brief detachment from thoughts or emotions without full dissociative identity disorder (DID) or other specified dissociative disorder (OSDD)

Perception of being disconnected from one’s body or thoughts, but without a distinct separate identity

Hyper Empathy without BPD

Intense emotional connection with others’ feelings, beyond the typical level of empathy

Difficulty distinguishing between one's emotions and those of others due to emotional absorption

Perfectionism and Overachievement without OCD

Persistent striving for excellence, coupled with an inability to accept imperfections

Overwhelming anxiety when standards aren’t met, but without the intrusive thoughts typical of OCD

Sensory Processing Sensitivity (SPS)

Overreaction to sensory input, such as lights, sounds, or textures

Difficulty filtering out extraneous sensory information

Tendency to feel easily overwhelmed in stimulating environments

Cognitive Rigidity

Difficulty adapting to change or new routines

Struggles with flexibility in thought patterns or problem-solving approaches

Preference for structured, predictable environments

Context Blindness

Difficulty understanding or interpreting social or situational context

Challenges with interpreting nonverbal cues or abstract social rules

Tendency to take things literally, with a narrow understanding of nuances

Non-Suicidal Self-Injury (NSSI) without Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

Engaging in self-harm behaviors (e.g., cutting, burning) as a way to cope with emotional pain or stress, but not meeting full criteria for BPD or other mental health disorders

Often a result of emotional dysregulation or lack of coping strategies, rather than an attempt at suicide

Introverted Thinking (IT) or "Autistic Thinking"

A cognitive style that involves internal processing and prioritizing logic over emotional considerations in decision-making

Often associated with a preference for solitary activities, and may involve difficulty in social interactions due to differing communication styles

Social Dysphoria (related to social anxiety)

An intense discomfort or sense of alienation in social interactions, even in the absence of overt anxiety

A deep feeling of being out of place or misunderstood in social situations without the extreme fear or avoidance seen in Social Anxiety Disorder

Rejection Sensitivity (not formally recognized in ADHD or BPD)

Intense emotional reactions to perceived rejection, even if the rejection is subtle or unintentional

This may be linked to a heightened need for emotional validation or fear of abandonment, without meeting full criteria for any specific disorder

Cognitive Exhaustion or Burnout without a Formal Diagnosis

An overwhelming feeling of mental fatigue due to prolonged stress, sensory overload, or emotional exhaustion

Difficulty thinking clearly, processing information, or focusing due to overloading the brain, without qualifying as a mental health disorder like depression

Compulsive Help-Seeking or People-Pleasing

Persistent tendency to seek validation or assistance from others to alleviate discomfort, even if not fully dependent on others for survival

Often driven by a fear of disapproval or rejection, but without meeting the criteria for dependent personality disorder

Identity Flexibility (without gender dysphoria or identity disturbance)

A sense of fluidity in one’s identity or self-concept, shifting between different roles or interests without a stable, fixed sense of self

May be experienced as a form of self-exploration or a natural evolution, without the conflict seen in personality disorders

Perceptual Sensitivity

Strong sensitivity to changes in environmental or social cues, such as changes in facial expressions or tone of voice, that others might not notice

Often results in heightened awareness of mood shifts in others, leading to emotional contagion or misinterpretation of others’ feelings

Emotional Perfectionism

A tendency to suppress or deny one's emotions in an attempt to appear calm, rational, or unaffected

Often linked to an underlying fear of being judged negatively or seen as weak, but not fulfilling the criteria for a specific personality disorder

tags just for reach

[openmindpsych]

i think there needs to be a shift in the way people talk about rejection sensitivity. while the sensitivity is often more than is necessary or appropriate, it's not totally unreasonably making things up to be anxious about. it reminds me of hypervigilance in ptsd - during childhood, there were tons of small rejections you experienced. and social rejection is a big deal - in the past, being rejected by your social group meant death! so your brain learned to pick up on those small rejections to stay safe. and even if you're in a safer environment now, like among friends who love you, your brain has already learned how to be cautious. it's annoying, and often unhelpful, but your brain is just trying its best to keep you safe. it's not just an overreaction or making up problems where there are none.

[alexidentitiescoiningblog]

this can be also a sign you have anxiety disorders

[melikhs-log]

Emotional Sensitivity and Intensity

Imi Lo’s Emotional Sensitivity and Intensity explores the unique experiences of emotionally intense and sensitive individuals. The book delves into the challenges and gifts of living with heightened emotions, such as the tendency to feel deeply, think profoundly, and connect intensely with others. Lo provides insights into managing emotional overwhelm, fostering self-acceptance, and embracing…

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[saccharinehell]

Everything's a sign if you are delusional enough

[alexidentitiescoiningblog]

anyone know what the questionnaire social battery of personality is about? can I cure by symptoms if I did that test?

tags just for reach

[insane-control-room]

my inbox: antisemitism (kill yourself brand) antisemitism (i only listen to the jews i like brand) antisemitism (you, jewish person, cannot define antisemitism brand) antisemitism (ignorant of the history of jews in the mena region brand) antisemitism (jews drink christian/palestinian blood brand) antisemitism (jews arent human brand) antisemitism (ignorant of the manifestos and mentality of terrorist groups brand) antisemitism (i dont know your stances on things but i see youre a zionist so i can be as nasty as i please) antisemitism (tries to educate jewish person on what antisemitism is) antisemitism (jews run a shadow government brand) antisemitism (jews are all rich white people brand) antisemitism (holocaust denial brand) antisemitism (holocaust inversion brand) antisemitism (pitting jews against queer people brand) antisemitism (pitting jews against people of color brand) antisemitism (pitting jews against arabs brand) antisemitism (mocking jewish words and organizations brand) antisemitism (any blend of the above)

do you know how many of those are off anon? :)

If this is you; a coward who cant even share their screen name to the person you're harassing; a performative cog who thinks that yelling at people online is activism; the guy at a rally with people holding nazi flags that you haven't kicked out yet because they're 'with you' on a cause; a strange little man who daily checks on what the jew might have said about them now like a weird stalker; then congratulations! you've committed a hate crime! (confetti) (puts mic to your klu klux klan covered face) how do you feel?

I am proud to be Jewish, and I am proud to be religious, and I am proud to be the descendant and representative of a nation that has persevered throughout history. I'm honored to receive youre disgusting, obscene, crass, and dehumanizing messages, as its a sign to me that no matter what i'd do, im first and foremost a jew. my very existence offends you, and thats very sad. FOR YOU! LOL.

I'm a Jew and I'm Proud.

anyways go look at my art and my queer little guys and maybe send me something nice <3 have a great day :3

[alexidentitiescoiningblog]

terrorists are doing horrible things to jews I hear a lot of bad news, I'm sorry!! 😲😪

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

"Just be yourself, outlive your emotions." - do you want to see me in jail?

[loving-puppy]

I see a lot about romantic obsession. But what about familial/platonic obsession?? Like- no. They're MY friend, you can't have them! They're MY parent, don't fucking talk to them. You can't take the few people who I have! Sure, you can date people. But I should still be most important to you! At the very least, I should be equal!

[alexidentitiescoiningblog]

the doctor said I have depression but I have only anxiety

But yes I don't think this way I'll last enough

my life used to be harder but every difficulty even today takes me down like I'm in hell

I need my parents to make my emotions stable

but it's not quite depression

I'm very emotional not empty or lonely like when I was a depressed child

[despoir]

Superiority-inferiority complex flag ⸻ a flag for those with a superiority-inferiority complex! made with NPD and BPD in mind, but one doesn't need either to use this flag.

the top four stripes are representative of the superiority part: purple is associated with regality and red with power, and the stripes point upwards. the bottom four stripes are representative of the inferiority part: blue is for low self esteem and green is for feelings of inadequacy, and the stripes point downwards. the star-like shape represents the bridge between the two complexes and how they intersect.

requested by anon, made by us!

@radiomogai

[rwuffles]

oOoOoOo i'm the scary incluspunk radinclus blogger you have on your dni. i'm:

pro-para and believe that paraphiles should be treated with basic human decency no matter what para they have and that anti-contact only applies in situations with nonconsenting individuals;

supportive of men & women with "weird" attraction that label it as being lesbian & gay, especially if they're trans men and trans women who are still apart of the lesbian & gay communities and especially if they're multigender;

believe in the inclusion of historical identities within the queer community (such as mspec lesbians & gays and other "contradictory" identities);

an intersex person who thinks that perisex people can be amab transmascs & afab transfems because i'm not going to dictate other people's experiences and how they should identify;

identifies with and coins harmless transids because, guess what, they're harmless and not hurting anyone;

and has this all in his before you follow!

if you have a dni, adhere to it! i do not want to be an "exception," and especially not to most of these ideas or views because by being "against them" you are quite literally refusing to see us as actual people and treating us exclusively based off of our paraphilias (if you're anti-para), denying our existence (sapphboy & bi gay), contributing to queer separatism and ultimately siding with terfs (anti-mspec lesbian & gay, lesboys & veldigirls, gaybians & straightbians, etc.), and against my friends' existences (anti-perisex amab transmascs & afab transfems, anti-harmless transid)!

[thesharkcave]

Parents who Love their Kids Cause PDs too

The belief, that only parents who absolutely despise their kids, can cause said kids to develop a personality disorder, is a dangerous misconception.

This belief majorly stems from the facts, that:

1. People think parents who love their children do everything right & parents who hate their children do everything wrong and

2. People think, trauma can only be caused intentionally & maliciously.

Which is both bullshit btw! Let me tell you why:

1. Parents who "love" (however you define that) their children often tend to think that this love is:

• always visible and obvious to the child => therefore the child never has to question that they're loved

• a sign that everything they do is done in the name of said love => therefore no action/behavior can be wrong/abusive/bad because they didn't mean it maliciously, it was done out of love

• a reason that the child should/will forgive them for any wrongdoings and that the simple existence of this love is enough to make the child happy => therefore the child has no reason to feel unloved, no reason to complain and no reason to cut them off

Many parents do not realize, that they rely on their child automatically knowing of this emotions existence to such a degree, that they fail to verbally communicate it often enough, fail to make their actions show said love and fail to acknowledge that something done out of love, does not equal it being good or non harmful.

To give you a personal example here: My parents love me, absolutely! They'd lay down their life for mine in a heartbeat.

But when I was growing up, their actions did not always reflect that. I went years without hearing the words and whenever I tried to communicate, that I felt unloved, I only got to hear that I was being ridiculous. According to them I had food to eat, a roof over my head and two living parents that didn't beat me, so I should be happy.

They expected me to know that they provided these things for me out of love and that that should be enough to satisfy my emotional needs. It wasn't and it rarely is.

Loving your child is worth shit, if you don't make sure to remind your child of that love frequently. Its worth shit, if you fail to pay attention and fail to show up for this child. Love alone doesn't win you the "greatest parent" award.

Similarly, a lack of love, doesn't immediately mean that you're a horrible parent. You can not feel love for your children and still make decisions that are benefitial for those children. You can not feel love for them and still be a parent that doesn't ever raise their hands against them, which will make you "better" than many loving parents who do raise their hands against their kids. The emotional feelings towards your children do not determine your ability to be a good parent, at least not inherently.

There is nuance, when it comes to children needing to have their emotional needs met and being able to sense whether its genuine or not, but if someone is good at faking emotions, one could make their child feel loved, without ever personally feeling that love (=> arguments can be made about whether or not the child will be able to understand the goodwill behind the faking and will be able to value that the parent did that for their benefit, instead of being sad about there not being emotional love, but thats not the point of this post).

What I am trying to say is this:

• parents who love their children are capable of not meeting their childs emotional needs

• parents who love their children are capable of doing things that end up hurting their children

• parents who love their children are capable of being so caught up in chores, work, relationship problems, etc. that they accidentally neglect their children

• parents who love their children are capable of doing things, that they may see as "good", "character building", "helpful for later", etc. but which will do more damage than good

• parents who love their children are capable of pushing them away by being too controlling, too smothering and too invested

Being a parent isn't easy, but love alone is not the recipe for producing non traumatized well adjusted children. Thats all I wanna tell you right here. Theres always nuance and reasons why things may go wrong, but in the end love doesn't protect against that.

2. Trauma isn't always caused maliciously & intentionally. That much is probably already obvious from the previous paragraphs, but I'll get into it regardless.

If a parent works two jobs, has arguments with their partner at the side, needs to do most of the chores and has two children (one maybe at toddler age, the other a teenager), one (or both) of those children might end up experiencing accidental neglect. Theres only so much a human being can do & devote their time to and while you can set priorities, sometimes you will accidentally neglect a child, because you have no time to do their homework with them, you have no time to go to the park and play with them, you're too tired to listen to them babble on about their interests, you're too distracted to properly congratulate them about their good grades and you're not present enough to realize they're always alone and barely leave their room anymore. Maybe you fail to realize health concerns, conflicts with their friends, arguments between the kids, etc. All the while you're trying your hardest to provide for your children and balance your own life. Accidental neglect is a thing.

If a parent was brought up by an emotionally colder parent or an absent parent or a combination of that, they may have never learned how one properly cares for a childs emotional needs.

They may think they turned out fine, because they have a job, they have a house and a family, everything they're supposed to achieve, so why should they bring you up any differently than they were themselves? Maybe they even saw some youtube videos and facebook posts on how kids these days are all sensitive little things and can't manage their lifes anymore. Maybe the parent makes it their misguided mission to make sure their own kids are resilient and strong, just like they are, so they have a good chance of success and survival.

They don't tell the kids they love them. They don't comfort them when they're sad. They don't hug them. They don't allow big emotional tantrums. They harshly punish bad grades and mistakes, because if the kid is to succeed and survive, the parents needs to help it stay on the path. That parent loves their child and expresses this love in a misguided attempt at helping it succeed in life and be even better off than they were. Accidental/misguided emotional neglect (and abuse if u wanna call it that) is a thing.

I could go on about this for ages! Theres a million different situations in which parents try their hardest and best to give their kids a good life and help them succeed, but still have their children turn out traumatized.

Theres side factors like being marginalized, bullying, a lack of resources, other relatives being unhelpful/abusive, kids & parents being disabled in some way, etc.

All the love a parent holds for their child, cannot save the kid from being traumatized and it cannot save the kid from developing a personality disorder later in life.

If love (the emotion) is to be effective, it needs to be followed up by actions. Meeting a childs emotional/physical/developmental needs isn't done by holding a certain feeling for the child & especially not if you never make sure the child understands how you show & give that love to them.

By now, you might be thinking "Yeah okay sure, I suppose I already knew that much, but why are we talking about it this in the first place?"

Good question and theres multiple answers to it:

• Some parents will still not acknowledge that they have the capacity to hurt their kids. Many of them place more value in being labeled as/feeling like a "good parent" than they do in actually...producing a healthy well adjusted child. They believe themselves immune to causing their child trauma, simply based on "loving the child" and "providing food/shelter" and thats dangerous.

• Many people regularely get invalidated in personality disorder centered spaces, or also trauma spaces in general, if they have contact with their parents/have now build a healthy relationship with them, etc. Even other PDers/trauma survivors have not understood, that being loved by your parents doesn't equal a good childhood and doesn't mean that you can't be traumatized by them to the degree of developing a PD.

• Many professionals do not realize the amount of impact, that emotional neglect can have and often blame the patient for hiding in their room, being too hard on their parents, being sensitive, etc.

• Many PDers/trauma survivors also invalidate themselves because of this! They may think "was it really that bad if my parents loved me?" or "is it even valid/am I allowed to be hurt by it, if my parents didn't mean to do that?". Its challenging to hold space for both: the acknowledgement that they were loved & the pain wasn't caused intentionally, as well as their own valid feelings of having been/still being hurt by it.

• Additionally theres many people who worry that their muted emotions/difficulties developing actual bonds, may cause them to be bad parents, since they cannot love their children in the conventional way. For them it might be important to hear, that actions usually speak louder than the emotions they were motivated by and that loving your child doesn't equal being a good parent, so not loving it doesn't equal being a bad parent.

A few closing notes:

• "love" is used here in the "societal definiton" way, or more the way people seem to use it to mean "unconditional lovey dovey feelings towards one or more people". love, is of course deeply personal and for many already includes the actions one takes to show said love. I use the general idea of it here, since thats often the way parents kinda mean it when they say it (+/- the part of providing the survival essentials of shelter and food or other material things..yk for arguments sake)

• everyone has a different opinion on whether or not children can/should be brought up by people, who can't feel love for them and whether said people can meet the childrens emotional needs. I think that if ppl who do love their kids are sometimes not capable of meeting their childrens emotional needs, having or not having the capacity to love, seems to not be an inherent guarantee to excell or suck at meeting a kids needs. therefore theres no reason to think that every person with an incapacity for emotional love will suck at meeting someones emotional needs. I mean its the same as with empathy, having a lack of that doesn't make you inherently suck at comforting people or being a good friend now, does it? its always individual.

• in the place of every "parent", you can of course put "caregiver" or whichever word fits your situation! its easier to just do the arguments with parents here, but it does of course extend to any person who takes care of a child.

• this is also not meant to be a post, that tells parents they always suck, or tell them that their love is worthless or whatever. you can see it more as a reminder, that love alone isn't enough if its just what you feel for someone. I mean...no romantic or platonic relationship will work well if you just love your partner/friend and pay rent and maybe cook a meal here and there. partners/friends have emotional & physical needs they need met and so do children. an emotion alone doesn't do that and especially not if you assume that its always known how you feel! children are individuals that have & understand different love languages and being a parent doesn't inherently mean you know what your child needs. you gotta actually ask it and interact with it in order to get to know your child and then act on that knowledge.

first posted on my instagram (same @)

[poisoned-sugar11]

This is a good post but I would like to add that by definition neglect is abuse. Always. It can be accidental abuse. It's still abuse.

[thesharkcave]

Neglect is abuse by definition, thats absolutely true! But its still up to the person whether they wanna call it that, which is why its worded that way in the post 👍🏻 Like as someone who was neglected, I call it abuse! But other people may not be comfortable doing so ^^

[alexidentitiescoiningblog]

Yes my parents did that too, I have a healthy relationship with them but I have anxiety and probably NPD

[manessha545]

Meeting of Waters, Amazon, Brazil: Confluence between Negro and Solimões.. This is Brazil’s Amazon, and the unique Meeting of the Waters, where the Rio Negro and Solimoes Rivers meet but don’t mix for miles until turn onto the mighty Amazon River... The Meeting of Waters is the confluence between the dark (blackwater) Rio Negro and the pale sandy-colored (whitewater) Amazon River, referred to as the Solimões River in Brazil upriver of this confluence. For 6 km the waters of the two rivers run side by side without mixing. This phenomenon is one of the main tourist attractions of Manaus. The river then flows another 60 km before mixing fully, but the phenomenon persists incompletely for another 30 km. Wikipedia

[alexidentitiescoiningblog]

I want to visit that!