Hi, this still Kitten from yinyangkitten. But for those who don't know me. I'm female & 22 years old. I love all types of art and drawings. I will try be more active on this blog. Enjoy your wounderful life. And remember your never alone and your always love.
There’s a happy ending to, because the robbery was unsuccessful, the couple ended up getting the money Eden needed from a movie inspired by em! Also John only had to serve part of his sentence. Check out their wedding photos btw they’re beautiful.
General Terming
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Alter - An alternate state of identity or consciousness as a result of trauma.
Splitting - A term in which to describe the forming of a new alter.
Fronting - The state of which alternative identity is aware of the outside world and is in control. It’s also very possible to have one or more alters fronting at a time.
Switching - Switching refers to when there is a switch in alternative states. Rapid switching is what it’s called when multiple switches occur in a small time frame. It can be stressful and disorienting.
Co-Conscious - Also known as co-con is where an alter who is not fronting is aware of the outside world.
Headspace - Also known as the inner world is a place in the mind where alters exist when they are not fronting. Not all systems have a headspace and there’s nothing wrong with not having one.
Dormancy - Is the situation in which an alter is unavailable for whatever reasons. This means they cannot be triggered out or so on. It can days to even years and is typically a result of a new trauma and is a way of coping.
Fusion - Where two or more alters and or fragments that form one. While it can be a permanent and or on-purpose change. They may split at anytime again, especially if there’s a new trauma or there’s a large amount of stress.
Integration - A term that can be coined for inference of a system accepting and building mentally on their trauma. It can be described for the healing process.
Final Fusion - The idea that all alters and or fragments with all form into one, singular alter. Though, not a singlet because the system can easily split again if stressful circumstances are brought to them. This is not ideal for many systems.
Positive Triggers - This is a trigger than is usually unrelated to trauma and is associated with an alter positively.
Negative Triggers - These triggers are typically correlated to trauma. It can induce flashbacks, or other trauma responses. These are best to avoided. Although, you shouldn’t try to trigger out an alter unless absolutely needed.
Somebody made a really good point below in the notes, so I think it’d be great to include that.
“Positive and negative triggers can both be related to trauma, positive triggers are something that generally draws a part/alter forward/near the front, and negative triggers are things that push a part away from the front. For example, if a part was created due to medical trauma, getting a shot may be a positive trigger even though it’s unpleasant. TBH both should generally be handled with caution “
To put it clearly, this actually very helpful to me as a writer and slight world building creator. I have an oc who do to past trauma throughout her childhood past had developed alters in order for her to cope with everything around her and trauma she under went. This simple helps me understand my oc and how her alters can work to feel more real. Thank you!
Every night you dream that you talk to a genie, when you wake up you can't remember what you wished for. One morning you wake up with a giant crab pincer replacing your right arm. What do you do?
I stare at it in awe and fear. Only to try and pick up a glass of water. Watching it break under my mighty claw pincher makes me grin happily at the sight, my enemies will now know the suffering greatly.
Every night you dream that you talk to a genie, when you wake up you can't remember what you wished for. One morning you wake up with a giant crab pincer replacing your right arm. What do you do?
I stare at it in awe and fear. Only to try and pick up a glass of water. Watching it break under my mighty claw pincher makes me grin happily at the sight, my enemies will now know the suffering greatly.
recurring themes in our lives - Pluto and Chiron placements
Persephone and Hades
when I think of recurring issues in our lives, I think of placements of Chiron and Pluto by the very nature and effects they both have on us.
Chiron is the wound that takes time to heal and which, more than that, is the wound that hurts but that the native can't even understand and be aware of. Chiron relates to feelings that bad cycles will repeat.
Pluto represents our greatest fears, where we may want to control things (exactly because of the fears) and also where we project ourselves. Pluto hints at the area in which we need to undergo a profound transformation in order to be more evolved and even to stop certain suffering in our lives.
therefore, I decided to bring a post about the recurring themes that Chiron and Pluto touch for those who want to go through this process of consciousness.
Chiron in the 1st house: wound related to own identity, not being able to perceive who you are. feeling incapable of initiating things and being the protagonist of the search for their identity.
Pluto in the 1st house: fear of imposing yourself or fear of being dominated, which can manifest in a few different ways, but the center of it is the intensity and at the same time the lack of control involving your self-image.
Chiron in the 2nd house: wound related to the feeling of comfort, security, the right to relax, to enjoy the pleasures of life. not feel stable and able to acquire security in life situations. living with the feeling of inner insecurity.
Pluto in 2nd house: fear of existing without your material possessions, fear of not having security, interruptions in life regarding comfort and stability, fear of things involving the 2nd house, which can lead to destructive behavior.
Chiron in the 3rd house: wound in relation to communication, free expression, the mind can be quite guided by the idea of incapacity, the feeling that others don't really listen to you, not feel ready for socializations.
Pluto in the 3rd house: fear of everything that involves expressions of what is on your mind. need to guard your thoughts because deep down you may feel that you are not so capable of expressing yourself, that you are not so intelligent.
Chiron in the 4th house: wound about family, feeling that the world or the place you are currently in is not a home for you. the lack of an emotional home, which hurts inside.
Pluto in the 4th house: fear of having your weaknesses and emotional issues exposed, fear of not having a comfortable family and home, which can lead to controlling behaviors.
Chiron in the 5th house: wound related to self-expression and ego. feeling that you are not good, you are not capable and that you will not be seen by others. wound related to the value that people (don't) give you.
Pluto in the 5th house: fear of not being appreciated; fear of no one knowing you. fear of not being loved, not receiving doses of love here and there. fear about the value of the things you do. fear of not being accepted by people.
Chiron in the 6th house: wound in regards to your sense of usefulness to others. wound that can even manifest on physical levels. feeling that you are here to give too much but receive too little. mental time and routine are problems that bring you soul-related wounds.
Pluto in the 6th house: fear of not being useful. fear of not having control of things on earthly levels, feeling that when one thing is out of your control, everything is out of your control. fear of being criticized.
Chiron in the 7th house: wounded with love and the idea of love, either by concrete experiences or by things that the native thinks. that is, there are ideas and fears that were never confirmed - but that native fears that they will one day. wound related to partnerships in general, the idea that people aren't deep enough for a relationship, the "failures" in relationships that cut deep into that individual's soul. wounded in relation to what every individual wants most: to be loved.
Pluto in the 7th house: fear of being alone. fear of not being good enough for others. fear of betrayal. feeling that you are not a good boyfriend or a good girlfriend, a good husband or a good wife. feeling that there will always be someone better. fear of partnerships, but a deep desire to relate.
Chiron in the 8th house: wound in relation to trust. hurt related to manipulation. native sees someone being manipulated a lot. wounded in relation to opening up, the idea of surrender on all levels haunts the individual, paralyzes him/her and makes him/her do several observations before allowing someone into his/her life. despite the difficulty in opening up - even on sexual levels, the apex of human intimacy -, the native can have difficulty discerning what is and what is not manipulation, and at the same time can not know how to close doors at the right times, closing him/herself wrong way.
Pluto in the 8th house: fear of being controlled. fear of being exposed to others. fear of having your privacy in front of others. feeling that all things are deeper than you see, fear of trusting others. fear of surrendering and opening the doors of your vulnerability.
Chiron in the 9th house: wounded about not being intelligent enough and capable of understanding profound things. feeling that things will never work out. a negative preconception of life. beliefs and philosophies of life can be seen in a fatalistic and/or pre-deterministic way. feeling of being lost and without a spiritual guide in this life.
Pluto in the 9th house: fear of not being in the world on spiritual levels. fear of expressing the deepest knowledge you have, whether for fear of criticism or exposure. fear of delving into dense knowledge all at once. denial of this, which can lead to the exact opposite of what the native wants to avoid, he can become obsessed with some point of a belief or the like because of his fear of not belonging spiritually.
Chiron in the 10th house: wound in relation to reputation, prestige and social recognition. the individual may feel that he/she was "born to be a failure" and that he/she can't get out of a situation to go to a better one. the negative view the natives hav of themselves may be intrinsically linked to how they think society views them or what they believe society expects of them. moreover, at the deepest level there may be a feeling that the goals pursued by people on a social level - career, material goods - are not capable of bringing satisfaction to the native. the native may also have difficulty finding him/herself on social levels - such as in the sense of career and vocation for life.
Pluto in the 10th house: fear of others seeing your inner weaknesses. fear of being publicly exposed. fear of not reaching your goals. fear of being a person out of control of things (or out of control of people). fear of not reaching a pleasant and stable social level. fear of lack of stability.
Chiron in the 11th house: wound in relation to social groups. not feel good enough to join groups. wounded in relation to groups that deny or do not perceive its presence. problems with friendships. feeling that you can't trust others. friendships that are important to you but that hurt too much.
Pluto in the 11th house: fear of not being in any group. problems involving identifications and ideologies. fear of getting involved in group activities. fear of being controlled by others. intense desire to do everything alone, denying their social needs, and at the same time fearing being alone. disharmony in relation to group integration.
Chiron in the 12th house: wound related to being quite deep but not being able to express it. wounded over deeper emotional and psychological issues that can't be expressed for some reason - fears, insecurities and desires are denied by you or by others around you. feeling that there is always something wrong around you, but not being able to deal with it. inner spirituality and life that bring some kind of discomfort to you.
Pluto in the 12th house: fear of knowing your depth. fear of your emotions and insecurities controlling you. fear of getting lost in the world and having nothing to lean on. feeling that your emotional life is so intense that few will understand, so you need to hide your inner life from everyone. fear of letting people get to know you for real. fear of what is deep and unconscious and at the same time a great attraction to it.
If you’re like me and have a large gap under your front door (someone could take a stick and just poke the leaning stick style door jam out), I recommend the Addalock. It’s small, perfect for traveling, and this lock is CRAZY. It’s so simple but the door does not move.
You can’t see it from the other side, either. It also cost about $20, and I can’t recommend it enough. Easy to travel with, too! Great for Air BnBs!
That’s why I have these on my doors. They get drilled into the side and once its flipped over the door nothing is getting it open. Not the door being unlocked nothing, I’ve unlocked the door and pulled and pushed as hard as I could and it didn’t budge. When I go on a trip this is what I use and when I’m home I leave it on too. No one is getting in here.
Okay I know that it is necessary for many but what do you do if you need medical attention and you’re not able to open the door from the inside? Can the fire department get through these at least?
Yes. The fire department can and will break down your door if necessary, it’s one of the reasons they have axes; it’s entirely possible for door frames to melt/expand/seize or otherwise become unopenable during a house fire but the door itself can be hacked down. Or the window. In rare cases, the wall. Firefighters don’t fuck around with collateral damage when lives are at stake.
Pink Prison, a comic I did for my color theory class this semester! we had to pick a color, research it, and do a piece related to it somehow. i chose pink :)
Let it continue!!! Here’s my addiction
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This fucking comic had been added to over the course of six years. That’s insane, it’s beautiful. It’s inspiring, all these people from different places at different times some have moved on other still here it’s wild.
I’m so much more productive after the sun goes down. While the sun is up I feel the weight of having to do things and it just overwhelms me.
But when the sun has gone to bed suddenly my time is my own. I can do with it what I will and oftentimes that means the cleaning I’ve been meaning to do, the projects I’ve been putting off. They suddenly don’t seem overwhelming to me.