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Redefining “Resolution” Innate unhappiness derives from a sense of longing that is in CONSTANT opposition of our desire to be still.

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MATCH GAME

  What does your life really look like if we remove the pretenses?

There was a show in the 70’s called “Match Game” (Maybe it has made a comeback?). Anyways, the contestant was asked a question and 6 celebrities wrote their answers on cards. Then, the contestant gave their answer and hoped the celebrities had matched them.

Oftentimes, we try so hard to not let the real “us” break the surface.…

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RESET A few weeks ago, I was having major phone issues. For some reason, the battery was unable to hold a charge.

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What If

A few months ago, I had a birthday. By all standards, this was supposed to be an easy year. No big numbers involved. Just a normal birthday. What is normal anyway?

I had a quiet dinner with friends, great conversations, quality time. I’m finding that quality time is one of my love languages. I need it. I need it to not be rushed. I need it to just be. These are my favorite memories. Then, as it…

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BEFORE I DIE First, before you freak out about the title, no, I am not dying or on my death bed.

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SEASONS

  If you’ve lived in Texas too long, you understand the weather is so wildly unpredictable! I mean, it could be snowy one day and 80 degrees the next. It’s weird! But it’s not just the weather that is so unpredictable, it’s the seasons as well. Sometimes, we have summer for too long. For example, it was 90 degrees this October. Fall is probably the shortest season we have.  Then there’s winter…

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Waste Management

  Waste management. I know what you are thinking! Why in the world would she write about such a disgusting thing?

Let me tell you why … I’m not talking about changing diapers or having diarrhea.

My favorite word in the entire English language is a synonym for the word “poop.” 3 years ago, during one of the most difficult things I have ever faced, I had a very close friend give me permission to…

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STILL As I wrote a couple of weeks ago about quitting, I snuck a couple of things in there, apparently, I still need help on.

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WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE QUITTING Can I ask you a question?  When’s the last time you quit something? Repeating the phrase in your head, this is not worth it or I don’t have anything left!

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EXIT THE FREEWAY     I’ve got a confession to make. For a while now, I’ve been in cruise mode.  I’ve had the speed set and have been unwilling to slow down.

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I Never Expected This

I Never Expected This

John 4.28-30

The woman left her water jug beside the well and ran back to the village, telling everyone, “Come and see a man who told me everything I ever did! Could he possibly be the Messiah?” So the people came streaming from the village to see him.

  God’s stories always involve redemption. Even when you’ve been a Christ follower since you were 15. Even when you don’t even know that at the…

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STEEL RODS

I received a text from my sweet friend the other day.  It was a quote from Holly Wagner.

“Joy is not a feeling. Joy is a decision. Joy is the steel rod going down your back that holds you in place during times of trouble.”

As I started to write, I was just going to talk about joy. But, as I prayed and sought scripture, trust came alongside. Then, as I was walking Andy this morning, The Lord, just…

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TAKE YOUR EYES OFF THE WATER

I’m a beach girl. Love the sand, love the ocean. It’s one of my favorite places to be. The sights and sounds of the ocean are so rhythmic, peaceful.  The water is mesmerizing. You can get so caught up in it, you lose sight of anything else.

My absolute favorite thing, is the beach early in the morning. Arriving between 5:30 and 6am. Coffee in hand, Bible in the other, and ocean for forever.

I…

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LIBS

Today is my friend Libs birthday!

Our story. I met her in the kindergarten hallway a few years ago. Introduced myself and said what most everyone says to her, “You’re the Loop Lady!” She does the video announcements at church.

She was showing her daughter her new classroom.

Fast forward  a few months. Beginning of December and she was teaching on Sunday morning. She was very vulnerable that day,…

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BOTH SIDES OF ALONE

I walked down the aisle when I was 18.

No, not that aisle.

The aisle to the front of church because I felt God calling me to full-time ministry.

I went on to be a youth pastor several summers during my college years.  I was highly involved in The Wesley Foundation at Texas Tech while I went to school.

I was alone.  Free to be all God wanted me to do. Free to be involved in whatever I had time for…

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YOUR WAY LED THROUGH THE SEA

Psalm 77.19

“Your road led through the sea, your pathway through the mighty waters-a pathway no one knew was there.

The sea is all around me. Well, not exactly, since I live in North Texas, but for the last few weeks the reference to the sea is daily.

Whether it is in a song, scripture, or quote someone sends me, the sea is in front of me.

My verse for this year has been Isaiah 26.7 “But for…

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RESCUED FROM OBSCURITY

In my mind’s eye, obscurity is the abyss.

The pit.

The wilderness.

Going in circles.

It’s a place we beg to get out of.

We want out now.

Not later.

Now.

We fight and fight.

We lose heart. We let despair wash over us. We are hopeless.

We get so weary of the constant barrage of arrows coming our way. There’s no light at the end of the tunnel.

No glimmer of hope.

Our status has changed. Our career…

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