Haunting

GenderQueer/All Pronouns/24 years old

[hopeandshadow]

Hey, so this is my Intro post:

I am a 24 year old (turning 25 this year) mentally ill and physically disabled genderfluidflux queer.

I can reclaim the slurs "Faggot", "Retard", "Narcissist", "Cripple", "Schizo" and "Psycho", so please, if I ever use those terms, don't get all mad.

I have other side blogs. You can probably find them if I ever like and reblog, but I keep them separate from each other as I have different wants for each blog. This is where I post activism, fat positivity, disability, and cute things I like.

My DMs are open but don't always expect an immediate response as I am disabled and even typing responses takes a lot of energy.

I want to make friends since I am homebound and only have my 3 partners to talk to on a daily basis. I'm not necessarily looking for another partner, but who knows. If you do want to talk to me in any way other than friendly, please be 21 or older.

Friends can be younger than 18, but I feel kinda uncomfortable talking to teens as I am 24. I am willing to be an adult "mentor" of sorts, who helps you understand the world and answer questions you may have with kindness and understanding.

Picrew of the body (we are plural)

[ishimarukiyotaka]

hot take comments like "I hope I get cyclosporiasis I want to lose 10 lbs" are not only obvious fatphobia but also part of mass illness normalization that has been an ongoing effort since 2020 to minimize the dangers of disease and infections

They want to act like high levels of sickness whether it be airborne or foodborne are normal and not the responsibility of agencies like public health or food safety regulation so they can get away with dismantling them.

[covid-safer-hotties]

"No one's going to die," they say. Factually incorrect and honestly we don't have good data on what a society that's normalized explosive diarrhea looks like, but y'all have an idea what the cholera era looked like, right?

Mass disease is not normal and preventable. One of the number one causes is how large agricultural companies refuse to treat their employees like humans: people picking the food you eat don't have bathrooms, so when they get sick, they're left with a choice to shit their pants and get back to work or squat in the field and get back to work. I know which I'd choose in their shoes...

Mass illness isn't just a public health issue, it's a workers' rights issue and more!

[justlurkingmusicblogs]

Vol. 1 Chapter 15 of Kapital:

Machine and Modern Industry

Excerpt from Section 9: The Factory Acts. Sanitary and Educational Clauses of the same. Their General Extension in the Workplace.

“What could possibly show better the character of the capitalist mode of production, than the necessity that exists for forcing upon it, by Acts of Parliament, the simplest appliances for maintaining cleanliness and health? In the potteries the Factory Act of 1864 “has whitewashed and cleansed upwards of 200 workshops, after a period of abstinence from any such cleaning, in many cases of 20 years, and in some, entirely,” (this is the “abstinence” of the capitalist!) “in which were employed 27,800 artisans, hitherto breathing through protracted days and often nights of labour, a mephitic atmosphere, and which rendered an otherwise comparatively innocuous occupation, pregnant with disease and death. The Act has improved the ventilation very much.” [214]

At the same time, this portion of the Act strikingly shows that the capitalist mode of production, owing to its very nature, excludes all rational improvement beyond a certain point. It has been stated over and over again that the English doctors are unanimous in declaring that where the work is continuous, 500 cubic feet is the very least space that should be allowed for each person. Now, if the Factory Acts, owing to their compulsory provisions, indirectly hasten on the conversion of small workshops into factories, thus indirectly attacking the proprietary rights of the smaller capitalists, and assuring a monopoly to the great ones, so, if it were made obligatory to provide the proper space for each workman in every workshop, thousands of small employers would, at one full swoop, be expropriated directly!

The very root of the capitalist mode of production, i.e., the self-expansion of all capital, large or small, by means of the “free” purchase and consumption of labour-power, would be attacked. Factory legislation is therefore brought to a deadlock before these 500 cubic feet of breathing space. The sanitary officers, the industrial inquiry commissioners, the factory inspectors, all harp, over and over again, upon the necessity for those 500 cubic feet, and upon the impossibility of wringing them out of capital. They thus, in fact, declare that consumption and other lung diseases among the workpeople are necessary conditions to the existence of capital. [215]

[covid-safer-hotties]

[isabellascarlett1]

Lack of hygiene isn’t shameful.

Unemployment isn’t shameful.

Lack of education isn’t shameful.

Reading difficulties aren’t shameful.

Writing difficulties aren’t shameful.

Messy rooms aren’t shameful.

A lot of folks are just really ableist and classist.

[queerpunktomatoes]

For non-USA-inauguration reasons (/sar) I'm just going to drop this list of anti-carceral mental health supports. (988 and other government-run resources are ultimately connected to the cops. This is a list of resources that will not report you /srs) Obviously, the bigger issues are things like housing, food, discrimination, etc, but if you need a life vest while we're still working on fixing the system, here they are.

~~~THRIVE Lifeline: text “THRIVE” to +1.313.662.8209 from anywhere, 24/7. Text-based support, by and for multiply marginalized people. ~~~Trans Lifeline: call 877.565.8860 in US or 877.330.6366 in Canada, Mon-Fri 10a-6p PT. Peer support and crisis hotline for trans people. ~~~BlackLine: call or text 1.800.604.5841 in US, Mon-Fri 6a-8p, Sat-Sun 5p-9p PT. Crisis support with a Black, LGBTQ+, and Black Femme lens, and a safe line to report police brutality. ~~~Wildflower Alliance Peer Support Line: call 888.407.4515 in the US, open 4-6p PT Mon-Thurs, and 4-7p PT Fri-Sun. Lived experience with psychiatric diagnosis, trauma, addiction, etc. ~~~Project LETS: text 401.400.2905, Mon-Sat 7a-1p PT for urgent support with psychiatric incarceration / involuntary hospitalization in the US. ~~~Don’t Call The Police: A database of local and national community-based alternatives to calling the police or 911 has been broken down by major US cities. https://thriv.life/DontCall

Please trust in the hundreds of thousands of people fighting for you right now. We love you. We are trying so hard to make a better world for you /gen

[only-knives]

how many times do i have to tell people. psychiatric institutions do not exist to protect mentally ill people. they exist to separate us from society and torture us into complicity. most people i have met in psych hospitals lie their way out. because there is no other way out. they don't help us there. some people find it beneficial, but most don't.

also, not everyone there even "belongs" there! i met someone who went to the ER for a headache and ended up in the psych ward! another person came in for an anxiety attack mistaken for a heart attack and got put in the psych ward. i was involuntarily admitted because they thought i tried to kill myself when i didn't! i had only told my doctor i was struggling with drinking and wanted to make sure i didn't need detox. and when i got there, they forced me to go cold turkey from all my medication (including the ones for my chronic illnesses!). i was stuck in bed for days, and this was then used against me as proof that i needed to be there!

(by "belong" i mean according to the actual written standards for hosptialization. i don't think anyone "belongs" in a psych ward)

these places are not safe. they were a compromise the ruling class made after people started realizing asylums were abusing, torturing, and effectively kidnapping women. they didn't stop doing that. they just made it look like they did. they convinced everyone that it was different this time.

a cage made of gold is still a fucking cage. (disclaimer: this is US-based experiences, i do not claim to speak for people in other countries)

[trans-axolotl]

new updated drive with psych abolition resources! it’s sorted into folders for specific subtopics for things like harm reduction, different types of support, disability justice readings, mad liberation zines, etc. it’s not complete yet—there’s a bunch more resources I want to add once I’m at my laptop again but wanted to share now!

[crippy-tangerine]

Psychiatric "professionals" will really take one look at someone wearing a respirator mask to protect against COVID and other airborne diseases, call them a hypochondriac and start diagnosing them with an anxiety disorder and obsessive compulsive disorder and a psychotic disorder and-

[throughkaliyuga]

btw i have no sympathy for psych nurses who get attacked by their "patients" (prisoners would be a far more accurate term), for the same reason i have no sympathy for cops when they're attacked on duty. you chose to work for a system of oppression, that has the ability to imprison anyone for any amount of time as soon as they act too much like themselves. you deserve everything that's coming to you. especially when every time you come on here to whine about how "a mean crazy schizo patient attacked meeee :(", you never explain what exactly you did to provoke them in the first place.

[madgirlramblings]

Nobody, including people you dislike, should be institutionalized. There is no excuse for anyone to face psychiatric abuse!

[fenrichaita]

Always question the missing reasons when a mental health professional talks about how they have been punched, bit, spit on, exc. Those who are hospitalized are routinely subjected to forced drugging, restraints, forced stripping, coercion, manipulation, violence, and isolation. They are detained and are often given no escape on their own terms. A psych sees any act of violence they commit as self-defense no matter the actual circumstances, and any retaliation or attempt at self-defense by the patient as violence.

[starblaster]

The very concept of 'voluntary' psychiatric hospitalization is so absurd and laughable to me. No one who has ever been subjected to psychiatric confinement has ever been fully informed of the kind of treatment they will receive in the psych ward. Informed consent does not exist in psychiatry.

You may naïvely go in as a 'voluntary' psych patient believing that psychiatric hospital staff are acting in your self-interest only to emerge finally realizing that their only job is to prevent you from having any human dignity or bodily autonomy whatsoever.

[lesbianp1lled]

I rewatched girl, interrupted last night and despite it being set in the 60s it MIRRORS how psych wards are today.

Getting forcibly IM’d (basically injected with a sedative) if you ‘act out’, checks every 15 minutes with a torch shining on your face, being forced to take meds you don’t want, getting put in isolation (I’d just like to say tho in the uk isolation is typically on PICUs not acute wards). Like. It is actually mad not much has changed since the 60s in term of psych hospital care and it hasn’t improved. It makes me super sad honestly. I wish mentally ill people were treated better.

[lesbianlamictal]

Psychiatric wards need to be reformed asap. It is not okay to forcibly inject patients with sedatives against their will. It’s not ok to restrict how much time you spend outside. It’s not ok to overmedicate patients. Yes, even if you deem them unwell. Because even if you’re mentally ill you deserve autonomy in your treatment.

[chronicillnessresourcelibrary]

ME/CFS Masterlist

This week is ME/CFS Awareness Week (at least for some of the world), so shout out to all the folks out there living with this condition and here is a masterlist of every resource I've found so far on myalgic encephalomyelitis...

🔹 General info:

It’s not just ‘chronic fatigue’: ME/CFS is much more than being tired

What is Post-Exertional Malaise?

🔹 Diagnosis:

Diagnosis of ME/CFS; What You Need to Know

ME/CFS and Blood Tests – an in-depth look at what blood tests should be done to ensure your diagnosis of ME/CFS is correct, what the results mean, and when blood tests should be repeated

🔹 Managing fatigue:

Post-Exertional Malaise (PEM) – What It Is and How To Avoid It

Pacing Tactics

Ideas for Managing Fatigue (Note: This piece is sponsored by CareCo Ltd and features affiliate links)

🔹 Other symptoms:

Strategies for Brain Fog – This article is aimed at people with long-COVID but the strategies suggested may work for anyone dealing with brain fog

Sleep Tips for New Spoonies – not specifically aimed at ME/CFS but many of the tips will apply

🔹 How to cope with ME/CFS:

Energy Conservation – a Tumblr post by @rthritis

Energy Conservation Techniques; Home Management – a Tumblr post by @rthritis

How to Keep House While Drowning: A gentle approach to cleaning and organising by KC Davis [📖 book recommendation]

11 Tips For Making Meal Prep Easier to Save Spoons

The Tray™ – how to feed yourself without preparing food [🎥 video]

Tips to make showering easier when you are physically disabled – a Tumblr thread not specifically aimed at ME/CFS but many of the tips will apply

The 7 Types of Rest & How to Use Them to Feel Better [🎥 video]

The Bedbound Activity Masterlist

🔹 Treatment, diet, and lifestyle:

All Current ME/CFS Treatments

The low histamine diet – a resource from Johns Hopkins' ME/CFS clinic

Dietary Supplementation for Fatigue Symptoms in ME/CFS – a journal article looking into supplements like L-carnitine and guanidinoacetic acid, oxaloacetate, CoQ10–selenium combination, NADH and NADH-CoQ10 combination [📃 research]

Fact Sheet: Food and ME/CFS – covers what foods are best to base your diet on plus some information about supplements, weight gain, weight loss, gastrointestinal symptoms, and when to see a dietitian; by The Association of UK Dietitians

🔹 Other:

Tips for Applying for Benefits with ME/CFS [🇬🇧 UK]

Please let me know what other resources you would like to see on ME/CFS; asks (including anons) are always open and you're welcome to reblog or comment to make a suggestion.

[chronicillnessresourcelibrary]

Self-Care Troubleshooting

This website is an interactive self-care guide for when you feel like shit; it asks you a few questions and gives you gentle reminders for self care...

➡️ click here ⬅️

(especially good for when you don't have the spoons to figure out what you need)

[kneptoons]

Shoutout to leftists who are too poor/disabled to give back to their community.

Shoutout to leftists who are too poor/disabled to shop at local/small businesses.

Shoutout to leftists who are poor/disabled and have to buy things from Amazon and other megacorps because it’s the most cheap or convenient.

Shoutout to leftists who are too poor/disabled to reduce their environmental footprint because they need the single-use plastics.

Shoutout to leftists who can’t go vegan because of dietary needs, disordered eating, or neurodivergence.

Shoutout to leftists who can’t volunteer or go to community events/protests/noise demonstrations because of inaccessibility.

Shoutout to leftists who can only be politically active online because they’re housebound.

Shoutout to leftists who are disabled and are rarely politically active because they simply don’t have the energy.

Shoutout to leftists who can’t be politically active because they’re under the care of a guardian or are trapped in an abusive situation, and they don’t have control over their finances/belongings.

Shoutout to leftists who can’t read theory, or who have trouble reading theory, but still do their best to learn.

Shoutout to leftists who can’t understand theory at all because of cognitive/intellectual disability.

Shoutout to leftists who want to be more active in their community but can’t because they struggle with anxiety, socializing, or maintaining relationships.

Shoutout to leftists with personality disorders, complex trauma disorders, conduct disorders, OCD, psychosis, and any other leftist whose personality or thoughts often unwillingly go against their beliefs due to a trauma response or chemical imbalance.

Shoutout to leftists who don’t have any “practical” skills that would be needed in a commune (i.e farming, building, sewing)

Shoutout to leftists who are too busy simply trying to survive to even think about being politically active.

Shoutout to leftists who have to always ask for mutual aid but can never give back.

Shoutout to all the leftists who can’t do this and can’t do that and can’t do the things that leftists are “supposed” to do. No one person is perfect.

You aren’t a fake leftist for not being able to do these things. All that matters is that you put in the effort, in whatever way that you can.

It’s not about your abilities as an individual. It’s about our power as a collective.

[sweetbittersweets]

Can we normalize cuddling with your friends ? Physical affection doesn’t always have to be sexual.