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Lord, what do you want from me?

Universe, why do you keep taking from me?

Satan, why do you keep score of my pains like its something you gain?

Honestly, same.

Havent been feeling the same.

How have I been lately? I've been an asshole.

Do I feel I lack importance? mostly.

How do I feel regularly? empty.

....I, Im trying my best

-Experience something heart breaking

-feel like crying

-cry a single tear

-deep breaths &look to the sky

-dismiss all thoughts that are negative that come until something positive comes my way

-bottle all feelings attached to thoughts until my body feels calm

-latch on to my goals and find a way to motivate myself forward

-hate myself every night before bed even tho I've done everything I can do but people still say I'm not doing enough or good enough

-repeat

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Sometimes I use my dbt skills to bottle my feelings... idk how it all cycled back...

Well then...

Damn.

I like to show my titties to Nouns

People

Places

And

Things

Do you know what always works out: something I put my energy into

thelxipea

Difference between being looked at and being seen

My spiritual pussy throbs for one man 😭

Im finally happy even when Im not with my kids

Uuuuuuugggghhhhhhhh

#ugh fml #ughhhh #ugh #but ugh #just ughhh #dang it

Ive never felt so bitter and yet completely at peace before.

I was molested, thats not my apart of my identity, its something that happened to me, a part of my story. If someone chooses to make that my identity in their eyes, that's a them problem not a me problem.

Thank you to the folks who kept my kids safe while I got my shit together.. but Im ready for them back.

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I'll always respect my daughters father for being a good enough man to let me go and realized I deserved better then he could give me.

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